Post by KevinesKay on Jul 13, 2024 21:33:23 GMT -7
I am ashamed to come here because I have failed. However, I know its helping me, that's why I am here. Casting images of the past is challenging. This up-again-and-down-again cycle must stop. I want to be consistent in overcoming. The guilt and shame is overwhelming. However, despite how I feel, I will not give up. So, today, I start over taking one day at a time. I will walk in victory one day at a time. I asked for forgiveness from The Lord and repented and renounced lust (which includes viewing p and m). I am seeing more and more the ugliness of lust. Keep praying for me. By faith in Jesus, I am victorious!
Thank you for sharing brother. I'm glad you did. Let me share some things that I think will be helpful.
In one of my communities there's a saying.
Relapse is not a part of recovery. It is a part of addiction.
Well, I have a problem with that saying. I think it's very black and white thinking. And it assumes that the addiction is a problem. But it's not. In my experience, God saw my addiction as a symptom of deeper rooted problems within me. So He wasn't concerned about my relapses, ever. What he was concerned about was the deeper problems I'm talking about. And thus, relapse was actually a gift. It was God's way of showing me that I was missing something; something that He wanted to expose and deal within me.
Thus, for me, relapse has been a part of my recovery and transformation. Relapse is not part of addiction. Instead, it's a symptom of a deeper rooted problem within me. A problem that is deeply rooted in my subconscious flesh working against me, undermining and sabotaging my conscious efforts to stop. And looking back, I realize that unless these problems within me were exposed and addressed, the symptoms of acting out would always return.
I see this as an opportunity for you to uncover what God wants to change in your life. Hint. It's not just to stop lust and sexual acting out behavior. One such problem that I believe is very common in all of us is the problem of connection. I define connection as men in my life that know me and are looking out for my personal and spiritual growth. I have a couple of support groups that I attend. I recognize that I need them in order to fulfill this need for connection. Question. Do you have such connection in your life? Is there a support group that you are part of? If not, how are you going to address this major problem in your life? Because the lack of connection in one's life is a far greater problem than one's relapse from porn.