Post by Deleted on May 26, 2017 19:08:42 GMT -7
Hi everyone. I postef back in January about my husband's porn addiction.
blazinggrace.forums.net/thread/3020/lovin-feeling
At the time I was struggling to feel close with him again and also struggling with suspicion that he may have had an affair with an employee. I had absolutely no supporting evidence for this hunch, it was completely intuitive. He swore on everything that he had told me the whole truth and that he had never had any affair or even so much as thought about it.
Well, turns out that he had. He had an affair with a 22 year old employee when my 2nd born was 4 months old. He also had an affair with a 25 old employee and tenant of our rental property when we were in the the process of trying to conceive our daughter who is now 18 months old.
I had completely let go of my suspicions and things had been pretty great lately. One of his former girlfriends sent me a message on Facebook and gave me all of the details.
Twelve hours later I took a pregnancy test and found out that I'm pregnant with our fourth child.
What an emotional time.
I'm so happy to be pregnant. We've been trying for well over a year. I'm 37 and the clock's ticking.
But the timing....
It's so strange. It's so strange how these things are revealed.
With the porn I caught him asleep with his phone on his chest. I was in the middle of a big organizing project but something told me to go into the bedroom and then told me to look at his phone (which I never did before). And there it was - his whole porn account history right there.
Now with the affairs, his girlfriend just contacts with me out of the blue 2 years later.
Its been a couple of weeks since I found out and I'm still in shock. We have a 4yo, 3yo,and 18mo and I believe in honoring marriage vows, for better or worse. I won't divorce him but it's so hard to envision coming back from this to a place where I can truly love and trust him again. I can't imagine having sex with him. In fact, I want to have sex with him but then all I can think of is him with his girlfriends and it disgusts me.
I'm going to get Mike's new book.
blazinggrace.forums.net/thread/3020/lovin-feeling
At the time I was struggling to feel close with him again and also struggling with suspicion that he may have had an affair with an employee. I had absolutely no supporting evidence for this hunch, it was completely intuitive. He swore on everything that he had told me the whole truth and that he had never had any affair or even so much as thought about it.
Well, turns out that he had. He had an affair with a 22 year old employee when my 2nd born was 4 months old. He also had an affair with a 25 old employee and tenant of our rental property when we were in the the process of trying to conceive our daughter who is now 18 months old.
I had completely let go of my suspicions and things had been pretty great lately. One of his former girlfriends sent me a message on Facebook and gave me all of the details.
Twelve hours later I took a pregnancy test and found out that I'm pregnant with our fourth child.
What an emotional time.
I'm so happy to be pregnant. We've been trying for well over a year. I'm 37 and the clock's ticking.
But the timing....
It's so strange. It's so strange how these things are revealed.
With the porn I caught him asleep with his phone on his chest. I was in the middle of a big organizing project but something told me to go into the bedroom and then told me to look at his phone (which I never did before). And there it was - his whole porn account history right there.
Now with the affairs, his girlfriend just contacts with me out of the blue 2 years later.
Its been a couple of weeks since I found out and I'm still in shock. We have a 4yo, 3yo,and 18mo and I believe in honoring marriage vows, for better or worse. I won't divorce him but it's so hard to envision coming back from this to a place where I can truly love and trust him again. I can't imagine having sex with him. In fact, I want to have sex with him but then all I can think of is him with his girlfriends and it disgusts me.
I'm going to get Mike's new book.
