In my life, I have to admit that the Bible is my best and only recovery resource and authority. I am also not saying that I don't read recovery books but here is my understanding and how I am laying down my foundation.
1. Jesus said if I will build upon the rock (Matthew 7:24) then I would be wise.
2. Jesus said if I would preach the good news and make disciples, then I would be fulfilling the great commission.
3. Jesus said it's not possible to do anything apart from Him (John 15 abiding in Christ)
4. Jesus said to ask for the Holy Spirit because The Heavenly Father would be able to give the Holy Spirit
5. Jesus said to repent and believe in the gospel
6. Jesus said man shall not live on bread alone but on every words that proceeds out of the mouth of God.
Now I know I am not perfect, I have anger, fear, lust all inside of me. I'm very sensitive, critical and don't like to be told what to do. I admit this which is why I am going to the Bible to get it from the source.
My attitude is very wishy washy (changing too) because at times, I love to hear what other brothers and sisters have to say, and other times, I'm infected with envy and because I'm envious of others success, I don't have a right mind to receive and my heart is polluted and I can't receive the encouragement that that others are trying to give me. There is also another obstable, pride, when I am prideful, I think I know it all, I'm unteachable and this is a layer on my stony heart and I am deaf or more like unwilling to hear what others want to say, because of #1 envy and #2 pride, these are also working inside me and against me.
This is why I"m not healthy all the time. Not in a sober state emotionally and pure.
The other obstacle is this, intentions, #3, so intentions to "be in the light" I have to ask "why" I"m doing this? Like this post, am I venting, trying to "convert" you, trying to "encourage you" or "look good". Because I'm aware of this already, I know Jesus calls out the religious hypocrites and rebukes them sharply. I hate hate hate it when I am rebuked ....why? because I want to hold on to the idea that "I'm flawless" and deep down, that "belief" of "dominic being flawless is present"
That is why I don't like to be corrected. My ego takes a hit, someone shows me my double-standard, my hypocrisy and I don't like it, so I have to run or discuss or something else.
What I am saying? I feel like I'm rambling and I should stop.
Ok, I'm trying to say this.
Jesus and Bible and also, I want to be under this kind of authority. This will help me not be envious of brothers and help me heal from rebukes or repent. I always need to repent, I could hear someone say "yeah but you also need to rest in Christ" < see what I just did there? I am constantly in this mental argument with this no that, and it's so tiresome.
I want to acknowledge you and others, but I also don't want to.
I want to acknowledge you, if my listening will help you, but I don't want to acknowledge you if I am not helping but hurting you too.
That is all I want to say.