Post by Deleted on Jul 20, 2005 20:30:44 GMT -7
[align=left]Hello
Just joined in today and really very pleased to be here!
I'm a 28 years old Christian man from Lagos, Nigeria. I am in a courtship with sound Christian lady in my church and we are preparing for marriage sometime next year.
I got to know about this great site just yesterday. I've been through a series of "on and off" involvement in full blown sex, porn and masturbation addiction in the past four years. And now, I am not ashamed or afraid to say that God has broken the chain of sexual lust in my life!
With the help of some recovery partners including my Pastors and three close friends I've fully given up and still giving up my struggles against all the tendencies to pornography (especially)., masturbation and having sex with prostitutes of which also I have told my fiancée about it when we started courting.
We've not had sex and we are not intending to until we get married. But then, we often resort to petting and necking each other once in the while. At first it didn't prove any harm, until last weekend when after she's left I was overwhelmed with sexual lust until I masturbated. And the following night, so overwhelming was the lust that I got masturbated by a prostitute although I did not have any sex with her. I felt so terrible and dirty as if the whole hell was let loose on me.
I truly love my fiancée and don’t want to hurt her in anyway. I have confessed my sins to God and repented from the lust I allowed and somehow been secretly allowing some few days back as flash backs of former sexual experience pops at me. One thing I also discovered just like before was that, my connecting and fellowshipping with God's started wavering... that's why I've just started a fresh commitment this week of constant seeking and communing with God in prayers and Bible study no matter how hard and dry it may seem initially.
I've not discuss this latest development with anyone yet and honestly I don’t wish to at least not now; that's why I’m sharing it with you. I love God and I want to continue live for Him: He has delivered me greatly from the deepest pit of sexual addiction but then I know I have the responsibility to work and walk with Him to finish strong and not let Him down again. I have decided to move on with God and by His grace never allow any lust ever settle in again.... I also want your encouragement![/align]
Just joined in today and really very pleased to be here!
I'm a 28 years old Christian man from Lagos, Nigeria. I am in a courtship with sound Christian lady in my church and we are preparing for marriage sometime next year.
I got to know about this great site just yesterday. I've been through a series of "on and off" involvement in full blown sex, porn and masturbation addiction in the past four years. And now, I am not ashamed or afraid to say that God has broken the chain of sexual lust in my life!
With the help of some recovery partners including my Pastors and three close friends I've fully given up and still giving up my struggles against all the tendencies to pornography (especially)., masturbation and having sex with prostitutes of which also I have told my fiancée about it when we started courting.
We've not had sex and we are not intending to until we get married. But then, we often resort to petting and necking each other once in the while. At first it didn't prove any harm, until last weekend when after she's left I was overwhelmed with sexual lust until I masturbated. And the following night, so overwhelming was the lust that I got masturbated by a prostitute although I did not have any sex with her. I felt so terrible and dirty as if the whole hell was let loose on me.
I truly love my fiancée and don’t want to hurt her in anyway. I have confessed my sins to God and repented from the lust I allowed and somehow been secretly allowing some few days back as flash backs of former sexual experience pops at me. One thing I also discovered just like before was that, my connecting and fellowshipping with God's started wavering... that's why I've just started a fresh commitment this week of constant seeking and communing with God in prayers and Bible study no matter how hard and dry it may seem initially.
I've not discuss this latest development with anyone yet and honestly I don’t wish to at least not now; that's why I’m sharing it with you. I love God and I want to continue live for Him: He has delivered me greatly from the deepest pit of sexual addiction but then I know I have the responsibility to work and walk with Him to finish strong and not let Him down again. I have decided to move on with God and by His grace never allow any lust ever settle in again.... I also want your encouragement![/align]