Post by Deleted on Oct 3, 2005 2:09:29 GMT -7
Hi all,
I learned of this site by attending an Every Man's Battle (EMB) conference where the speaker was Jayson Graves, who has some affiliation with this site. I'm extremely glad that I was able to begin reading throught the tremendous articles and posts throughout this site, and I'm highly grateful to all of you for your courage and strength to speak openly about this shadowy addiction.
I've been in recovery for sexual addiction for 3 years now. That does not mean that I've been sober for 3 years (closer to 2.5 weeks), but I held my first conversation about this addiction 3 years ago. I've been involved in 12 step groups several different counselors and attended EMB for the second time. One thing that I've allowed to slip in my focus on recovery is my relationship and reliance on Christ. I've been treating him more like a drinking buddy that I hook up with on specific occasions such as church and early devotions, rather than an awe-inspiring Lord and King of my life. I was raised in an extremely legalistic family/church where any type of questioning authority was strictly prohibited. I've spent the majority of my life rejecting authority of any kind, but learned very young to do so secretly rather than openly. I'm just beginning to enjoy my freedom in my walk with Christ, but have begun to take it too far and not allow him his place of authority in my life.
I was roaming around the web looking for racy pictures (although not pornographic) when my accountability partner called this morning (perfect timing) and helped talk myself out of my funk. I knew that I needed something to get me focused on my recovery, so I began milling around this site and stumbled across the bulletin board. I read some of Mike's story about trying all things recovery but not opening up his entire heart to God and his grace. This began the churning of my thoughts towards how much "work" that I'm putting into recovery, but not focusing on the one who can truly free me from this. I've allowed the light to shine on my addiction, but have kept the opening to my heart fairly small, where it can't reach all of the crevices. This is the reason for my post and the subject of the topic. I need to expand the reaches of the light to touch on every aspect of my life.
I learned of this site by attending an Every Man's Battle (EMB) conference where the speaker was Jayson Graves, who has some affiliation with this site. I'm extremely glad that I was able to begin reading throught the tremendous articles and posts throughout this site, and I'm highly grateful to all of you for your courage and strength to speak openly about this shadowy addiction.
I've been in recovery for sexual addiction for 3 years now. That does not mean that I've been sober for 3 years (closer to 2.5 weeks), but I held my first conversation about this addiction 3 years ago. I've been involved in 12 step groups several different counselors and attended EMB for the second time. One thing that I've allowed to slip in my focus on recovery is my relationship and reliance on Christ. I've been treating him more like a drinking buddy that I hook up with on specific occasions such as church and early devotions, rather than an awe-inspiring Lord and King of my life. I was raised in an extremely legalistic family/church where any type of questioning authority was strictly prohibited. I've spent the majority of my life rejecting authority of any kind, but learned very young to do so secretly rather than openly. I'm just beginning to enjoy my freedom in my walk with Christ, but have begun to take it too far and not allow him his place of authority in my life.
I was roaming around the web looking for racy pictures (although not pornographic) when my accountability partner called this morning (perfect timing) and helped talk myself out of my funk. I knew that I needed something to get me focused on my recovery, so I began milling around this site and stumbled across the bulletin board. I read some of Mike's story about trying all things recovery but not opening up his entire heart to God and his grace. This began the churning of my thoughts towards how much "work" that I'm putting into recovery, but not focusing on the one who can truly free me from this. I've allowed the light to shine on my addiction, but have kept the opening to my heart fairly small, where it can't reach all of the crevices. This is the reason for my post and the subject of the topic. I need to expand the reaches of the light to touch on every aspect of my life.
