Post by Deleted on Sept 26, 2005 12:03:03 GMT -7
It wasn't my dad's magazines that got me started, it was finding his book The Happy Hooker, when I was around 12 or so. That started me with a warped sense of sex that came into my marriage, expecting certain things.
I became a Christian at 35. I have spurts of porn activity and have gone for years without looking at it. The internet in the last 5 years has been a problem, also in spurts.
My wife has 0 libido, so that exacerbates the problem, one surface reason I look at it is because I consider myself to have no sex life, so it's my way of getting what I desire. Not once has she and I ever had the simultaneous stimulating thought of having sex (or to put it differently, not once have I ever observed her entertaining the thought of having sex). She wouldn't understand how pornography is a problem, to her it's like flipping through Playboy.
Around 1993 I got sick of the tapes and through them out, it was a nice catharthis. I can will myself to not look at it but I still have the lurking desire to look at it.
How do you re-route the desire?
I became a Christian at 35. I have spurts of porn activity and have gone for years without looking at it. The internet in the last 5 years has been a problem, also in spurts.
My wife has 0 libido, so that exacerbates the problem, one surface reason I look at it is because I consider myself to have no sex life, so it's my way of getting what I desire. Not once has she and I ever had the simultaneous stimulating thought of having sex (or to put it differently, not once have I ever observed her entertaining the thought of having sex). She wouldn't understand how pornography is a problem, to her it's like flipping through Playboy.
Around 1993 I got sick of the tapes and through them out, it was a nice catharthis. I can will myself to not look at it but I still have the lurking desire to look at it.
How do you re-route the desire?
That is awesome! Keep up the good work.