First time to admit that I can't handle my "secret problem"

Hi, I know what you mean. I am 37 married to my wife. With three children. I have a terrible past. The only thing I can say is that this is victorious only if you surrender to Jesus Christ. If you say you have surrendered but still fall....them the degree of your surrender is not deep enough or genuine. I can tell you that only when I got broken and my wife left me, she took all our three children and it was my wake up. I knew God had to be first and real in my life. My wife kicked me out, my friend allowed me to live with hi, for two weeks. I was counseled by a drug addiction counselor and pastor. He basically told me that I was dead and hell bound but I knew he cared for me enough to tell me the truth. He gave me the Word of God and told me to seek God. He left me alone with God at that church and I just poured out my life to God. I cried and confessed all the hate I had towards others to include my wife and even God. I begged for God to save me, clean me, wash me, forgive me, make me born-again. I saw in my mind that Jesus still loved me and I cried more knowing that God still was for me not against me.



I left that day and started to change. Here were some of the changes. I cancelled the internet on my cellphone and went from a smart phone to a flip phone. I went to church every Sunday, Sunday night, Wednesday, Sunday. I remember there was a couples Bible study that my friend and his wife went to and I remember wishing, oh how I wish that were me and my wife together and going to a couples Bible Study.


Guess what. God worked a miracle in my life and my wife’s life. She gave me a chance, I was allowed to move back in, hug and kiss our three children. And even hug and kiss my wife again. It was been over three years and I am not looking at porn or m.sterbating. Still the lust battles in my mind, and I have to bounce my eyes away from any women I find attractive (pretty much all women, even the really ugly ones).

Know this, women are not out here for your and I sex, but for a suitable partner. That is why God created Eve for Adam.

Know this, Jesus said, let no man break apart what God has put together.

There is adultery spoken in Matthew 5:27-30 which will send you to hell. Do you want to end up in the lake of flames because you can’t stop m.sterbati g and lusting? Jesus said cut off your hands and eyes, it’s that serious. Same message I say to you is what I believe about myself. Same I tell my sons.

If you are a Christian, know the warning in Matthew 7:21-23 where Jesus said, “ it everyone who calls me Lord, Lord, will enter into the Kingdom of Heaven. Many will say to Me on that day, Lord didn’t we prophecy and cast out demons in your name? But I will declare to them, Depart from Me you workers of lawlessness, I never knew you”

Jesus is telling us that there are fake Christians out there (you or I might be one of them) so we men who claim to know the Lord had better take this sin seriously.

I will pray for you.

Dominic

“For the grace of God has been revealed, bringing salvation to all people. And we are instructed to turn from godless living and sinful pleasures. We should live in this evil world with wisdom, righteousness, and devotion to God, while we look forward with hope to that wonderful day when the glory of our great God and Savior, Jesus Christ, will be revealed. He gave his life to free us from every kind of sin, to cleanse us, and to make us his very own people, totally committed to doing good deeds. You must teach these things and encourage the believers to do them. You have the authority to correct them when necessary, so don’t let anyone disregard what you say.”
Titus 2:11-15 NLT
www.bible.com/116/tit.2.11-15.nlt


True grace according to this verse teaches us to stop sinning. Jesus said if you sin by looking at a women to lust, you will end of with your whole body in hell. This is crucial to understanding God’s grace.

Because God did die for us. Jesus is God, this understanding of His grace, would lead to the turning away from sin as Titus said. So by God’s grace a person is saved and kept living right.

So if you keep on sinning you will go to hell. If you repent and believe and keep repenting and keep believing you will live is what the Bible says.

The Bible says to examine yourself too. If a Christian or person who claims to be a Christian keep watching porn and masterbating. They are at rid of going to hell. There profession of being a Christian is not not what matters but a new life in Christ. You can break free if you want it. You can want it if you get humble and desperate.

God gives grace to the humble and opposes the proud the book of James says.

Yes. I’ll start one now.

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