Post by BrokenDiva on Jun 7, 2006 13:57:30 GMT -7
Broken Diva~~~ Alberta Canada
I was glad to find this site and also that there was a forum here. I am not sure how others feel but finding a place where you can relate to ppl in similar situations is not so easy for the partners of addicts or former addicts ( if that term is even current I am not sure )
1 year 10 months less 9 days .... since my discovery that my b/f of 3 yrs was not who I thought he was. He was involved in porn , cyber cam and phone sex with more women than I could even track... I opened his msn one day and was surprised to see he was still signed in and although I knew it was dishonest I checked his list and to my dismay ppl started to message to him ( who was actualy me ) offering to cyber...send pics ect...I played along to find out what was going on and not only did these women know him and details of his life...they knew my name...women who engaged in this sick behaviour, shared their bodies on webcam called him for phone sex and knew he was attached as well as were attached themselves...knew my name. How could he involve me in this filth..how could he violate me this way..??
Can anyone know what this does to a woman, to find this out about her partner, the man she has let touch her , who she has shared her body, her mind given him love , understanding, shared her life, laughed with him, cried with him,held him close as we slept... did everything she could to make him feel secure , feel good feel safe and happy , and then she finds out he goes online to masturbate to with other women and not only does he share that he has a signifigant other .....he tells them my name....how signifigant do I feel now....
1 yr and 10 months less 9 days since my world collapsed and a part of me just died. I know alot of you reading this are involved in this behaviour, and many are now in recovery.....either way do any of you truley know that if you were/are married or have a committed partner what you have done ..?? Can you ever really know how you have destroyed a part of us..??
I was glad to find this site and also that there was a forum here. I am not sure how others feel but finding a place where you can relate to ppl in similar situations is not so easy for the partners of addicts or former addicts ( if that term is even current I am not sure )
1 year 10 months less 9 days .... since my discovery that my b/f of 3 yrs was not who I thought he was. He was involved in porn , cyber cam and phone sex with more women than I could even track... I opened his msn one day and was surprised to see he was still signed in and although I knew it was dishonest I checked his list and to my dismay ppl started to message to him ( who was actualy me ) offering to cyber...send pics ect...I played along to find out what was going on and not only did these women know him and details of his life...they knew my name...women who engaged in this sick behaviour, shared their bodies on webcam called him for phone sex and knew he was attached as well as were attached themselves...knew my name. How could he involve me in this filth..how could he violate me this way..??
Can anyone know what this does to a woman, to find this out about her partner, the man she has let touch her , who she has shared her body, her mind given him love , understanding, shared her life, laughed with him, cried with him,held him close as we slept... did everything she could to make him feel secure , feel good feel safe and happy , and then she finds out he goes online to masturbate to with other women and not only does he share that he has a signifigant other .....he tells them my name....how signifigant do I feel now....
1 yr and 10 months less 9 days since my world collapsed and a part of me just died. I know alot of you reading this are involved in this behaviour, and many are now in recovery.....either way do any of you truley know that if you were/are married or have a committed partner what you have done ..?? Can you ever really know how you have destroyed a part of us..??