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Post by Will on Dec 19, 2022 20:15:08 GMT -7
Thanks bro! Yes hopefully 2023 will be the best year yet!
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Post by Will on Dec 27, 2022 9:17:36 GMT -7
Celebrating one month sober Very blessed. Have had a tough few days with it. The thoughts about lust are constantly bombarding my brain, without the (false) outlet of porn and masturbation. And I have to be constantly on guard and aware. But, praise God it's working. Slowly it is getting easier not to look at women irl.
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KevinesKay
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Post by KevinesKay on Dec 28, 2022 22:45:24 GMT -7
Congratulations on 1 month. And keep gaining victory in claiming custody of your mind and eyes. For me, I've now discovered that the real war is in my own mind. Porn and MB are simply extensions and symptoms of uncontrolled eyes and a free-racing mind. If I keep losing battle after battle after battle with lust and fantasy, then I will lose the war, and I will go back to P and MB. But if I win the war in my mind, and that can only be done with God's power, then I will be victorious. I will conquer. I'll finally be free. Freedom from my old master, sin, comes from serving my new master, Jesus Christ.
For the weapons of our warfare are not carnel, but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds. Casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God. And bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ.
2 Corinthians 10:4,5
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Post by Will on Dec 29, 2022 5:48:19 GMT -7
Porn and MB are simply extensions and symptoms of uncontrolled eyes and a free-racing mind.
This !
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Post by rical on Jan 4, 2023 5:30:34 GMT -7
Congratulations on month one
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Post by rical on Mar 17, 2023 4:17:34 GMT -7
Celebrated 90 days last Saturday. My walk has not been without failures however I have not intentionally sought ways to sexually simulate myself. Going to SA meetings, either live or on zoom 3-4 times a week, has made all the difference for me. It’s not Christian however, after 30 plus years of trying to get free, I finally have people in my life that I can council with and that are willing to walk along side me. It’s only through constant vigilance that I will remain free from the lustful thoughts that attack me every chance they get.
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Post by KevinesKay on Mar 17, 2023 17:31:30 GMT -7
Thanks for the update rical. Congratulations on reaching the big 90.
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Post by Will on Mar 20, 2023 22:39:41 GMT -7
Shalom bros! Well thought I would check in. Am doing well with sobriety praise God. Have 17 days clean, using the somewhat radical method of not watching ANY moving images of any kind! It's working great. Am realising how huge my addiction to just audiovisual entertainment, non-porn, was. I would watch hours and hours of sports and tell myself 'it's better than porn!' But that crutch of needing to consume screen entertainment all the time was a big part of my constant downfalls with porn. It's early days but I feel with God's help I have turned a corner. Thank you Jesus!
Hey Rical I'm so stoked to hear your success man!! 90 days is huge! God bless you!
Have also been listening (for the first time) to Mike Genung's Blazing Grace podcast. Wow it's great! What a blessed resource! (Am getting into podcasts a lot more now ha ha! Also loving The Line of Fire with Michael Brown and Bible Project) God bless you guys! Keep going strong!
In Christ,
Will
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Post by savedbygrace on Mar 21, 2023 13:32:04 GMT -7
Thanks be to God!!
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Post by Will on Mar 28, 2023 21:29:24 GMT -7
BUSTED!!! At the weekend. God has been merciful to me and has not struck me down as I deserve.
Seems like pride really attacks me when I come on here and celebrate any amount of sobriety! Not sure what to do about that. You know what got me this time? It was putting on a Christian debate between Dr. Michael Brown and some Hebrew roots guy about his new chart (with like the Haitians and Mexicans as various Israelite tribes). What can be wrong with that, right? Well it's a VIDEO, that's what's wrong with it - for me. My warped brain cannot look at moving images of any kind without transitioning into the state of 'hmm okay I remember this 'being entertained' and indulging eyes for enjoyment. I wonder what else I can look at that I would enjoy looking at? Crazy!! But there it is. NO video for me! It's the only thing that works. God bless you guys!
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Post by KevinesKay on Mar 29, 2023 6:08:10 GMT -7
The flesh doesn't care. If I expose my flesh to any image it can use to indulge itself, it's going to do what the flesh is going to do.
It's kind of like the Hulk. Once it emerges, Dr. Banner cannot control it. He cannot reason with it. He cannot overpower it. So what does he do? He doesn't let it out. By not getting angry. Unless he gets angry, Dr. Banner is not controlled by the Hulk.
By living in the spirit and not exposing my flesh to it's indulgences, it remains. Once I let it out, there's no stopping it. I cannot control it. I cannot overpower it. Nor can I reason with it.
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Post by Will on Mar 31, 2023 14:45:39 GMT -7
I like this Hulk analogy Kevin! Well, busted again on Thursday. Continued watching movies when I knew I needed to cut them off.
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Post by Will on Apr 3, 2023 9:42:19 GMT -7
Just checking in. It's day 4 today. The last four days have been like hell. Miserable, everything going wrong. Praying there will be some relief tomorrow.
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Post by KevinesKay on Apr 4, 2023 13:55:17 GMT -7
Hang in there Will. Bad things will happen. But we don't have to act out because of it. Acting out never makes anything better. It only makes things worse 100%.
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Post by Ɖσмιиιc on Apr 4, 2023 18:09:32 GMT -7
Praying and God still loves you, just get back up and seek Him until He reveals Himself to you.
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