nunyabiz
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Occupation: Artist
Interests: God, music, pitbulls, tattoos, cars
Days of Integrity: 6
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Post by nunyabiz on Jun 4, 2021 7:43:57 GMT -7
I am brand new here so this is my story.
I grew up in the church but never quite really took it seriously. In my teen years I started doing drugs and eventually I was forced with making a decision to be homeless or sleep with men for money so I could put a roof over my head and food in my stomach. During this time there was a lot of drugs, and porn to get me thru the difficult act of sleeping with strangers.
Now by the grace of God I will have 6 years clean this July... but I am still struggling with the porn addiction. It hasn't caused any chaos in my life...however I feel so much guilt after I have sex with myself and use pornography. I have been saved so I think this must be the Holy Spirit trying to tell me that I shouldn't be doing what I'm doing. It's the only part of my life where I feel I'm not following God.
I really want to change this and do better for my savior. I am failing him and it breaks my heart. I need help.
Are there any women on this board??? I really would prefer a woman for an accountability partner since having a man might be a bit of a trigger especially since I'm a newcomer here. I am open to suggestions and would love some prayer. Please let me know if you have any tips on how to get started down the road of recovery. Thank u and God bless you all.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 4, 2021 21:00:34 GMT -7
Hi nunyabiz. Welcome to BG. I am Amy. I have been an overcomer for many years. My story is a bit different from you but porn is porn. I was sexually abused from a baby to just before my period started. I became addicted to porn later on in my late teen years. I became promiscuous because I wanted love and thought the only way to get love was by having sex with men and yet I hated men. I became a Christian and yet my porn addiction remained and became worse. The Lord had to get me to the point that He could work on the porn addiction. First thing to go was the promiscuity. Next I had to learn to love myself and learn not to hate men. I had to work through the sexual abuse and forgive. Then the Lord helped me overcome the porn and masturbation. It took year to break the addiction and I am still vigilant to this day. I have to be careful of what I see and hear. I am stronger but it takes just one slip to send me back to where I started from and I don't want to go back.
My advice is to stay close to the Lord. When you are tempted, distract yourself. Praying, worshipping, reading the bible, hobbies, exercise...all are ways to distract from the temptations. You have to get determined and for me that meant getting angry and deciding I was done being controlled by this addiction.
Lord, please be with nunyabiz. Wrap her in Your arms and show her Your love for her. Strengthen her for this next leg of her journey with You. Jesus you know her heart and I ask that You help her overcome this addiction and realize she is Your princess and more percious than gold. Help her to see that she is worthy because of your sacrafice and your blood has washed her clean of all her sins. In your mighty name, Jesus, I pray.
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nunyabiz
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Occupation: Artist
Interests: God, music, pitbulls, tattoos, cars
Days of Integrity: 6
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Post by nunyabiz on Jun 5, 2021 7:57:20 GMT -7
Thank you Amy so much for sharing your story with me. It helps to know I'm not the only one who has struggled with this. And I am so sorry for what you have gone through. I will pray for you tonight sister, because why not. We all could use more prayer right. 🙏❤ thank u so much for your support. I feel less alone now 🙌🥰❤
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Post by Deleted on Jun 5, 2021 18:30:59 GMT -7
Thank you Amy so much for sharing your story with me. It helps to know I'm not the only one who has struggled with this. And I am so sorry for what you have gone through. I will pray for you tonight sister, because why not. We all could use more prayer right. 🙏❤ thank u so much for your support. I feel less alone now 🙌🥰❤ You are welcome. Thank you for the prayers. I need them. There are more women than you think that struggle with porn. They are not forthcoming about it because of the stigma attached to it. Porn addiction is supposed to be a men's issue. The thing is that in today's society, sexual perversion is so pervasive that it is affecting women also but no one will talk about it. 50 shades of grey? More women went to that movie then men. Romance books? Soft porn. I have tried talking to Christian women about what they are reading and got excuses. I started with romance books and progressed from there. Now I can't even read Christian romance books because my imagination goes where it shouldn't. Lat me know if you need prayer or if you just want to talk you can private message me. I will try to get back to asap. I am traveling and my honey and I haven't put down roots so some days are pretty hectic but I do try to get on here as often as possible. Best way to get my attention is private message that way I see it in my email. |
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KevinesKay
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Post by KevinesKay on Jun 5, 2021 21:36:41 GMT -7
Hi nunyabiz, I just wanted to say, "Welcome." Glad you're here. And I appreciate your honesty and desire to change. There is no shame in wanting to change for the better. And I wish more people would do so. God bless you. |
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Post by Deleted on Jun 6, 2021 3:40:56 GMT -7
Welcome sister.
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Post by Will on Jun 15, 2021 6:33:06 GMT -7
Welcome Nunyabiz!!!  |
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Post by Ɖσмιиιc on Dec 31, 2021 21:44:42 GMT -7
I am brand new here so this is my story. I grew up in the church but never quite really took it seriously. In my teen years I started doing drugs and eventually I was forced with making a decision to be homeless or sleep with men for money so I could put a roof over my head and food in my stomach. During this time there was a lot of drugs, and porn to get me thru the difficult act of sleeping with strangers. Now by the grace of God I will have 6 years clean this July... but I am still struggling with the porn addiction. It hasn't caused any chaos in my life...however I feel so much guilt after I have sex with myself and use pornography. I have been saved so I think this must be the Holy Spirit trying to tell me that I shouldn't be doing what I'm doing. It's the only part of my life where I feel I'm not following God. I really want to change this and do better for my savior. I am failing him and it breaks my heart. I need help. Are there any women on this board??? I really would prefer a woman for an accountability partner since having a man might be a bit of a trigger especially since I'm a newcomer here. I am open to suggestions and would love some prayer. Please let me know if you have any tips on how to get started down the road of recovery. Thank u and God bless you all. Yes, there are women on this board. If you click on "Members" on top, and view last online, you can see who was recently online and there are a few out there. I encourage you to contact one of them. I"m glad you are here and I hope you and other women can fellowship on calls, emails, privately, and often. Dear God, please help nunyabiz to find other sisters who can help and minister to her and her to them. Please bless her Lord, in Jesus' name. Amen. |
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