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Post by Ɖσмιиιc on Apr 4, 2023 18:08:33 GMT -7
Dear God, please help us to stay pure and please help us to live for You only Jesus. Please help us to love our neighbors. Please Lord, we pray in Jesus' name. Amen.
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Post by iamfree on Jun 22, 2023 7:12:52 GMT -7
Well, I am back. Keep praying for me. It’s been several days since giving in. I also must admit when I have given in, I was ashamed to come here and confess it. I know confessing is good for me, not only to the Lord, but also to everyone on here. Even writing this is hard. However, I must. It’s not only the shame, I guess it’s also the criticism I might receive. I know, it’s rejection. I grew up with a lot of rejection. I am working through this with the Lords help. I know telling me the truth is a good thing, even when it hurts. So, here I am. I am not giving up and walking this through one day at a time. I have come to realize, through Christ, anything is possible. And I also realized, I don’t have to act on my thoughts. Instead, I am learning to overcome those thoughts of lust, through Christ, and replace them with thoughts of life. It’s not always easy. As Philippians 4:13 states, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” Thank you for your support and prayers.
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Post by KevinesKay on Jun 23, 2023 4:29:41 GMT -7
iamfreeI just wanted to say that I'm glad you're back. I've relapsed so many times and understand the shame. Feelings of failure. Frustration. Thanks for sharing. Don't give up. I have hope for you and trust that God will continue to lead you to a path of freedom.
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Post by iamfree on Aug 20, 2023 3:51:13 GMT -7
iamfreeI just wanted to say that I'm glad you're back. I've relapsed so many times and understand the shame. Feelings of failure. Frustration. Thanks for sharing. Don't give up. I have hope for you and trust that God will continue to lead you to a path of freedom. Thank you. Really appreciate it. I am not going to give up! Since the last post, there have been victories and defeats. Again, I am not giving up! I have learned and still learning how to walk in freedom. I believe the victory is already won! Thank you and to all for your continued prayers for me.
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Post by Ɖσмιиιc on Aug 21, 2023 19:04:32 GMT -7
Dear God please help us to stay close to You and be sober and clean and holy with Your help Lord. Thank you for all the good blessings and even the difficult times. In Jesus' name. Amen.
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Post by iamfree on Aug 23, 2023 4:38:57 GMT -7
Dear God please help us to stay close to You and be sober and clean and holy with Your help Lord. Thank you for all the good blessings and even the difficult times. In Jesus' name. Amen. Amen! That’s also my prayer for all of us. Also had some relapses. Giving into sin is not good. I hate giving into sin!! I hate the consequences! I am using that as fuel for victorious living through Christ. I don’t want to keep abusing God’s Grace! I am tired of living in guilt and shame! I appreciate everyone’s prayers. So, I start over. Not giving up! I confess that through Christ, I am dead to sin! In this case, lust! I am a new person in Christ! I am victorious in Christ! I am not going wallow in guilt and shame! That’s one of the reasons why I am here today! Applying not only the spiritual things, also applying practical things also. This is my confession! In Jesus Name!
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Post by savedbygrace on Aug 24, 2023 15:28:32 GMT -7
Amen! And yes, sometimes applying some very practical things is the way to victory! Every good day is a victory.
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Post by iamfree on Aug 24, 2023 18:42:14 GMT -7
Amen! And yes, sometimes applying some very practical things is the way to victory! Every good day is a victory. Thank you saved by grace! Yes it is!!
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Post by iamfree on Aug 24, 2023 18:49:40 GMT -7
Thank God for His mercy! They are new every morning! (Lamentations 3:22-23)
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Post by iamfree on Aug 26, 2023 4:15:09 GMT -7
Yesterday was not a good day. I fell. I allowed the enemy to get on my mind and I did not battle him as I should. I hate posting a post like this. I am not giving up! I can see what I allowed to happen. I don’t want to keep failing at this. I don’t want to take God’s Grace for granted. I have owned this failing, learned from it, asked God for forgiveness, and repented. I am not giving up!
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Post by KevinesKay on Aug 26, 2023 17:11:26 GMT -7
I appreciate your honesty. It took a long time for me to understand that my porn use was simply a symptom and extension of uncontrolled eyes and free-racing mind. I wasn't listening to the words of Jesus when He states to clean the inside of the cup and dish so that the outside would be clean also. For decades, I focused more on the behaviors then on the inner man.
I think I finally chose the easier path. With the help of God, I'm finding it way easier to clean up my inside (lust and fantasy) so that my outside would be clean also, then to...
clean up my outside hoping that some of that cleanliness might rub off on the inside.
And meanwhile, as I entertained lust and fantasy, the toxicity level in my brain went up, and my subconscious flesh took more control, and led me straight to a relapse with porn.
I thought I could toy with lust and fantasy; that I could get away with it sometimes without it leading to porn. Like an alcoholic thinking he can have just one drink.
Yeah, I've chosen the easier path. A stance other than zero-tolerance on lust and fantasy is simply moderation. Do I do this perfectly? No. But that's my aim, and I'm winning significantly more battles than I'm losing with lust and fantasy. And that's why I'll win this war.
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Post by iamfree on Aug 27, 2023 4:10:15 GMT -7
I appreciate your honesty. It took a long time for me to understand that my porn use was simply a symptom and extension of uncontrolled eyes and free-racing mind. I wasn't listening to the words of Jesus when He states to clean the inside of the cup and dish so that the outside would be clean also. For decades, I focused more on the behaviors then on the inner man. I think I finally chose the easier path. With the help of God, I'm finding it way easier to clean up my inside (lust and fantasy) so that my outside would be clean also, then to... clean up my outside hoping that some of that cleanliness might rub off on the inside. And meanwhile, as I entertained lust and fantasy, the toxicity level in my brain went up, and my subconscious flesh took more control, and led me straight to a relapse with porn. I thought I could toy with lust and fantasy; that I could get away with it sometimes without it leading to porn. Like an alcoholic thinking he can have just one drink. Yeah, I've chosen the easier path. A stance other than zero-tolerance on lust and fantasy is simply moderation. Do I do this perfectly? No. But that's my aim, and I'm winning significantly more battles than I'm losing with lust and fantasy. And that's why I'll win this war. Thank you. That is an encouraging testimony. That is my view also. The inside must be cleaned up so it a reflect on the outside. I will win these battles more and more. Yesterday was a good day. Again, thank you for the word you gave.
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Post by iamfree on Aug 28, 2023 4:31:46 GMT -7
Good Morning, When Jesus died on the cross, I died with Him. He broke the power of sin forever. Because of that, the power of sin was broken in me. I consider myself dead to sin. I am no longer a slave to sin (in this case, lust), but free through Jesus Christ. I have been made alive (new creature in Christ). Through Christ, I walk in freedom.
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Post by iamfree on Aug 29, 2023 5:18:58 GMT -7
Good Morning, God is good! I praise God for all of you. Keep me in your prayers also.
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Post by Ɖσмιиιc on Sept 9, 2023 7:45:50 GMT -7
Dear God, please help iamfree to be strong and close to You Lord. Please fill him with the Holy Spirit and bless him Lord. We pray in Jesus' name. Amen.
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