Seeking help

Hi nunyabiz. Welcome to BG. I am Amy. I have been an overcomer for many years. My story is a bit different from you but porn is porn. I was sexually abused from a baby to just before my period started. I became addicted to porn later on in my late teen years. I became promiscuous because I wanted love and thought the only way to get love was by having sex with men and yet I hated men. I became a Christian and yet my porn addiction remained and became worse. The Lord had to get me to the point that He could work on the porn addiction. First thing to go was the promiscuity. Next I had to learn to love myself and learn not to hate men. I had to work through the sexual abuse and forgive. Then the Lord helped me overcome the porn and masturbation. It took year to break the addiction and I am still vigilant to this day. I have to be careful of what I see and hear. I am stronger but it takes just one slip to send me back to where I started from and I don't want to go back.

My advice is to stay close to the Lord. When you are tempted, distract yourself. Praying, worshipping, reading the bible, hobbies, exercise...all are ways to distract from the temptations. You have to get determined and for me that meant getting angry and deciding I was done being controlled by this addiction.

Lord, please be with nunyabiz. Wrap her in Your arms and show her Your love for her. Strengthen her for this next leg of her journey with You. Jesus you know her heart and I ask that You help her overcome this addiction and realize she is Your princess and more percious than gold. Help her to see that she is worthy because of your sacrafice and your blood has washed her clean of all her sins. In your mighty name, Jesus, I pray.

You are welcome. Thank you for the prayers. I need them. There are more women than you think that struggle with porn. They are not forthcoming about it because of the stigma attached to it. Porn addiction is supposed to be a men's issue. The thing is that in today's society, sexual perversion is so pervasive that it is affecting women also but no one will talk about it. 50 shades of grey? More women went to that movie then men. Romance books? Soft porn. I have tried talking to Christian women about what they are reading and got excuses. I started with romance books and progressed from there. Now I can't even read Christian romance books because my imagination goes where it shouldn't. 

Lat me know if you need prayer or if you just want to talk you can private message me. I will try to get back to asap. I am traveling and my honey and I haven't put down roots so some days are pretty hectic but I do try to get on here as often as possible. Best way to get my attention is private message that way I see it in my email.

Welcome sister.