Post by brotherdavid on Feb 17, 2023 16:21:56 GMT -7
Dear Brother and Sisters,
I was fasting for a day last Sunday. I must say I was winging it, what I mean is that I did not read my Bible and did not pray for strength. By night time, I had developed a mean pain in my left eye. My flesh was fighting me and since I was not going to eat, I started to get lustful thoughts. I could not fall asleep until 4 am. Monday, I woke up tired and sad. I was experiencing severe lustful thoughts. The attack was on. By the end of the day I gave in and relapsed. I was sad and upset. I was thinking why can't I overcome my sin? I prayed to the Lord Jesus Christ and I asked him to help me. I remember what a pastor once told the congregation about a man that could not stop sinning because he loved his sin more than he loved Jesus! I meditated in that statement " loved his sin more than he loved Jesus". I searched my heart and I found how true this is in my life. I claim to love Christ but when tempted, I walk away from that love to gratify my flesh.
I decided to not give up and work out a plan to overcome. I prayed to Jesus and ended up watching a video called " created from within". The pastor mentioned how we need to surrender our mind to be governed by Jesus Christ. I was still getting some lustful thoughts, the enemy was not giving up. I decided to motivate myself to obedience by watching a video of a man that went to hell. In his video, he mentioned about the torment of those that gave into fornication and masturbation in life. After the video, I prayed to Jesus. I was brutally honest with Him. I told Him that I liked to sin to release stress and to feel good for a moment. I told Him that I wanted to change, since I know that if I did not, I would end up in Hell! I told Him to govern my mind, wash my mind in His Holy blood. Cleanse my heart and write His laws in my heart. I told Him that I am weak and can't do this by myself. I pleaded with Him to not send me to the lake of fire. I told Christ, how easy it would be to follow his commandments, if I could walk with him in person like his disciples did. I asked him to send me His Holy Ghost to convict, guide and cleanse my heart.
The next day when I woke up, I knew a miracle had occurred! My lustful thoughts had gone away and I felt at peace. I told Jesus that I wanted to love him more than any pleasure or more than anything else. That I wanted to love Him more than the love of my life or any of the things of this world. I understood that my problem was in my heart and in my mind. I remembered the scripture " love God with all your heart". I have been unconsciously holding on to a maladaptive coping skill to deal with stress, boredom or sadness. What I truly needed was to have the mind of Christ living in me, governing me. So far so good, I have been delivered. The difficult thing is to maintain this relationship with Christ. It takes discipline, commitment, time spent in prayer daily. Keeping my heart committed to love Him above all things.
Lesson learned is that we need to be open and honest with Christ. Jesus knows that our minds and hearts are carnal and earthly. Jesus has a heavenly and spiritual mind and heart. God does not want anyone to perish, He loves us but He will not intervene to change our hearts unless we ask him sincerely. I can't make it unless I get a new spiritual heart and mind. But we need to be asking without ceasing. It is possible to overcome the flesh, but we need to have Christ living in us, ruling our hearts and minds. We need to replace the gods of our carnal mind, let go of the imaginations of the flesh and sins of the past. I found out that I have been secretly holding on to the gods of my carnal mind. Plain carnal willpower is not enough to overcome! It is important to ask God to help us to see sin the way He sees it, an act that causes death and hell. It's time to stop being double minded and get serious about whom we will serve either God or our flesh.
Truth and Grace in Jesus Christ!
David
I was fasting for a day last Sunday. I must say I was winging it, what I mean is that I did not read my Bible and did not pray for strength. By night time, I had developed a mean pain in my left eye. My flesh was fighting me and since I was not going to eat, I started to get lustful thoughts. I could not fall asleep until 4 am. Monday, I woke up tired and sad. I was experiencing severe lustful thoughts. The attack was on. By the end of the day I gave in and relapsed. I was sad and upset. I was thinking why can't I overcome my sin? I prayed to the Lord Jesus Christ and I asked him to help me. I remember what a pastor once told the congregation about a man that could not stop sinning because he loved his sin more than he loved Jesus! I meditated in that statement " loved his sin more than he loved Jesus". I searched my heart and I found how true this is in my life. I claim to love Christ but when tempted, I walk away from that love to gratify my flesh.
I decided to not give up and work out a plan to overcome. I prayed to Jesus and ended up watching a video called " created from within". The pastor mentioned how we need to surrender our mind to be governed by Jesus Christ. I was still getting some lustful thoughts, the enemy was not giving up. I decided to motivate myself to obedience by watching a video of a man that went to hell. In his video, he mentioned about the torment of those that gave into fornication and masturbation in life. After the video, I prayed to Jesus. I was brutally honest with Him. I told Him that I liked to sin to release stress and to feel good for a moment. I told Him that I wanted to change, since I know that if I did not, I would end up in Hell! I told Him to govern my mind, wash my mind in His Holy blood. Cleanse my heart and write His laws in my heart. I told Him that I am weak and can't do this by myself. I pleaded with Him to not send me to the lake of fire. I told Christ, how easy it would be to follow his commandments, if I could walk with him in person like his disciples did. I asked him to send me His Holy Ghost to convict, guide and cleanse my heart.
The next day when I woke up, I knew a miracle had occurred! My lustful thoughts had gone away and I felt at peace. I told Jesus that I wanted to love him more than any pleasure or more than anything else. That I wanted to love Him more than the love of my life or any of the things of this world. I understood that my problem was in my heart and in my mind. I remembered the scripture " love God with all your heart". I have been unconsciously holding on to a maladaptive coping skill to deal with stress, boredom or sadness. What I truly needed was to have the mind of Christ living in me, governing me. So far so good, I have been delivered. The difficult thing is to maintain this relationship with Christ. It takes discipline, commitment, time spent in prayer daily. Keeping my heart committed to love Him above all things.
Lesson learned is that we need to be open and honest with Christ. Jesus knows that our minds and hearts are carnal and earthly. Jesus has a heavenly and spiritual mind and heart. God does not want anyone to perish, He loves us but He will not intervene to change our hearts unless we ask him sincerely. I can't make it unless I get a new spiritual heart and mind. But we need to be asking without ceasing. It is possible to overcome the flesh, but we need to have Christ living in us, ruling our hearts and minds. We need to replace the gods of our carnal mind, let go of the imaginations of the flesh and sins of the past. I found out that I have been secretly holding on to the gods of my carnal mind. Plain carnal willpower is not enough to overcome! It is important to ask God to help us to see sin the way He sees it, an act that causes death and hell. It's time to stop being double minded and get serious about whom we will serve either God or our flesh.
Truth and Grace in Jesus Christ!
David