javajake
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Post by javajake on Dec 28, 2021 9:33:00 GMT -7
Thanks brothers!! Hope your Christmas was merry! I had been doing good for over 4 months then fell off the horse for about an hour or so on Christmas Eve of all nights!! No mb though. Will try to be more present here. God is Good!!!!
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Post by savedbygrace on Dec 28, 2021 10:18:47 GMT -7
Yes, God is good! It was just a setback, stay on course!
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Post by Ɖσмιиιc on Dec 28, 2021 15:51:22 GMT -7
God is good brother, I am also in a similar trial. God can help restore us. God please help us to stay close to you. Please help javajake and us all. In Jesus' name. Amen.
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Post by savedbygrace on Dec 29, 2021 6:49:14 GMT -7
Jesus is there to hold your hand. Praying with you.
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Post by Ɖσмιиιc on Jan 8, 2022 19:07:01 GMT -7
Hi javajake, how is your journey going. I'm going to post a little on my thread/journey too. I'm about 3 from an emotional affair. That is my honestly. Not only do I wnat to share my falls/sins but also I want to post encouragement even though I never feel worthy to do it. Like today I feel God really spoke to me when I read the Pslams 101 and 102.
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javajake
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Post by javajake on Jan 9, 2022 8:47:49 GMT -7
Thanks brothers! Doing well outwardly. Dominic thanks for sharing your struggles. We are to confess our sins to one another and pray for one another. We will never be worthy. But Christ is worthy and we are in Him. God is good! Always!
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Post by Ɖσмιиιc on Jan 9, 2022 15:48:05 GMT -7
Amen javajake. It's so great to hear from you. Thank you brother. and Thank you Jesus.
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javajake
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Post by javajake on Feb 12, 2022 9:07:51 GMT -7
Well I haven’t been guarding my heart very well lately and last night I fell into porn for about an hour or so. I didn’t “m” but my body responded because of it. Which was strange for my age. I feel like dirt again but have to get back on the horse.
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Post by savedbygrace on Feb 12, 2022 11:23:19 GMT -7
Yes, my brother, that can happen so easily and quickly to us. May this indeed be a new day for you. Yesterday is gone, Jesus is here with you today to not only forgive but speak words of encouragement to your heart.
Dear Lord, please be with my brother Jake, remind Him of Your great love, and help him in walking with You today. In Your Name I pray, Amen
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javajake
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Post by javajake on Feb 12, 2022 12:43:26 GMT -7
Thanks saved for your encouraging words. I have an obsessive mind by nature and it always takes time for me to let go. I have confessed my sin to the Lord. Now I need His grace to move on.
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KevinesKay
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Post by KevinesKay on Feb 13, 2022 9:51:53 GMT -7
Well I haven’t been guarding my heart very well lately and last night I fell into porn for about an hour or so. I didn’t “m” but my body responded because of it. Which was strange for my age. I feel like dirt again but have to get back on the horse. It's been awhile since we've heard from you. I'm glad you checked in. And I'm sorry to hear of your relapse last night. It's interesting how I can relate to this feeling of disappointment after acting out. Yet, I still returned to my folly as a dog returns to his vomit. I always felt porn offered me something. That I was missing out by choosing to quit. But now I understand that I'm not missing out on anything, except guilty feelings, disconnection with my wife, disconnection with God, wasted time. But I sure felt otherwise. I was being duped. The enemy was lying to me. I was trading the pearl if great price in exchange for some worthless fool's gold. Anyways, I'm glad you're here. Don't give up.
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javajake
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Post by javajake on Feb 13, 2022 14:18:46 GMT -7
Thanks Kevin. Exactly like you described. I’m at an age where in order to fulfill the complete act I need some help. I believed the lie also and wanted to use porn to get the motor running. This was me lying to myself. The shame and guilt are not worth it. My wife don’t like the idea of pharmaceuticals for this issue. I believe certain supplements might help.
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KevinesKay
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Post by KevinesKay on Feb 14, 2022 0:06:27 GMT -7
Thanks Kevin. Exactly like you described. I’m at an age where in order to fulfill the complete act I need some help. I believed the lie also and wanted to use porn to get the motor running. This was me lying to myself. The shame and guilt are not worth it. My wife don’t like the idea of pharmaceuticals for this issue. I believe certain supplements might help. I recognize that my porn use was a direct cause of my ED. Years of conditioning my brain to get high off of porn has left it in a damaged state. Since being off of porn, I've noticed some of my erectile function has returned, but I would like it to be better. But using porn as a temporarily fix will ultimately make this problem worse, 100%. My wife doesn't want me to take Viagra either. But I've been trying a natural supplement. But still, I believe the best solution for me is to stay away from porn.
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Post by SandyJWE on Feb 15, 2022 7:54:32 GMT -7
Prayers for you - thanks for sharing your struggle. God is with you...
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Post by Ɖσмιиιc on Feb 16, 2022 23:33:42 GMT -7
Well I haven’t been guarding my heart very well lately and last night I fell into porn for about an hour or so. I didn’t “m” but my body responded because of it. Which was strange for my age. I feel like dirt again but have to get back on the horse. I feel bad even without p. I just have wrong thoughts all the time and constantly have to pray "God, help me" and think something else. I can't watch a lot of TV. We are all the same here. Praying brother. Dear God, please help my brother to keep his mind pure, please forgive him and help him to be strong again. In Jesus' name. Amen. This sin is really strong and terrible. Like a monster, waiting to eat your flesh and your soul and drag you to hell. It's not really a pretty face.
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