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Post by Deleted on Feb 11, 2017 10:40:14 GMT -7
GHP, how are you doing? I haven't seen you post for awhile and it always worries me when my sisters go silent like that.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 11, 2017 15:19:40 GMT -7
Hey Amy... im ok.. just got alot going on... thanks for checking on me.... Love ya... hugs & prayers!
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Post by Deleted on Feb 11, 2017 17:33:39 GMT -7
Ok hon let me know if you need anything prayed about.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 15, 2017 20:37:07 GMT -7
Been in a weird space.. not sure how i feel!.. My husband says he is making effort.. im trying to believe him.. he says he has gone to no P site but he does go to sports illustrated about 2/3 times a week...i will never look like those women!😢 it seems like he thinks i should be greatful hes not viewing hard core P or MB... i guess i am greatful... im still giving it to god and reading mike's book and were doing the couples workbook... which can be hard.. i dont want to feel sad about it but i do! He has been way better... Gosh when will this all end .. when will i ever feel like im enough for him! Somedays im fine.. i think! Somedays im numb.. somedays im sad... today im just confused! I shouldn't be its in black and white print in mike's book! Ugh! 😣😡
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Post by Deleted on Feb 15, 2017 20:43:46 GMT -7
Hugs GHP. It is a rollercoaster ride of emotions. Remember that God is your safety harness. Hang on hon.
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Post by ladystrong on Feb 16, 2017 7:27:09 GMT -7
I know how you feel. My husband has been totally repentant for the last 60 days and I still feel all of those emotions. Keep anchoring yourself in the Lord. I've decided that this is a battle and I've got to fight all the insecurities, anger, fear, and pain with the truth. Can't let the bad videos keep replaying in my mind. Got to resist the devil by killing off the wrong thoughts. Jael is my hero!
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Post by Deleted on Feb 16, 2017 8:42:45 GMT -7
You guys are so right... Im holding on to God more than ever... I'm fighting for my life it feels like...
I got super emotional today.. because of some of the stuff in the book i was reading... my husband was sitting right next to me and i didnt hide my pain... i didn't apologize for it and i didnt need him to comfort me or fix it... That is growth for me... and it felt good!
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Post by Deleted on Feb 17, 2017 11:27:06 GMT -7
Oddly enough emotionally im good today.. I've really been reading and staying in gods word... Amy and everyone was right.. it works if you work at it.. i feel i pray nonstop but thats a small price to pay.. I pray all you ladies are having a wonderful day.. i lift up all our sorrows to god..and i ask thst his will be done.. in Jesus name Amen!
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Post by Deleted on Feb 18, 2017 21:11:13 GMT -7
Oh how the parallels in our lives always strike me. My husband has been "doing well" with his treatment, but he's so testy and we've been fighting a lot (so what's new). I'm trusting in God to bring me through this. We did find a Christian couples counselor whow takes offerings instead of charging regular rates. Plus, GHP, I like the progress you cited. Think ill make that a goal for myself too. Hugs and prayers!
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Post by Deleted on Feb 18, 2017 23:05:51 GMT -7
Hey Kelly... my husbsnd seems agitated sometimes too.. he says he feels angry because he is obstaining from P and MB... I get it alittle but sometimes i dont because i dont get a sexual release because we arent sexual much and i get frustrated to.. but i dont take my anger out on him!! Sooo sometimes all of this still blows my mind... But God has really been working on me... i really needed to stop making my husband "my everything" i guess... i am a very loyal person so i wanted to be his everything so i felt it wasent a bad thing to make him mine... but i guess i got lost...i forget to love myself... i have never been very good at that but God is helping me to feel happy and whole all on my own with God becoming "my everything" instead.... life is just strange! I know every bad thing that has ever happened to me has changed me and transformed me in some way and alot of the time i come out better in the end but its just hard dealing with so much pain. My H is doing better but i still feel he is trying to stay right on the edge of his sin and giving me just enough to keep the relationship going.. I know at some point im gonna have to give him the tough love and have him decide what he really wants in his life.. maybe he wont want to choose me... i just dont know!
Are you hanging in their and doing ok?? Ok... lol! What does that mean... sometimes im not sure what ok... feels like! I'm glad i have you ladies to talk to.. otherwise this would be alot harder!
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Post by Deleted on Feb 19, 2017 7:32:33 GMT -7
I'm glad I have you ladies too. I'm okay in some ways and not okay in others. God has also been teaching me to make Him, not my husband, my everything, and not to let my husband's actions dictate my moods. Still, I can't pretend to be unaffected by them. I expect him to be irritable in this process, but I really think he's been abusive, and I told him so. Please keep me in prayer. I'll be praying for you too. Hugs!
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Post by Deleted on Feb 19, 2017 10:22:32 GMT -7
My sweet sisters I wish I could give you an actual hug. I am praying for you both.
Kelly do not let him get away with being abusive in any way. Stand up for yourself. He needs to treat you with respect and if he can't do that then you need to make it a boundary with consequences.
GHP it is never easy going through the refining fire of God's love. Your hubby is probably straddling the line. I know I did for a long time before I got disgusted with myself and stepped fully over the line and chose God. Keep working on you and your healing.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 21, 2017 22:37:00 GMT -7
Today.. somethings off.. i can feel it.. all i can muster up is... ugh!!! UGH!!!!! 😣
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Post by Deleted on Feb 22, 2017 7:18:56 GMT -7
Rearrange ugh and that is what I am sending you. HUG!
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Post by Deleted on Feb 22, 2017 9:16:58 GMT -7
Thanks Amy.. ditto!
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