Post by Deleted on Aug 20, 2005 13:47:25 GMT -7
I am new to this site. I joined this site after signing off yet another internet porn site that I ordered a trial membership to. Two hours after logging on to the porn site I was ready to shut down the computer and quickly realized I had spent more time on the porn site than I did playing with my children who are in the other room watching a video. I don't exactly understand how I became this way, that I enjoy isolating myself in front of the computer while my family is elsewhere.
I was not abused as a child. I have had a normal, healthy sex life until about 8 years ago when my wife was given a lap top for work. She brought it home and after she went to bed I began to log on with her login information to just "check-out" porn on the web that I had heard so much about. Soon I started surfing on her computer every night, sometimes until 2 or 3 in the morning.
After about a year of this, I realized that perhaps I should not continue to use my wife's work computer to surf porn. So I bought myself a Dell laptop with the largest screen available. Now, here I am 8 years later, still surfing on the web for porn having wasted, God only knows, how many hours of my life looking at images of naked women. I know this behavior has to stop, frankly, I have some doubts that I can do it, but perhaps that is the way it is for everyone when they first log in and begin the process of admitting there is a problem. I can say I know I have a problem. It is a major problem that I know only God can fix. Here begins the journey...
I was not abused as a child. I have had a normal, healthy sex life until about 8 years ago when my wife was given a lap top for work. She brought it home and after she went to bed I began to log on with her login information to just "check-out" porn on the web that I had heard so much about. Soon I started surfing on her computer every night, sometimes until 2 or 3 in the morning.
After about a year of this, I realized that perhaps I should not continue to use my wife's work computer to surf porn. So I bought myself a Dell laptop with the largest screen available. Now, here I am 8 years later, still surfing on the web for porn having wasted, God only knows, how many hours of my life looking at images of naked women. I know this behavior has to stop, frankly, I have some doubts that I can do it, but perhaps that is the way it is for everyone when they first log in and begin the process of admitting there is a problem. I can say I know I have a problem. It is a major problem that I know only God can fix. Here begins the journey...
