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Post by iamfree on Jun 15, 2024 4:30:53 GMT -7
God bless you I am free! What checks have you got in place to safeguard against stumbling? I know video entertainment is the way the enemy normally uses to entice me. So I keep it at arms' length, and try to avoid watching movies or shows on my own. Thanks for the response. Oh, I have a lot of checks. One of them is the same one you have. My problem is the urge just shows up, especially when things are going well. Then I have to resist letting my thoughts to dwell on lust. Since my last post, I have been doing well. I trust in God’s power. I am doing the spiritual and practical things. I guess it comes down to my determination to resist and overcome. On spite of it all, I believe I am an overcomer! This is a one-day-at-a-time journey.
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Post by Will on Jun 15, 2024 14:43:10 GMT -7
I guess it comes down to my determination to resist and overcome Actually I'm not sure that is it. It's part of it, but I also think you have to get some healing for the pain and fear of love that causes you to sabotage things when they start going well. Just my two cents. I tried and tried for years, but it was only when I received (praise God!) some healing for the pain I was using the 'drug' of porn to numb or medicate, that I started getting better sobriety.
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Post by iamfree on Jun 20, 2024 4:15:35 GMT -7
I guess it comes down to my determination to resist and overcome Actually I'm not sure that is it. It's part of it, but I also think you have to get some healing for the pain and fear of love that causes you to sabotage things when they start going well. Just my two cents. I tried and tried for years, but it was only when I received (praise God!) some healing for the pain I was using the 'drug' of porn to numb or medicate, that I started getting better sobriety.
I will say Amen!!! This past week, I realized I have rejection issues from childhood that are affecting me more than I realized. Realizing this had been a huge breakthrough! Now I am in the process of healing from those wounds. Thanks for your “two cents”. It was a confirmation.
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Post by iamfree on Jun 20, 2024 5:17:43 GMT -7
Free to Thrive: How Your Hurt, Struggles, and Deepest Longings Can Lead to a Fulfilling Life a.co/d/0dEsmApMThis book is helping me!! Thank you Lord!!
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Post by iamfree on Jun 24, 2024 4:58:01 GMT -7
Thanking God to see another day. Another day for more healing. God is awesome!!
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Post by Will on Jun 25, 2024 18:07:19 GMT -7
Hey Iamfree! Sorry did not respond earlier. Praise God that's awesome that you got a breakthrough in realising the childhood issues! Yes I really believe this is the kind of stuff that 'fuels' our addictions. When it is healed by God's love (first by bringing it out of the dark), the power of the addiction begins to fade and eventually disappear entirely. Praise God!
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Post by iamfree on Jun 28, 2024 4:26:34 GMT -7
Hey Iamfree! Sorry did not respond earlier. Praise God that's awesome that you got a breakthrough in realising the childhood issues! Yes I really believe this is the kind of stuff that 'fuels' our addictions. When it is healed by God's love (first by bringing it out of the dark), the power of the addiction begins to fade and eventually disappear entirely. Praise God! Thank you! I have to admit, while I am healing, I have to watch out for temptation. Unfortunately, yesterday was not good. I caved into lust. Oh the anguish! I take this extremely seriously! While healing, I still have to not allow those thoughts to overcome me through God’s power. I am starting back over and not giving up! It was challenging to write this post. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength!
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Post by iamfree on Jun 29, 2024 4:12:39 GMT -7
Bless God! I thank God for this group! It’s a safe place to come, especially when I confess falling short. You all helped me to stay focus through the posts you have post. It helps me to have hope.
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Post by Ɖσмιиιc on Jul 4, 2024 1:14:10 GMT -7
May God give us strength, and a willing heart and renewed minds in Jesus.
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Post by iamfree on Jul 4, 2024 4:42:47 GMT -7
Yesterday was not good. I caught myself glancing at women too much than I should. As a result, I fell. It’s a disgusting feeling! Continue to pray for me. Starting over again.
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Post by Will on Jul 5, 2024 14:03:29 GMT -7
Hey Iamfree! Sorry did not respond earlier. Praise God that's awesome that you got a breakthrough in realising the childhood issues! Yes I really believe this is the kind of stuff that 'fuels' our addictions. When it is healed by God's love (first by bringing it out of the dark), the power of the addiction begins to fade and eventually disappear entirely. Praise God! Thank you! I have to admit, while I am healing, I have to watch out for temptation. Unfortunately, yesterday was not good. I caved into lust. Oh the anguish! I take this extremely seriously! While healing, I still have to not allow those thoughts to overcome me through God’s power. I am starting back over and not giving up! It was challenging to write this post. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength! Hey bro, yep, we've all been there! You're so right about having to watch out for temptation when healing. It's like a dual focus: when we get a victory like with healing, that's EXACTLY when the enemy thinks 'oh oh, better really hit this guy with the works to knock this new direction out of him'. It's happened to me about fifty times. SO frustrating. I've learnt that it's not the losing times when it's hardest to stay sober, it's the winning times. Keep going bro! It's the difficult times pushing through in sobriety while the enemy throws everything at you, that makes the breakthrough victories. Tough but stay at it, and you will win the victory that the Lord Jesus has given us the ability to possess with His blood.
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Post by iamfree on Jul 9, 2024 4:04:07 GMT -7
Thank you! I have to admit, while I am healing, I have to watch out for temptation. Unfortunately, yesterday was not good. I caved into lust. Oh the anguish! I take this extremely seriously! While healing, I still have to not allow those thoughts to overcome me through God’s power. I am starting back over and not giving up! It was challenging to write this post. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength! Hey bro, yep, we've all been there! You're so right about having to watch out for temptation when healing. It's like a dual focus: when we get a victory like with healing, that's EXACTLY when the enemy thinks 'oh oh, better really hit this guy with the works to knock this new direction out of him'. It's happened to me about fifty times. SO frustrating. I've learnt that it's not the losing times when it's hardest to stay sober, it's the winning times. Keep going bro! It's the difficult times pushing through in sobriety while the enemy throws everything at you, that makes the breakthrough victories. Tough but stay at it, and you will win the victory that the Lord Jesus has given us the ability to possess with His blood. Thanks, Will! Very encouraging. Since my last post, the enemy attacked twice. The second attack was very intense! By the grace and power of the Lord, I overcame it!! Praise God!! Oh, what joy!!😎😎 The attacks were taking place in my mind-past images and things I felt and seen. Thank God for the weapons He has given us! Resisting through the name of Jesus, pleading the blood of Jesus, then casting those thoughts out and replacing them with good positive thoughts. It was a fight, but through Christ, I am victorious! I am walking this walk daily, taking one day at a time.
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Post by Will on Jul 10, 2024 14:55:21 GMT -7
Hallelujah! Praise God bro that's fantastic! I truly believe that one of the best weapons against the tricks and devices of the enemy is the JOY we experience when we overcome through to the victory! That's why he so doesn't want us to get there, because when we get there, we think: 'wow, this was SO worth it!!!'
God bless you! Keep casting those thoughts out as soon as they appear and asking Jesus, claiming His blood, to help you overcome.
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Post by iamfree on Jul 12, 2024 4:06:46 GMT -7
I am ashamed to come here because I have failed. However, I know its helping me, that's why I am here. Casting images of the past is challenging. This up-again-and-down-again cycle must stop. I want to be consistent in overcoming. The guilt and shame is overwhelming. However, despite how I feel, I will not give up. So, today, I start over taking one day at a time. I will walk in victory one day at a time. I asked for forgiveness from The Lord and repented and renounced lust (which includes viewing p and m). I am seeing more and more the ugliness of lust. Keep praying for me. By faith in Jesus, I am victorious!
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Post by Will on Jul 12, 2024 6:01:51 GMT -7
Don't be ashamed bro! "Confess your sins one to another and they will be healed". We are all, as humans, in the same boat. We try not to sin but sometimes we do or at least have, stumbled and sinned. The Lord Jesus gave His life that despite that, because of His blood payment, we are still fully accepted into God's glorious kingdom. He didn't die for nothing, but so that you and I can come to the cross, even when we have sinned, and be washed clean. Thank you Jesus!
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