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Post by Will on Apr 4, 2023 18:42:59 GMT -7
Thanks guys, appreciate the support.
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Post by Will on Apr 5, 2023 13:25:05 GMT -7
Hey guys,
well praise God and partially thanks to your well wishes I didn't stumble but kept going in faith and God came through.
Tuesday really sucked. At work, halfway through the shift I made a huge mistake, that I did know not to do, but for some reason my brain forgot. It was in front of a bunch of people and I got publicly reprimanded, something I really hate (guess everyone does!) I actually got sent home early (I thought) and was worried I may have lost my job. Then, getting to my car at the (early) end of the shift, I put it into reverse and it stalled. It does that sometimes, frustrating. So I turned the ignition again, loud bang! And the smell of gas. I turned the ignition again and the car started eventually but something had clearly broken and the whole thing was juddering like crazy and sounded really bad, like a bad cylinder misfire. But it was still running so I drove home slowly, hoping it would somehow clear up. Nope, was obviously busted somehow and juddered and coughed all the way home. I was gutted and did not know how to deal with it. I really can't afford another repair of this car (had a major rebuild done last year).
I was going to pour myself a whiskey, but first put on something on the screen to take my mind off it. I thought screw it I can't handle this I need something, so I went to youtube and typed in the latest Rangers FC game highlights. Was about to hit space bar to play it. But thought, okay I don't know how to handle this situation. I may have lost my job and the car is broken, again. But maybe I should just go to bed not knowing whether it's going to be okay (but kind of knowing it won't be) and leave it to God to sort out. So that's what I prayed 'God, I've got nothing. I don't know how to deal with this, so I'm leaving it to you. I'm praying for a miracle. Please somehow fix the car so it's fine. Honestly, it felt like I really didn't believe that would happen. Didn't feel like I had much faith.
So got up in the morning. I figured I needed to get the ball rolling early with the mechanic. Needed to let him know that I would be in with the car today and it was urgent. Was working out in my head what I would say to him, awkward because the stalling thing is something I've asked him to fix before (but they couldn't replicate the problem), this new break would be kind of a result of it not being fixed before, so how should I say that.
Got in the car and opened the hood. Had a look but couldn't see any major damage or burns or anything like I expected. Did not want to do more damage by starting it.
So then I got in and started the engine. It purred like a kitten.
No damage, no juddering. All fine. I couldn't believe it!
I said 'God, if you give me another shift at work tonight to let me know they're not going to fire me for last night, and it goes okay, I'm going to have to admit that you totally came through on this and completely turned it around.
Well of course He did. The shift was the longest, most lucrative shift I've ever had, and I learned that my two colleagues also got sent home virtually at the same time as me the night before. Wow God is good, and faithful. This really taught me a valuable lesson. I don't NEED to know how the problem gets solved. Just go to bed, pray to God and leave it in His hands.
Praise you God, you are good and worthy and Holy and merciful. Thank you!
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Post by Will on Apr 9, 2023 17:25:59 GMT -7
10 days, pretty stoked.
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Post by Ɖσмιиιc on Apr 9, 2023 21:16:58 GMT -7
Thank you Jesus for helping us. Please help us today too.
Sent from my SM-T380 using Tapatalk
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Post by Will on Apr 12, 2023 8:25:48 GMT -7
13 days, stoked. Boy it's really hard going though!
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Post by KevinesKay on Apr 12, 2023 15:59:03 GMT -7
Sorry to hear that you're struggling. Have you read Easy Peasy yet?
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Post by Will on Apr 12, 2023 18:59:05 GMT -7
No, sorry where can I access it? Thanks!
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Post by KevinesKay on Apr 12, 2023 20:55:38 GMT -7
Easypeasymethod.org
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Post by Will on Apr 13, 2023 2:37:43 GMT -7
Hmm this looks really good! So far the no video method is working well for me, and don't really want to mess that up. But I'll make a deal with you - if I stumble into porn again, I'll read this and give it a real go. Can report today that for the first time since I last watched porn, I actually feel a BIT better today. It's not been a completely crappy day today, like most of them for the last two weeks. Praise God for that. Nothing huge has happened. Have done laundry, done some work from home, and caught up with some friends by email. For the first time in two weeks I'm even within sight of feeling 'normal'. That is unbelievably better than where I've been recently. One good thing was going to a SLAA meeting last night. Was a blessing. Really all it was was hearing other guys' testimony and honestly how bad everybody was feeling! And sharing how bad I was feeling. Made me realise I'm not alone, and was reminded by a brother that the solution is spiritual. I have been caught up with my body and various physical ailments and pains and injuries, etc. But the solution is not in considering these, but in the saviour our spiritual solution. Anyway, God is good. Thank God He has returned some of His wonderful blessings to me today. It's a slow start for this period of sobriety for me, but maybe that's a good thing. The danger zone is when things start going well! Two weeks tomorrow, thank God.
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Post by Will on Apr 13, 2023 15:49:50 GMT -7
Two weeks : )
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Post by KevinesKay on Apr 13, 2023 19:06:40 GMT -7
Congratulations
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Post by Will on Apr 15, 2023 8:19:41 GMT -7
16 days :]
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Post by Will on Apr 17, 2023 11:04:30 GMT -7
18 days!
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Post by Ɖσмιиιc on Apr 18, 2023 19:18:23 GMT -7
Good work staying with Jesus.
Lord, please help us.
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Post by Will on Apr 19, 2023 19:30:34 GMT -7
20 days
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