Post by Deleted on Dec 4, 2006 6:34:18 GMT -7
Hello, everyone.
How well I know the journey that we are all on here at this site.
Even though I was raised in a very godly, moral, and wholesome home as a pastor's son, I too fell prey to the allure of illicit images and the habits that generally accompany them.
I've never been sucked into the heavy hardcore material, nor have I ever committed physical adultery, but the allure of and submission to the temptation to look at PB type images has been a constant through almost my entire life.
Even as a pastor in fulltime ministry, I have not been free from its pull. Not always bound to it, but not fully free either. How familiar I am with the cycle of falling, feeling the guilt, repenting, finding restoration and forgiveness, walking free, feeling the allure, and falling all over again. It's a real drag!
So, for 30+ years, I think I've tried most everything to defeat this temptation.
What I want is a freedom from even the desire for P. I want to know that I can be trusted with my computer; that my wife can trust me; that I can trust myself. I want to be able to go anywhere without having to fear what I might see, because I am free of lust in my heart regardless of what others around me are wearing (or NOT wearing!)
In other words, I want real freedom and purity... not just a strategy to keep my passions in check! I want to know the truth that really sets me free, not a continual slavery to lies.
I truly believe that it's possible.
But is it possible that the answer is not to be found where we have been looking? If the truth sets us free, but we have not been free, what are the lies keep us enslaved?
I look forward to exploring that question with you!
Pastor Ed
How well I know the journey that we are all on here at this site.
Even though I was raised in a very godly, moral, and wholesome home as a pastor's son, I too fell prey to the allure of illicit images and the habits that generally accompany them.
I've never been sucked into the heavy hardcore material, nor have I ever committed physical adultery, but the allure of and submission to the temptation to look at PB type images has been a constant through almost my entire life.
Even as a pastor in fulltime ministry, I have not been free from its pull. Not always bound to it, but not fully free either. How familiar I am with the cycle of falling, feeling the guilt, repenting, finding restoration and forgiveness, walking free, feeling the allure, and falling all over again. It's a real drag!
So, for 30+ years, I think I've tried most everything to defeat this temptation.
What I want is a freedom from even the desire for P. I want to know that I can be trusted with my computer; that my wife can trust me; that I can trust myself. I want to be able to go anywhere without having to fear what I might see, because I am free of lust in my heart regardless of what others around me are wearing (or NOT wearing!)
In other words, I want real freedom and purity... not just a strategy to keep my passions in check! I want to know the truth that really sets me free, not a continual slavery to lies.
I truly believe that it's possible.
But is it possible that the answer is not to be found where we have been looking? If the truth sets us free, but we have not been free, what are the lies keep us enslaved?
I look forward to exploring that question with you!
Pastor Ed