Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
|
Post by Deleted on Apr 19, 2015 11:04:30 GMT -7
BOM, It's good news about your degree and improvements in your Financial situation. You've worked hard for it.
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
|
Post by Deleted on Apr 19, 2015 11:09:35 GMT -7
Degree is done, but no improvements in the financial situation yet. Hopefully the new degree will help in that area tho.
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
|
Post by Deleted on Apr 19, 2015 11:09:35 GMT -7
Degree is done, but no improvements in the financial situation yet. Hopefully the new degree will help in that area tho.
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
|
Post by Deleted on Apr 19, 2015 11:10:52 GMT -7
KK,
Church was good. Meeting with Pastor was good. This Church doesn't do "men's groups" but they do something called Life Groups. I'll be writing the Pastor in the next day or so asking to be hooked up with one of those. I need the added accountability.
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
|
Post by Deleted on Apr 19, 2015 11:29:09 GMT -7
Sorry mate, 'jumped the gun' on the financial situation, but I know it will improve. Good news about Church and the life groups.
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
|
Post by Deleted on Apr 19, 2015 11:35:26 GMT -7
Its ok Stev. I'm sure God has a plan.
I've never belonged to a Men's group or any other type of church group. Hadn't really ever gone to Church consistently till just recently. But, this is something I know in my heart I need to do, so will do so.
I understand living in the sticks. I live out on the prairie. Nearest gas station or stop n go is 18ish miles away. So is the Church I'm attending. But, I like where I live and have no complaints in that regard.
|
|
wiltingiris
Member
Posts: 155
Occupation: Stay at Home schooling mom
Interests: Worship ministries, Moms ministry, Awana, Childrens church.
|
Post by wiltingiris on Apr 20, 2015 10:27:37 GMT -7
If you guys don't mind me saying I pray for you and love you all with Gods love but sometimes I get depressed hearing the stories. I read some and if they get depressing I try not to finish them. I do pray for the people and do hope things get better. I feel people's pain as if my own and it hurts really bad. I use to be called an intercessor by my old church because I could pray with the feeling of the other people. I am sorry if I don't write in everyones post. I also try not to spend to much time on the net. It can be a hinder for me and my relationship with Christ and also with my family. I just want you to know I acknowledge your presence and are aware of your pain and am praying. I know that your sincerity will be rewarded and of course all of your efforts. God bless.
|
|
wiltingiris
Member
Posts: 155
Occupation: Stay at Home schooling mom
Interests: Worship ministries, Moms ministry, Awana, Childrens church.
|
Post by wiltingiris on Apr 20, 2015 10:27:39 GMT -7
Sorry I double posted by accident
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
|
Post by Deleted on Apr 24, 2015 23:54:20 GMT -7
Good morning,
I have not been posting much, just because life has been hectic. However, I want to change that. So, here is my latest update.
One week from today, my wife moves out. I am ready and so is she. It is not that we are at each other's throats or anything. I think it is that we both know this is what is right for each of us at this point. That does not mean the marriage is over. I honestly do not know. I do know we both have healing and growing to do and that is hard (for us) living under the same roof. So, I believe this is a good thing and I believe God supports this action.
My wife's moving out will be a test of sorts for me. In the past, most of my acting out was always when my wife was away. I look forward to that test as I am confident I will be able to stay the course. Just the same, the test is necessary all the same to prove to myself that I can maintain the course I have set.
I just completed day 41 of the SCF course.
I have a new dog. Just what I need since I already have three that will be here on the ranch with me. But this one showed up as a stray and is only a pup...probably 4-6 months old and I just didn't have the heart to turn her away. Interestingly, she is already house broken and spayed. We have searched the lost and found with the local Pound and Craigslist as well as driven around looking to see if anyone put out any flyers... but nothing. So, I reckon she will stay. She appears to be an English Pointer mix...going to be a big dog. Very loving, appreciative, and gentle.
Speaking of the new dog..I was at the pet store yesterday and was triggered. The checkout girl was the type that in the past I would have ogled and then fantasized about for some time. This time, I caught myself, averted my gaze quickly, and barely even remember what she looked like now. I won a battle!
The house is a wreck as the wife packs. This is push week and I will be helping here. It is ok though, I will put things back the way I want them after she pulls off with the moving truck next Sat about noon. I'm also taking the following Monday off work just to give myself some time to settle in here by myself.
What else? I missed my SAA meeting this week. Was really beat and the new puppy was still really new. It is an hour drive each way for me to make that meeting and I just wasn't up to it that night.
Church--met with the pastor. I don't think I posted about that. Was a good meeting. There were half a dozen or so of us there. Basically them meeting was for the Pastor to go over the Church philosophy, etc. I liked what I heard. I have asked that I be put into one of their LifeGroups (Bible Study/Fellowship). The Church takes the month of April off from these but will start up again in May. I have never been a part of a group like that so it will be interesting. I am also looking very seriously at becoming a member of this Church.
I think that is enough for this morning. Will try to update more regularly. All in all, I think I am doing ok.
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
|
Post by Deleted on Apr 25, 2015 0:47:08 GMT -7
I agree with you B.O.M that does not mean that the marriage is over.
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
|
Post by Deleted on Apr 30, 2015 10:24:34 GMT -7
Hey everyone.
Busy week. Wife moves out Sat so haven't been on much. All is going well. Pastor assigned me to one of the Church's Life Groups. They start meeting again next week. This is something waaaayyyy out of my comfort zone, but I am actually excited about attending. It will open new doors and I will meet new people. Should be fun.
Work is busy as well, but I am taking next Mon and Tues off. That will give me three full days to put things in order after the wife moves out. I am actually looking forward to making this place mine. Not that I wouldn't prefer the wife stuck around, but under the circumstances, I am going to make the most of it.
No issues with Porn or MB or anything. Every once in awhile a sinful thought will arise in my mind, but I have been able to quickly put those to rest. The real tests are coming in the next few days/weeks when I am here alone I guess. I am confident that with God in my life, I will win this battle and beat the devil.
Hope everyone is doing well.
|
|
KevinesKay
Administrator
Posts: 1,741
Occupation: Balloon Artist
Interests: weight lifting, singing, playing the guitar
Days of Integrity: 1 year
|
Post by KevinesKay on May 2, 2015 8:53:24 GMT -7
BOM,
You're certainly in my prayers today as your wife moves out. I'm so encouraged by your decision and your progress to make your life a pleasing aroma to God. Let us know how you are doing.
God, please give BOM the grace to carry on with his walk with You. May you give him favor and blessing during this challenging time. We pray this in Jesus' name. Amen
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
|
Post by Deleted on May 4, 2015 2:30:46 GMT -7
Thanks for thinking of me Kevin.
Sat was a long and emotional day, but we made it through it in one piece. Wife broke down as she was driving off which broke my heart. But, I did this to her and I expect God thought I needed to be reminded of the hurt I have caused her.
I made it to Church yesterday morning, which was good. Emailed with Wife. She is doing ok...still moving in. I'm cleaning and rearranging. Just got my office partially set up and getting ready to clean carpets.
Before my wife left, she drew up a separation arrangement. Basically it said she was not abandoning this place or her stuff that is still here and outlined the financial support I will provide. I actually think it was a good idea. I certainly would not have fought about it. I'm glad she did. It protects her and I down the road if this goes to Divorce.
Still taking things one day at a time. Expect the evil one will be around a lot for the next couple weeks trying to catch me in a week moment. I'm ready! With God on my side, I will win. I just have to keep my eyes on Jesus.
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
|
Post by Deleted on May 4, 2015 9:49:09 GMT -7
I feel for you Brother
|
|
KevinesKay
Administrator
Posts: 1,741
Occupation: Balloon Artist
Interests: weight lifting, singing, playing the guitar
Days of Integrity: 1 year
|
Post by KevinesKay on May 10, 2015 15:35:07 GMT -7
Hey BOM, How's it going. Would like to hear an update. Been a while, almost a whole week... Miss you. KK is sad : (
|
|