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Post by Deleted on Oct 8, 2015 5:51:15 GMT -7
Dani, thank you and remember you are free to express them to me in private.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 8, 2015 10:57:44 GMT -7
Daniela, I appreciate so much your desire to be pure and righteous before God and man. I read your posting from time to time and each time I see that your heart is true. I want to encourage You with something I learned while coaching a national speech champion. REMEMBER YOUR AUDIENCE! To a certain extent BG tries to remain faithful to those who post, but anyone with an account can read what has been written. Choice is always yours, but think about the man you are going to marry someday reading what you post. Would you want him to find out things about you here that he'd much rather discuss with you alone. I had to learn this lesson the hard way as someone I love read my journal years ago that was quite detailed back then. I was overcome with much embarrassment. Please don't let that happen to you. Keep writting and stay in touch with Amy and others. Safe driving on RECOVERY ROAD!
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Post by Deleted on Oct 14, 2015 4:15:50 GMT -7
Hoping all is well and your staying close to your accountability partner.
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Post by Daniela on Nov 1, 2015 13:02:32 GMT -7
Hello everyone, I'm back to BG! Admittedly, I haven't stayed close to my accountability partner, but I haven't acted out either :-). Life has been extraordinarily busy and challenging for me, so that I haven't really been tempted to MO again. However, I've been tempted in my thought life (these past days in particular), and I'm praying to the Lord to take these fantasies away from me. Background is that I'm interested in somebody, and this time it looks like he is also interested in me :-). But nothing is for sure at this point, and even if something would develop, I would still have to keep my thought life under control. Huge challenge!
Anyway, I would appreciate your prayers concerning this man I've been getting to know. @amy: I hope to be in touch with you soon. I'm still rather busy, but as of next week, life won't be so fast-paced anymore (at least temporarily!).
I hope you are all doing well!
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Post by Deleted on Nov 1, 2015 13:47:35 GMT -7
Hey Dani, glad to hear from you. And you better get into contact with me soon. I been worried that you strayed. I am thankful you haven't. You will have to tell me more about this man you are interested in.
our thought life is where most sin begins. So we do need to get control of it. Have you tried praying for purity in you thoughts and dreams? I pray for purity over mind, heart, soul and body. I can tell when I forget...the dreams and thoughts get out of hand.
I am happy that things are going well for you. Be blessed.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 13, 2015 10:49:01 GMT -7
So glad to hear that you have been in contact with your accountability partner. That is so key to winning the war on this. Also we miss you here in the post. Please take at least one day a week to let us know how you're doing. Also how is that new relationship going? Is he a spiritual man strong enough to lead you in the right godly direction?
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Post by Daniela on Mar 29, 2016 7:05:09 GMT -7
Hello everybody, I guess it's time for an update. I haven't posted lately, since I haven't struggled with MB since last fall. In fact, I haven't fallen back into the habit for almost 6 months now! Part of the reason was that I was quite depressed, which of course had an impact on my libido. Emotionally, I'm doing much better now thank God, but I found that once you haven't engaged in the habit in a while it's easier to resist. Nevertheless, this touch hunger has really increased lately, and it's especially hard when I wake up in the morning. Furthermore, a young man (a coworker of mine) who I was interested in last year, finally came up to me and told me that he was open to enter into a courtship with me! Last year, he was interested in somebody else, so he didn't reciprocate my affections. However, I have moved on and came to the conclusion that he wouldn't be the right one for me - all the more I'm going to return to Europe this summer. But it has been a temptation, as I have been playing with the thought to be together with him, which of course also brought up fantasies again. Just this morning, I caught myself thinking about giving myself relief again. I'm experiencing quite some tension right now. It's really hard for me dealing with the fact that there will be no release for my sexual urges in the near future. I would appreciate your prayers!
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Post by Deleted on Mar 29, 2016 7:16:46 GMT -7
Hi Dani! So glad to hear from you hon! You are returning to Europe for good or just for the summer? Satan will keep trying different ways to get you back into sin. Stay on guard. If you have more trouble in the morning, set your alarm and make yourself spend time with God praying and reading the bible first thing when you wake up. That might help. I am glad you are feeling better emotionally.
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Post by Daniela on Mar 30, 2016 7:29:00 GMT -7
Hi Amy, I'm going to return to Europe for good. I don't feel impressed to stay in the States longer. Of course there is apprehension involved in returning back to this secular environment, but I'm learning to trust God in this matter.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 30, 2016 13:11:56 GMT -7
Hi Daniela,
Satan has found your weak point. After giving you some peace time, he has come back to attack you where your longings are. In my opinion, if you don't pray at the moment of urge, if you weaken your life of faith then you'll give up. Living in a secular inviroment is very important to be in a little circle or group of believers who regularly meet to pray, read the Bible, discuss, help each other. Try to find them.Being with God is the best protection against all attacks of the evil. Being with God will protect you against depression or other negativity because they are products of the evil and the evil runs away when God comes (in prayer with faith)
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Post by Deleted on Mar 30, 2016 16:33:55 GMT -7
Dani, I agree with Dan. Find a group of believers you can become close with as soon as you can once you move back to Europe. Don't be afraid to lean on them when you need prayer for anything. If you feel God is leading you back to Europe, there is a reason behind it. Stay in prayer that you continue on the path He has laid out for you.
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Post by Daniela on Apr 14, 2016 14:53:47 GMT -7
Ok, I'm off from today until Sunday, and when I have too much time to myself, I tend to get in trouble more easily. So this morning I was tempted to engage in self-pleasure again, and I even started doing something that could have brought me down that road. But since I only know too well that this kind of short-lived pleasure would only result in shame and unfullfillment, I didn't act out any further. It's still quite hard for me to realize that I don't have any prospects to get married at this point. Marital sex must be so wonderful. Nevertheless, I'm positive that I shouldn't start a closer relationship with the young man who just expressed his interest in me. So I'm praying that the Lord may help me to stay strong...
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Post by Deleted on Apr 15, 2016 4:23:21 GMT -7
Praise God you stopped! That is the Lord being faithful and giving you the strength and wisdom to say no to the flesh.
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Post by Daniela on May 11, 2016 8:00:25 GMT -7
Hello again friends! I'm going through a rough time again temptation wise. During the second week of my monthly cycle, my cravings for intimacy tend to reach unbearable heights, if you can put it that way. Plus I'm sleep-deprived these days being the Resident at our Lifestyle Center right now, i. e. I'm living in the Center together with the lifestyle guests, having to attend to their needs in the evening and getting them started early in the morning. Even though I would like to be able to sleep some more, I really like ministering to these precious people, and I think service to others helps us to distract our thoughts. However, when I'm off work and all by myself during the day, it's easy to start fantasizing. Thus, I just indulged in the wildest imaginations, knowing that this is sin - even though I didn't act out on my sexual thoughts. I just asked the Lord to forgive me. Of course I keep asking Him for a spouse, but I don't know when and if He will ever provide. The thing is I don't know how much longer I can make it without falling back into the habit of self-pleasure. My longest period of soberness so far has been 2,5 years. Right now, I haven't laid hands on myself for 7 months. I know I can do it if I really exercise my will. I know the Lord won't keep me from doing it. It's really hard. Please continue to pray for me!
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Post by Deleted on May 11, 2016 12:07:48 GMT -7
I am praying for you hon.
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