Moments with Mike G. (Blazing Grace Creator)

Idleness is the devil's greatest opening. At least in my life it is. Having moved to a new big city, I'm jobless (and looking but not succeeding) and have no social life (extreme introvert). Not a good mix:(. Either way I struggle greatly with acting out, now even more so that I have nothing else to keep me busy and out of sin. Just keep me in your prayers guys, Lord knows we all need prayer.

(daily dose of hope)Hebrews 4:14-15

This is a new attempt at a new way to kick this thing.

Failed attempts include:
Formating my hard drive, and of course, falling into it again, several times.
Trying being accountable to a close friend. That sortof drove the two of us apart, until now we don't really talk at all any more.
Trying to cut myself off gradually, masturbating and/or viewing less frequently, but I always lose out.

I think the statistics are the only place I am not a total pathetic wierdo, I didn't start until I was 21, about 2 and a half years ago. I just fell so quickly, it's sometimes hard to accept. I made a promise to G_D that I'd try again, and maybe this will help.

I'll try to do a weekly post through the summer while I'm in the worst possible setup, taking a quarter off school, not found a job yet, and I'm trying to cut back on video games too.

Next week, I will try to remember to talk about how I think I ended up in my own personalized hell.

Paul M.

Well, I changed my situation a bit.  I'm not working, but I will be going to school, so I won't be bored out of my skull with yet another excuse.

still hoping to improve.

Hello everyone.

I am new to forums in general.  This is the first time I have ever posted anything.  This site is helpful, but I have a couple of questions about it.  What does the logo stand for?  And what is mana? 

Mike, I noticed that you live in Colorado Springs.  I too live in Colorado Springs.  Do you know of any local accountability groups?  I tried a 12-step program, and I disliked it for several reasons.  The main reason I disliked it was that it was set up so that no one could contradict or correct or disagree with what anyone said.  You just had to sit in silence and say nothing in response.  I am looking for a group which will rebuke me when I fall into sin or erroneous thinking, but which will also do so with love, tenderness, and compassion.  I am also looking for a group where everyone has struggles and confesses his sins to the rest, not one where just one person confesses sins to another.  So do you know of any local groups in which I can become involved? 

 

I don't know your e-mail, and for some reason I cannot open the link you posted.  Perhaps my internet filter is blocking it; I don't know.  What is your e-mail address?