Post by Deleted on Dec 3, 2006 9:56:47 GMT -7
I found this site as a recommedation of Setting Captives Free.
I am late 30s, married, father of 2 wonderful kids, commited Christian and have been hiding an addiction to internet porn from my wife for almost our entire marriage.
This past week I finally decided to seek help for my addiction and joined Setting Captives Free. I am only on day 3 of their program, but I have already learned so much that I never knew of this addiction. I also plan on joining Celebrate Recovery this week.
Most importantly, today I confessed my sin to my wife. This was a major hurdle for me. I always felt like I would just die if she found out. I was afraid she would be really upset and leave me. I did not give her enough credit. She is hurt and a little stunned by my admission. But she gave me a great big hug and promised to support me through the recovery process.
I have read some of the introductions on this page and I am praying for all of us. This is such a tough addiction to beat. I used to abuse alcohol and 2 years ago I finally submitted to the Lord's calling that I rid my life of alcohol and never go back to it. The Lord took away my desire for alcohol and I have not gone back. But pornography is much more difficult for me to stay away from.
So I have developed a plan to defeat this monster. With God's grace and mercy I will be able to slay this dragon. For those who are further along in this journey, I would appreciate your input.
[align=center]The Plan[/align]
I am late 30s, married, father of 2 wonderful kids, commited Christian and have been hiding an addiction to internet porn from my wife for almost our entire marriage.
This past week I finally decided to seek help for my addiction and joined Setting Captives Free. I am only on day 3 of their program, but I have already learned so much that I never knew of this addiction. I also plan on joining Celebrate Recovery this week.
Most importantly, today I confessed my sin to my wife. This was a major hurdle for me. I always felt like I would just die if she found out. I was afraid she would be really upset and leave me. I did not give her enough credit. She is hurt and a little stunned by my admission. But she gave me a great big hug and promised to support me through the recovery process.
I have read some of the introductions on this page and I am praying for all of us. This is such a tough addiction to beat. I used to abuse alcohol and 2 years ago I finally submitted to the Lord's calling that I rid my life of alcohol and never go back to it. The Lord took away my desire for alcohol and I have not gone back. But pornography is much more difficult for me to stay away from.
So I have developed a plan to defeat this monster. With God's grace and mercy I will be able to slay this dragon. For those who are further along in this journey, I would appreciate your input.
[align=center]The Plan[/align]
[*]Confess and repent of this sin to God almighty - Done [/*]
[*]Research this addiction and how it may be overcome - Done [/*]
[*]Confess my sin and seek the forgiveness of my wife - Done [/*]
[*]Join a restoration program that will teach, encourage and hold me accountable - Done (Setting Captives Free) [/*]
[*]Join a group that focuses on sexual addiction - Visiting Celebrate Recovery at my church this Thursday. [/*]
[*]Join an accoutability group locally where I meet with a local group of men on a regular basis - I am in the process of putting this group together now. I am hoping we will start meeting in Jan. '07 [/*]
[*]Professional counseling with a Christian counselor - This may be a while due to budgetary restraints, but I think it will be important to dealing with the underlying cause of this issue and others.[/*]