Post by Dominic on Jan 7, 2022 0:48:27 GMT -7
I'm a recovering addict. Thank you Jesus. I have no righteousness of my own, thank you Jesus. Well, this might sound really brutal and hard but....
guys, we have a snake, attached to us and also a snake/flesh nature. Just like Satan wanted to be god, so his demons, and his children, and so sex addicts, are in a dangerous game with their addiction. The addiction is the lie in our minds that tell us "You want this, this feels good, you want to be like that guy right? you want that women to worship you and comfort you right? Wrong. That is a snake, the one I'm talking about. The devil uses us for his pleasure really, the demons us us for our pleasure, how do we know the demons are not gaining some sexual gratification from us? Didn't the Bible say the nephilim saw the daughters of God as beautiful in Genesis. I know the real sexual perverts are demons, and the demons are making their way to us. They know, they know, we like sex, because humans were designed for it, but they poison our minds, making us aroused with sensual thoughts all day, where the man, cant even think straight.
Why is porn so attracted? Because liars on the screen are lying to us, they imaging it's you really who are with them getting pleasure, showing you and I pleasure and secret things that should only be seen with our wives. I hate to say it but..
we are starting at another man's parts and getting aroused? How sick. It's like I'm a straight guy getting aroused by another guy, which is beginning of homosexual thoughts, temptations and behavior, so how evil is sin and this snake Satan? Every evil. He doesn't care if you turn out from straight to gay, because he knows you will not have a wife, and you don't really want one now since he is trying to turn you into a homosexual. Satan comes to kill, steal and destroy doesn't he? yes he does. It's a truth and I have to talk about it.
Not only does Satan want to turn the marriage upside down and through us all into the sewers and hell, Satan desire to make us worship a false god, in this case, we love sex, specifically, our own body parts, need I say more? I admit it, I love my own body part, I worship it, I love it soooo much. Now I know the truth, I am able to be given the opportunity to repent. How can I tell some man this stuff? I can't he'll hate me for it, but I can tell myself why? Because I know it's true. I know I have a snake heart and snake demon and a snake (my own penis), I'm being painfully and brutally honest and not trying to give anyone arousal, I'm turn away and hating my self and my sin. My sick body organ did all all of this to me. My sick perverted twisted mind did all of this to me. I am now insane because I loved my own penis so much at the hurt of all people, to include my wife. I don't love her while I love my own penis over her. I don't love my wife while I love some other women's body. How sick, who would want a women who plays the harlot with porn? who wants a man who plays the male prostitute with porn? How the heck would want me? No one. My wife is right to throw me away and divorce. She has every right too do this. Yet, some say divorce is not right or biblical. They say that because I think they want to use the Bible to control their wives into submission and sex, because if we became like die -hard all sold out for Jesus, we would not even look with lust. It's because our hearts so harder than our own penises and we are blind to the truth. Satan is going to take as many of us to hell.
When I read the forums, I don't see a lot of "hell" and "judgment" and I fear it's because of "not being judgment" or "laying down the law or hammer" but come on now, if we take away the world of Jesus away whom often spoke of hell, (Matt 5:27-30, Luke 16, Matt 25) and Jesus, our Master, we call him Lord, told us to "teach what He commanded" which includes hell and seeing if we are a false convert or not, then I must. Sure, I know what some will say. "Hey Dominic, you are just a hypocrite and a fake John the Baptist, get out of here you phony" and I don't care what you think about me, I'm not trying to please you but God only.
I can't reconcile watching porn and also calling myself a true Christian.
Some might say "well, if you are hoping on your addiction and get sober, then it's like your earning your way to heaven and trying to make God forgive you". No, I am not. I am not ever good enough for heaven and I will never be. You will not either.
Think about this, honestly, if someone comes to you and tells you that you are sinning, do you accept it humbly? and want to change? or do you kick, scream, be like a self-righteous Pharisee, and try to convince your self and other "Oh Thank you God, that I am not like that other man over there, I fast twice a week and give alms to the poor". Please please do not do that, do not act like a self-righteous Pharisee. If you are sober, great, God's grace is Amazing and Blazing and all of that, but it was God, not you not I, not "working a program" not "I did" or "I can" or "I am" foolish nonsense, If you are reading your Bible and praying then you are doing doing what you are wanting to do, because now the new creation in Christ wants to eat and drink.
Ask yourself this, Do I really want to know God? Do I really want to talk to God? Do I really even know God? If I do and if I did, then why am I still watching porn and masturbating, or visiting massage parlors, or going to visit a prostitute or seeking casual sex, meeting women for sex, having cybersex, having affairs?
Why?
I'm a sinner. I'm human.
Those are true, but have you considered this?
what if "I am not truly saved, don't truly know the Lord, am lost and one of the deceived in Matthew 7:21-23 and on my way to hell?" < what about that? Cant' that be an option? Yes it can,
But someone might say "hey man, woah, slow down, you are taking this way too far?" Am I? We are told to examine ourselves in the Bible and "make our calling and election sure" so whey can't we apply this teachign to our own journey in sexual addiction recovery? If not, why not? So we ought < which is my understanding.
I would rather be a OCD, doubting, worrying, anxious Christian who constantly doubts his salvation, rather than...."Oh, you don't have to question my salvation, I know the Lord, yet, I just fall or "relapse" here and there".
Sorry, perhaps there is a third or more options, but I would rather you mock me for my fears and doubts then mock me for my cocky arrogant attitude like a Pharisee.
To me there only two groups, the prideful and the humble. The proud Pharisee who went to hell and repentant tax collector who beat his chest.
Probably you think I"m so crazy, but it's OK to think so. I don't care if you do. Maybe I am crazy. I just do not want to go to hell, I want to know Jesus, I want to prove my repentance by my deeds as the scriptures command me, I want to submit to the Lord Jesus Christ, i don't want to envy you, judge you, I can't, but I do want to share what is on my heart and how I understand our salvation in relation to this sexual addiction. Perhaps I will see you in heaven or perhaps I will not. If I am not in heaven, it's my fault, because God, and my wife, and many people have been trying for years to help me, fix me, encourage me, but I still go back to the vomit, and I hear scriptures like Jesus said to fear God who can kill the body and the soul, and someone comfort me softly saying "it's ok" I don't think it's OK, and I will not ever think my sins are ok and I am OK, I don't think I'm ok.
I have been to counseling. I take medication. I have spoken to people like us for years, I have seen people fall down, and rarely we don't talk about this kind of stuff. Yes, I know the Devil wants to cause doubt, confusion, and cause ligit Christians to doubt, and I know Thomas was a doubter and I am not trying to say that 'doubting' is ok, I think 'doubting' is a torment for me, but I am self-examining myself, and at times, I admit, I do feel "saved" and "It will well with my soul" but many times, (look at my past) how can I still be cheating on my wife. If you knew of a Pastor or a Christian leader who was watching porn, masturbating, cheating on his wife, going to massage parlors, visiting prostitutes, what would you say? And if he had some good track record for years, then falls again, how would you think? Can you ever think that he might never ever fall again? Of course not. I don't feel recovered right now or cured and who is to say it takes 30, 60, 90 days, years to stop sexual behaviors like this? Even if someone say "I'm sober for 30 years" you know what I think? God is good, God is helping that man/women, but in those 30/20 years, if you have looked with lust, you are sinning, not pure, but cheating on your wife, even you never masturbated, or went to a strip bar. Honestly. it's adultery, who can say they are clean from that? lust? anyone? I don't think anyone. If a man sees a women and his body is aroused, that is lust and adultery, and it doesnt' matter you were 30 years sober or 70. That date of 30 years is a "self righteous" badge but God knows that we lusted in between there many times. I know I have. Today, talking on the phone, body aroused, sober? I don't think so. God knows my heart too. My wife may never ever know these things and the daily arousals I get, would only kill her, but if I do commit sexual sins like watch porn, masturbate, etc, I must tell her, yes, I might lose my marriage, but what about losing my soul, isn't that more important? And if God has my soul and I am truly His, then God will discipline His children. God could use my wife to discipline me, in fact, I think God has and my wife never knew about it. God is not stupid and I can't trick him, Forget about if I was not accountable to my partner or brother or wife. My sin will find me out and God doesn't' play games. My sins are not so light because it was these sins that caused the Son of God to be on the cross. My wife can't be my all and all, she can't love me. Sex. hah!. That is not love. that is a pleasure experience with my wife. Even if she rejects me, because of my sins, who am I to get some fake love fake poison aka idolatry/wicked/vomit/poop from the world? Aren't I taking God's grace at that time as a license to sin? Aren't I really believing "God, I know your so good, but I'm gonna sliip, and just cry tomorrow, I know your forgive me" What kind of relationship is that? Isn't that a sin that separates us from God and if we are not departing from iniquity then we truly do not fear God. We might fear our wifes or getting aids, but we don't fear God. The Bible says.
By mercy and truth iniquity is purged; and by the fear of the Lord men depart from evil.' Proverbs 16:6
perhaps you think that I am talking to you. Am I? I don't know you. I am not replying to a specific person's post. No one comes to my mind on these forums, however, these are the things I think of now, I battle, try to mentally digest, and try to understand my own salvation. I can't even understand my own salvation let alone judge any else heart, yet at the same time, Jesus does tell us "By your fruits, you shall know them" and we are called to test prophets, teachers, preachers. For example.
“To the angel of the church of Ephesus write: “He who holds the seven stars in His right hand, who walks in the midst of the seven golden candlesticks, says these things: I know your works, your labor and your patience, and that you cannot bear those who are evil. And you have tested those who say they are apostles, but are not, and have found them to be liars. You have endured, and have been patient, and for My name’s sake have labored and have not grown weary. “But I have something against you, that you have abandoned the love you had at first. Remember therefore from where you have fallen. Repent, and do the works you did at first, or else I will come to you quickly and remove your candlestick from its place, unless you repent. But this you have: You hate the works of the Nicolaitans, which I also hate. “He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches. To him who overcomes I will give permission to eat of the tree of life, which is in the midst of the Paradise of God.' Revelation 2:1-7
I know false teachers are going to hell.
'Although if we or an angel from heaven preach any other gospel to you than the one we have preached to you, let him be accursed. As we said before, so I say now again: If anyone preaches any other gospel to you than the one you have received, let him be accursed.' Galatians 1:8-9
What am I saying? I am saying how evil sin is, how evil is traps us, making us feel like "it's not that bad and I'm ok". It's only Jesus who can help me, everyone one else and everything else is 2nd, even books on sexual addiction, even mature brothers.
That is what I wanted to say, and yes, all of this applies to me, 100%. I'm not off the hook for speaking this way and I'm not boiling mad, I'm not pointing a finger, I'm really calm now. I do think many Christians are not really and will be in hell soon, I don't want to be one of them, knowing that is a possibly, how much more I should hate Satan, his demons, sexual sins, my enslavement to my own body, my enslavement to that other immoral strange women.
What will it take? My wife to leave me? Prostate cancer? a loss of a family member? or maybe I will have to think about it in hell for eternity because I never even truly trusted in Jesus. If I am there, it's my fault. The hope I want in Jesus, is so great now. What a deliverance I can get, if I am truly saved, how happy I will be when I can stop living a lie, and I can look my wife in the face and tell her "I love you babe" and mean it and "I want only you, and I don't care about those other women anymore". How much soul crushing will I give to my wife to endure for my sins? God will crush my soul in hell unless I fear him enough to depart from iniquity. I am not getting away with anything and neither will anyone else.
I honestly think people in hell, some, hate God, for sending them there. They can hate God there, because they already hated God in their life up on earth, so why would a loving God let someone who hates him (a sex addict) be in heaven? Turn it around please, why would a sex addict choose his sins over a loving God? and not to mention the loving wife who is desperately hurting, Why? Why? Why? Because we loved our sins more.
'This is the verdict, that light has come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil. For everyone who does evil hates the light and does not come to the light, lest his deeds should be exposed. But he who does the truth comes to the light, that it may be revealed that his deeds have been done in God.”' John 3:19-21
Instead of looking at porn, say "I don't want to love that darkness, because Jesus says, when I love that darkness, I am doing evil and hating the light." Isn't Jesus light of the World? Doesn't Jesus calls His children the light of the world, which includes our wives? So, honestly, we are not loving our wives, we say "I love you" but Jesus says "No, men loved darkness". So 'if we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us of our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness'
and 'if we confess and forsake our sins' we will find mercy (Proverbs 28:13).
Joseph ran from Potifars wife (immoral women), so men, we have to run, whatever, however this applies to your situation, get out now, while you still have a heartbeat and breathe, or sadly, you choose to love darkness and you will not win Satan's plan, you will be dragged to hell intoxicated in and with a foreign and strange women's lust. (Proverbs 5-7).
Just because David committed adultery and in the end God forgive him, doesn't not mean, "Oh, I can go as far as David went and look, God's will forgive me too" - Who said that? Does God? No. Satan says that. What happened in David life? Bathsheeba lost her faithful warrior Husband Uriah, the baby gets sick and dies, David weeps for the child, David son rapes the daughter, there is all kinds of violence David life. What is our sins destroy our famillies life too? What if our wifes lie and cheat the way we do? What if our sons and daughters become prostitutes and male prostitutes having children, having abortions, serving the gods of the nations, and ending up in hell, perhaps joining us in hell or perhaps not joining us in heaven? Have you thought about the path moving forward? It's too late for some already. Some (Luke 16) are begging and pleading to tell and warm their alive family on earth about hell (Luke 16) so they will not have to go there. What was Abrahams repliy to the rich man in hell?
'“He said, ‘Then I pray you, father, to send him to my father’s house, for I have five brothers, to testify to them, lest they also come to this place of torment.’ “Abraham said to him, ‘They have Moses and the Prophets. Let them hear them.’ “He said, ‘No, father Abraham. But if someone from the dead goes to them, they will repent.’ “He said to him, ‘If they do not hear Moses and the Prophets, neither will they be persuaded if someone should rise from the dead.’ ”'
Luke 16:27-31
my.bible.com/bible/1171/LUK.16.27-31
Maybe I am crazy. I don't know. But I don't want to go there and I don't want to go there.
This
'Now, brothers, I declare to you the gospel which I preached to you, which you have received, and in which you stand. Through it you are saved, if you keep in memory what I preached to you, unless you have believed in vain. For I delivered to you first of all that which I also received: how Christ died for our sins according to the Scriptures, was buried, rose again the third day according to the Scriptures, '
1 Corinthians 15:1-4
my.bible.com/bible/1171/1CO.15.1-4
That should mean something to us - our salvation which includes a new creation. How new? Well, it's not doing what we are doing before.
'Do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived. Neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor male prostitutes, nor homosexuals, nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor extortioners will inherit the kingdom of God. Such were some of you. But you were washed, you were sanctified, and you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus by the Spirit of our God.'
1 Corinthians 6:9-11
my.bible.com/bible/1171/1CO.6.9-11
I "was" once sexual immoral. But am i still ? If I am still, how can "such were some of you" applies to me then if I am still sexually immoral falling down watching filth, addicting to my body and theirs? It's not what the Bible teaches, and we can believe what we want, but when we see the truth about the scriptures, we can make a better decision to keep our old beliefs to get new beliefs, aka, what the Bible is plaining telling us. That is God's Word, not man's.
guys, we have a snake, attached to us and also a snake/flesh nature. Just like Satan wanted to be god, so his demons, and his children, and so sex addicts, are in a dangerous game with their addiction. The addiction is the lie in our minds that tell us "You want this, this feels good, you want to be like that guy right? you want that women to worship you and comfort you right? Wrong. That is a snake, the one I'm talking about. The devil uses us for his pleasure really, the demons us us for our pleasure, how do we know the demons are not gaining some sexual gratification from us? Didn't the Bible say the nephilim saw the daughters of God as beautiful in Genesis. I know the real sexual perverts are demons, and the demons are making their way to us. They know, they know, we like sex, because humans were designed for it, but they poison our minds, making us aroused with sensual thoughts all day, where the man, cant even think straight.
Why is porn so attracted? Because liars on the screen are lying to us, they imaging it's you really who are with them getting pleasure, showing you and I pleasure and secret things that should only be seen with our wives. I hate to say it but..
we are starting at another man's parts and getting aroused? How sick. It's like I'm a straight guy getting aroused by another guy, which is beginning of homosexual thoughts, temptations and behavior, so how evil is sin and this snake Satan? Every evil. He doesn't care if you turn out from straight to gay, because he knows you will not have a wife, and you don't really want one now since he is trying to turn you into a homosexual. Satan comes to kill, steal and destroy doesn't he? yes he does. It's a truth and I have to talk about it.
Not only does Satan want to turn the marriage upside down and through us all into the sewers and hell, Satan desire to make us worship a false god, in this case, we love sex, specifically, our own body parts, need I say more? I admit it, I love my own body part, I worship it, I love it soooo much. Now I know the truth, I am able to be given the opportunity to repent. How can I tell some man this stuff? I can't he'll hate me for it, but I can tell myself why? Because I know it's true. I know I have a snake heart and snake demon and a snake (my own penis), I'm being painfully and brutally honest and not trying to give anyone arousal, I'm turn away and hating my self and my sin. My sick body organ did all all of this to me. My sick perverted twisted mind did all of this to me. I am now insane because I loved my own penis so much at the hurt of all people, to include my wife. I don't love her while I love my own penis over her. I don't love my wife while I love some other women's body. How sick, who would want a women who plays the harlot with porn? who wants a man who plays the male prostitute with porn? How the heck would want me? No one. My wife is right to throw me away and divorce. She has every right too do this. Yet, some say divorce is not right or biblical. They say that because I think they want to use the Bible to control their wives into submission and sex, because if we became like die -hard all sold out for Jesus, we would not even look with lust. It's because our hearts so harder than our own penises and we are blind to the truth. Satan is going to take as many of us to hell.
When I read the forums, I don't see a lot of "hell" and "judgment" and I fear it's because of "not being judgment" or "laying down the law or hammer" but come on now, if we take away the world of Jesus away whom often spoke of hell, (Matt 5:27-30, Luke 16, Matt 25) and Jesus, our Master, we call him Lord, told us to "teach what He commanded" which includes hell and seeing if we are a false convert or not, then I must. Sure, I know what some will say. "Hey Dominic, you are just a hypocrite and a fake John the Baptist, get out of here you phony" and I don't care what you think about me, I'm not trying to please you but God only.
I can't reconcile watching porn and also calling myself a true Christian.
Some might say "well, if you are hoping on your addiction and get sober, then it's like your earning your way to heaven and trying to make God forgive you". No, I am not. I am not ever good enough for heaven and I will never be. You will not either.
Think about this, honestly, if someone comes to you and tells you that you are sinning, do you accept it humbly? and want to change? or do you kick, scream, be like a self-righteous Pharisee, and try to convince your self and other "Oh Thank you God, that I am not like that other man over there, I fast twice a week and give alms to the poor". Please please do not do that, do not act like a self-righteous Pharisee. If you are sober, great, God's grace is Amazing and Blazing and all of that, but it was God, not you not I, not "working a program" not "I did" or "I can" or "I am" foolish nonsense, If you are reading your Bible and praying then you are doing doing what you are wanting to do, because now the new creation in Christ wants to eat and drink.
Ask yourself this, Do I really want to know God? Do I really want to talk to God? Do I really even know God? If I do and if I did, then why am I still watching porn and masturbating, or visiting massage parlors, or going to visit a prostitute or seeking casual sex, meeting women for sex, having cybersex, having affairs?
Why?
I'm a sinner. I'm human.
Those are true, but have you considered this?
what if "I am not truly saved, don't truly know the Lord, am lost and one of the deceived in Matthew 7:21-23 and on my way to hell?" < what about that? Cant' that be an option? Yes it can,
But someone might say "hey man, woah, slow down, you are taking this way too far?" Am I? We are told to examine ourselves in the Bible and "make our calling and election sure" so whey can't we apply this teachign to our own journey in sexual addiction recovery? If not, why not? So we ought < which is my understanding.
I would rather be a OCD, doubting, worrying, anxious Christian who constantly doubts his salvation, rather than...."Oh, you don't have to question my salvation, I know the Lord, yet, I just fall or "relapse" here and there".
Sorry, perhaps there is a third or more options, but I would rather you mock me for my fears and doubts then mock me for my cocky arrogant attitude like a Pharisee.
To me there only two groups, the prideful and the humble. The proud Pharisee who went to hell and repentant tax collector who beat his chest.
Probably you think I"m so crazy, but it's OK to think so. I don't care if you do. Maybe I am crazy. I just do not want to go to hell, I want to know Jesus, I want to prove my repentance by my deeds as the scriptures command me, I want to submit to the Lord Jesus Christ, i don't want to envy you, judge you, I can't, but I do want to share what is on my heart and how I understand our salvation in relation to this sexual addiction. Perhaps I will see you in heaven or perhaps I will not. If I am not in heaven, it's my fault, because God, and my wife, and many people have been trying for years to help me, fix me, encourage me, but I still go back to the vomit, and I hear scriptures like Jesus said to fear God who can kill the body and the soul, and someone comfort me softly saying "it's ok" I don't think it's OK, and I will not ever think my sins are ok and I am OK, I don't think I'm ok.
I have been to counseling. I take medication. I have spoken to people like us for years, I have seen people fall down, and rarely we don't talk about this kind of stuff. Yes, I know the Devil wants to cause doubt, confusion, and cause ligit Christians to doubt, and I know Thomas was a doubter and I am not trying to say that 'doubting' is ok, I think 'doubting' is a torment for me, but I am self-examining myself, and at times, I admit, I do feel "saved" and "It will well with my soul" but many times, (look at my past) how can I still be cheating on my wife. If you knew of a Pastor or a Christian leader who was watching porn, masturbating, cheating on his wife, going to massage parlors, visiting prostitutes, what would you say? And if he had some good track record for years, then falls again, how would you think? Can you ever think that he might never ever fall again? Of course not. I don't feel recovered right now or cured and who is to say it takes 30, 60, 90 days, years to stop sexual behaviors like this? Even if someone say "I'm sober for 30 years" you know what I think? God is good, God is helping that man/women, but in those 30/20 years, if you have looked with lust, you are sinning, not pure, but cheating on your wife, even you never masturbated, or went to a strip bar. Honestly. it's adultery, who can say they are clean from that? lust? anyone? I don't think anyone. If a man sees a women and his body is aroused, that is lust and adultery, and it doesnt' matter you were 30 years sober or 70. That date of 30 years is a "self righteous" badge but God knows that we lusted in between there many times. I know I have. Today, talking on the phone, body aroused, sober? I don't think so. God knows my heart too. My wife may never ever know these things and the daily arousals I get, would only kill her, but if I do commit sexual sins like watch porn, masturbate, etc, I must tell her, yes, I might lose my marriage, but what about losing my soul, isn't that more important? And if God has my soul and I am truly His, then God will discipline His children. God could use my wife to discipline me, in fact, I think God has and my wife never knew about it. God is not stupid and I can't trick him, Forget about if I was not accountable to my partner or brother or wife. My sin will find me out and God doesn't' play games. My sins are not so light because it was these sins that caused the Son of God to be on the cross. My wife can't be my all and all, she can't love me. Sex. hah!. That is not love. that is a pleasure experience with my wife. Even if she rejects me, because of my sins, who am I to get some fake love fake poison aka idolatry/wicked/vomit/poop from the world? Aren't I taking God's grace at that time as a license to sin? Aren't I really believing "God, I know your so good, but I'm gonna sliip, and just cry tomorrow, I know your forgive me" What kind of relationship is that? Isn't that a sin that separates us from God and if we are not departing from iniquity then we truly do not fear God. We might fear our wifes or getting aids, but we don't fear God. The Bible says.
By mercy and truth iniquity is purged; and by the fear of the Lord men depart from evil.' Proverbs 16:6
perhaps you think that I am talking to you. Am I? I don't know you. I am not replying to a specific person's post. No one comes to my mind on these forums, however, these are the things I think of now, I battle, try to mentally digest, and try to understand my own salvation. I can't even understand my own salvation let alone judge any else heart, yet at the same time, Jesus does tell us "By your fruits, you shall know them" and we are called to test prophets, teachers, preachers. For example.
“To the angel of the church of Ephesus write: “He who holds the seven stars in His right hand, who walks in the midst of the seven golden candlesticks, says these things: I know your works, your labor and your patience, and that you cannot bear those who are evil. And you have tested those who say they are apostles, but are not, and have found them to be liars. You have endured, and have been patient, and for My name’s sake have labored and have not grown weary. “But I have something against you, that you have abandoned the love you had at first. Remember therefore from where you have fallen. Repent, and do the works you did at first, or else I will come to you quickly and remove your candlestick from its place, unless you repent. But this you have: You hate the works of the Nicolaitans, which I also hate. “He who has an ear, let him hear what the Spirit says to the churches. To him who overcomes I will give permission to eat of the tree of life, which is in the midst of the Paradise of God.' Revelation 2:1-7
I know false teachers are going to hell.
'Although if we or an angel from heaven preach any other gospel to you than the one we have preached to you, let him be accursed. As we said before, so I say now again: If anyone preaches any other gospel to you than the one you have received, let him be accursed.' Galatians 1:8-9
What am I saying? I am saying how evil sin is, how evil is traps us, making us feel like "it's not that bad and I'm ok". It's only Jesus who can help me, everyone one else and everything else is 2nd, even books on sexual addiction, even mature brothers.
That is what I wanted to say, and yes, all of this applies to me, 100%. I'm not off the hook for speaking this way and I'm not boiling mad, I'm not pointing a finger, I'm really calm now. I do think many Christians are not really and will be in hell soon, I don't want to be one of them, knowing that is a possibly, how much more I should hate Satan, his demons, sexual sins, my enslavement to my own body, my enslavement to that other immoral strange women.
What will it take? My wife to leave me? Prostate cancer? a loss of a family member? or maybe I will have to think about it in hell for eternity because I never even truly trusted in Jesus. If I am there, it's my fault. The hope I want in Jesus, is so great now. What a deliverance I can get, if I am truly saved, how happy I will be when I can stop living a lie, and I can look my wife in the face and tell her "I love you babe" and mean it and "I want only you, and I don't care about those other women anymore". How much soul crushing will I give to my wife to endure for my sins? God will crush my soul in hell unless I fear him enough to depart from iniquity. I am not getting away with anything and neither will anyone else.
I honestly think people in hell, some, hate God, for sending them there. They can hate God there, because they already hated God in their life up on earth, so why would a loving God let someone who hates him (a sex addict) be in heaven? Turn it around please, why would a sex addict choose his sins over a loving God? and not to mention the loving wife who is desperately hurting, Why? Why? Why? Because we loved our sins more.
'This is the verdict, that light has come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil. For everyone who does evil hates the light and does not come to the light, lest his deeds should be exposed. But he who does the truth comes to the light, that it may be revealed that his deeds have been done in God.”' John 3:19-21
Instead of looking at porn, say "I don't want to love that darkness, because Jesus says, when I love that darkness, I am doing evil and hating the light." Isn't Jesus light of the World? Doesn't Jesus calls His children the light of the world, which includes our wives? So, honestly, we are not loving our wives, we say "I love you" but Jesus says "No, men loved darkness". So 'if we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us of our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness'
and 'if we confess and forsake our sins' we will find mercy (Proverbs 28:13).
Joseph ran from Potifars wife (immoral women), so men, we have to run, whatever, however this applies to your situation, get out now, while you still have a heartbeat and breathe, or sadly, you choose to love darkness and you will not win Satan's plan, you will be dragged to hell intoxicated in and with a foreign and strange women's lust. (Proverbs 5-7).
Just because David committed adultery and in the end God forgive him, doesn't not mean, "Oh, I can go as far as David went and look, God's will forgive me too" - Who said that? Does God? No. Satan says that. What happened in David life? Bathsheeba lost her faithful warrior Husband Uriah, the baby gets sick and dies, David weeps for the child, David son rapes the daughter, there is all kinds of violence David life. What is our sins destroy our famillies life too? What if our wifes lie and cheat the way we do? What if our sons and daughters become prostitutes and male prostitutes having children, having abortions, serving the gods of the nations, and ending up in hell, perhaps joining us in hell or perhaps not joining us in heaven? Have you thought about the path moving forward? It's too late for some already. Some (Luke 16) are begging and pleading to tell and warm their alive family on earth about hell (Luke 16) so they will not have to go there. What was Abrahams repliy to the rich man in hell?
'“He said, ‘Then I pray you, father, to send him to my father’s house, for I have five brothers, to testify to them, lest they also come to this place of torment.’ “Abraham said to him, ‘They have Moses and the Prophets. Let them hear them.’ “He said, ‘No, father Abraham. But if someone from the dead goes to them, they will repent.’ “He said to him, ‘If they do not hear Moses and the Prophets, neither will they be persuaded if someone should rise from the dead.’ ”'
Luke 16:27-31
my.bible.com/bible/1171/LUK.16.27-31
Maybe I am crazy. I don't know. But I don't want to go there and I don't want to go there.
This
'Now, brothers, I declare to you the gospel which I preached to you, which you have received, and in which you stand. Through it you are saved, if you keep in memory what I preached to you, unless you have believed in vain. For I delivered to you first of all that which I also received: how Christ died for our sins according to the Scriptures, was buried, rose again the third day according to the Scriptures, '
1 Corinthians 15:1-4
my.bible.com/bible/1171/1CO.15.1-4
That should mean something to us - our salvation which includes a new creation. How new? Well, it's not doing what we are doing before.
'Do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived. Neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor male prostitutes, nor homosexuals, nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor extortioners will inherit the kingdom of God. Such were some of you. But you were washed, you were sanctified, and you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus by the Spirit of our God.'
1 Corinthians 6:9-11
my.bible.com/bible/1171/1CO.6.9-11
I "was" once sexual immoral. But am i still ? If I am still, how can "such were some of you" applies to me then if I am still sexually immoral falling down watching filth, addicting to my body and theirs? It's not what the Bible teaches, and we can believe what we want, but when we see the truth about the scriptures, we can make a better decision to keep our old beliefs to get new beliefs, aka, what the Bible is plaining telling us. That is God's Word, not man's.