Post by Will on Feb 26, 2018 3:56:50 GMT -7
Hey guys,
well unfortunately I stumbled yesterday. Ended up watching soft porn for about 2 hours. Could have been avoided, I overstretched myself at the weekend, not leaving enough time for rest. This was worsened by the fact that I had a series of really stressful, high-maintenance situations to deal with everywhere I went. Probably the most obvious thing was that I violated my 'day of rest' rule on Saturday and went along to a 'Faith School' that my friend invited me to on Sat evening. Although it was actually a great experience and a blessing, it left me without a full day to unwind and just rejuvenate for the week ahead.
The main thing that took me by surprise was a really difficult situation at the Baptist Church I attend on Sunday. I really like it there and have been blessed to find a faithful, Bible-believing congregation after some time of searching and not really having a home Church. But the enemy doesn't like that! So on Sunday after expecting a peaceful, restful worship service to God, and fellowship with other Christian believers, instead I was faced with having to deal with two apparatchiks from the 'Baptist Association', who were there essentially to bully the Church and threaten to close it down because it doesn't have enough attendees on its books (although I've met about 30 different people there, they apparently have less than 10 registered members), and in fact it seems that they will close it down, or at least take it over and turn it into a different kind of Church. Reading between the lines they are unhappy with the fact that it has conservative worship practices and want to turn it into a Hillsong-style CCM place with modern media technology and facebook accounts etc. Even though I'm very new there, I ended up taking a lead role in responding to their extremely heavy-handed and hostile questions and presentation and veiled threats. Very upsetting. Also very difficult to know what is the correct attitude to take to this development. Please pray to the Lord for Him to guide me in this and show me what part He wants me to play in it. It seems likely right now that we will lose our Church.
Of course none of that is an excuse, its my fault for not making provision for peace and rest on my Sabbath day and getting to Sunday night without really feeling rested. Sleep of course as always was the major factor - I had not had enough and was exhausted. Slipped into watching fictional movies online, this then turned into soft porn movies. Gutted with myself as this has been the longest period of sobriety of my life.
Praise God for His mercy, I hope He forgives me for this slip. Very thankful to be back on the wagon again. Thankful for Jesus Christ and His atoning blood.
well unfortunately I stumbled yesterday. Ended up watching soft porn for about 2 hours. Could have been avoided, I overstretched myself at the weekend, not leaving enough time for rest. This was worsened by the fact that I had a series of really stressful, high-maintenance situations to deal with everywhere I went. Probably the most obvious thing was that I violated my 'day of rest' rule on Saturday and went along to a 'Faith School' that my friend invited me to on Sat evening. Although it was actually a great experience and a blessing, it left me without a full day to unwind and just rejuvenate for the week ahead.
The main thing that took me by surprise was a really difficult situation at the Baptist Church I attend on Sunday. I really like it there and have been blessed to find a faithful, Bible-believing congregation after some time of searching and not really having a home Church. But the enemy doesn't like that! So on Sunday after expecting a peaceful, restful worship service to God, and fellowship with other Christian believers, instead I was faced with having to deal with two apparatchiks from the 'Baptist Association', who were there essentially to bully the Church and threaten to close it down because it doesn't have enough attendees on its books (although I've met about 30 different people there, they apparently have less than 10 registered members), and in fact it seems that they will close it down, or at least take it over and turn it into a different kind of Church. Reading between the lines they are unhappy with the fact that it has conservative worship practices and want to turn it into a Hillsong-style CCM place with modern media technology and facebook accounts etc. Even though I'm very new there, I ended up taking a lead role in responding to their extremely heavy-handed and hostile questions and presentation and veiled threats. Very upsetting. Also very difficult to know what is the correct attitude to take to this development. Please pray to the Lord for Him to guide me in this and show me what part He wants me to play in it. It seems likely right now that we will lose our Church.
Of course none of that is an excuse, its my fault for not making provision for peace and rest on my Sabbath day and getting to Sunday night without really feeling rested. Sleep of course as always was the major factor - I had not had enough and was exhausted. Slipped into watching fictional movies online, this then turned into soft porn movies. Gutted with myself as this has been the longest period of sobriety of my life.
Praise God for His mercy, I hope He forgives me for this slip. Very thankful to be back on the wagon again. Thankful for Jesus Christ and His atoning blood.
Ephesians 4:30-32!!!!