Post by Ɖσмιиιc on Jan 10, 2022 20:26:20 GMT -7
I know what you mean brother. There was a times I was thining of leaving BG because I didn't know what or where I should be fellowshipping. I have shared with my wife that I am a part of this forum and part of Blazing Grace to help out if I can. She just doesn't want me to get tempted by any women on here because in the past of my sexual addiction, I was talking to a women sex addict on a different secular platform and it ended terribly. I was full on in love emotionally with this other supportive female sex addict. So my wife is rightfully trying to protect me and our marriage from other women out there who have another agenda. I have not experienced anything like that on this forum which is why I'm still here but if I fall like I did before, I will not be here anymore, which is why I'm turning violently against to hate my sins of sexual addiction, but not hate the person through it works in (the addict, Josh Duggar, or a female sa in my own case). I have one life that that is it. My wife still wife me, for that I am very grateful and with God's help I plam to show her and God that I am not the same as before but growing in sanctification. I am not saying or trying to justify anything that happened in the past. I have left many forums and even on this one, I have deleted and created my BG account so many times, it's shows how fickle and double-minded I am. Well, anyways, I just wanted to seek prayers and reconciliation. I hope there is some by now. Only God knows. My wife supports me in my recovery efforts, but something that I think are good, she is not in agreement with. For BG right now, we have an agreement.