Post by Deleted on Dec 6, 2006 18:11:04 GMT -7
Hi all,
this is my first time posting...I have visited the site a couple of times now. Here is a quick background of myself:
I am 32 years old, married for almost 10 years, father of three. I have struggled with pornography most of my life. I was introduced to porn at the age of nine from a friend who's father did not do a good job hiding his magazines. From there, it became watching porn on satellite TV at the same friends house while his parents worked and more magazines from anywhere I could get access to them. Eventually came the accessibility to the Internet which has been the source of my greatest struggle.
While I grew up learning about Christ in a traditional church setting, I don't really consider myself becoming a Christian until I was about 22. And while I had many positive changes in my life, including some victories in the battle against porn, I have finally realized that I can not win this war on my own.
I was in an accountability group with three other guys a few years ago which was very helpful, but even then I never really opened up to them about how serious the struggle was. Then I took a new job in a different town and without being very intentional about finding a new accountability group, I have since slid back into a cycle of looking at porn/feeling ashamed/confessing to God/swearing that I'll never do it again/and then back to looking at porn. I had myself convinced that it wasn't really that big of a problem because it "only" happened every couple of months, but lately the urge to hop on-line has been strong. In fact, the last time I visited this site, was about 1 1/2 weeks ago after one of those cycles (which I am grateful to say has been my last time -- Praise God!).
I had known about this site for awhile from a link from my church's website, so after that time, I started looking at some of the resources on this site. Thank you to those who are responsible for contributing to this site!
Anyway, I have a lot more to say, but I think that that is better suited to a new topic.
One last thing...why I chose my user-name as wretch_like_me. At first you may think of the line in "Amazing Grace", but I actually thought of it from Romans 7:14-25. This is one of my favorite passages because I can feel Paul's frustration in that (19) "for the good that I will to do, I do not do; but the evil I will not to do, that I practice." and (24)"O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death?" However, I can also feel his encouragement: (25) I thank God - through Jesus Christ our Lord!
wretch_like_me
this is my first time posting...I have visited the site a couple of times now. Here is a quick background of myself:
I am 32 years old, married for almost 10 years, father of three. I have struggled with pornography most of my life. I was introduced to porn at the age of nine from a friend who's father did not do a good job hiding his magazines. From there, it became watching porn on satellite TV at the same friends house while his parents worked and more magazines from anywhere I could get access to them. Eventually came the accessibility to the Internet which has been the source of my greatest struggle.
While I grew up learning about Christ in a traditional church setting, I don't really consider myself becoming a Christian until I was about 22. And while I had many positive changes in my life, including some victories in the battle against porn, I have finally realized that I can not win this war on my own.
I was in an accountability group with three other guys a few years ago which was very helpful, but even then I never really opened up to them about how serious the struggle was. Then I took a new job in a different town and without being very intentional about finding a new accountability group, I have since slid back into a cycle of looking at porn/feeling ashamed/confessing to God/swearing that I'll never do it again/and then back to looking at porn. I had myself convinced that it wasn't really that big of a problem because it "only" happened every couple of months, but lately the urge to hop on-line has been strong. In fact, the last time I visited this site, was about 1 1/2 weeks ago after one of those cycles (which I am grateful to say has been my last time -- Praise God!).
I had known about this site for awhile from a link from my church's website, so after that time, I started looking at some of the resources on this site. Thank you to those who are responsible for contributing to this site!
Anyway, I have a lot more to say, but I think that that is better suited to a new topic.
One last thing...why I chose my user-name as wretch_like_me. At first you may think of the line in "Amazing Grace", but I actually thought of it from Romans 7:14-25. This is one of my favorite passages because I can feel Paul's frustration in that (19) "for the good that I will to do, I do not do; but the evil I will not to do, that I practice." and (24)"O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death?" However, I can also feel his encouragement: (25) I thank God - through Jesus Christ our Lord!
wretch_like_me