Female addict

Hello, this is my first time on this site. I am a female addict in recovery who struggles with porn, masturbation, sex and alcohol. I have also been doing a lot of trauma work in therapy for the past few years and lately I’ve really started to open up which is why I’m here in this site. I’ve never been completely sober, if I’m not acting out one way then I’m acting out another way. Lately it’s been more and more out of control. I am currently sober from engaging in casual sex but I continue to binge on porn and masturbation almost daily. I came clean to my group leader last night and set up some security settings on my phone but then turned around and tried to access porn sites on my iPad but it was dead. I know I need to be more proactive but I’m scared, I don’t know what I’ll do without the coping skills I’ve used for to so long.