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Post by Deleted on May 24, 2017 17:02:34 GMT -7
Hi, everyone. I started this forum because I struggle with SSA. It's the most perplexing thing I've ever faced in my life. (since I was 13) About a year ago I thought maybe it was disappearing as I tried to live right and read helpful books, etc. But now it's returning worse than ever. I'm sliding down into deep depression and I don't trust anyone or myself and the whole world seems like trash. I'm trying to build a relationship with my dad, which is something I've never really had and it isn't working. I have extreme anxiety all the time and am sliding into masturbation, which is something I'd had no problem with for a year. As I said in my introduction post (new n blue) my church and ministry just come up with easy fixes and think it shouldn't be a big problem. I want to die more than anything else.
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Post by ladystrong on May 24, 2017 21:14:38 GMT -7
Dear friend, Please don't give up hope. The Lord loves you and hears the cries of your heart. As you can see from other posters, you are not alone in this struggle. The thing is, the enemy wants you to believe that you are alone, which then turns into isolation. Don't let him get a foothold into your life. Right now you are at your weakest point and that is where God can show up and be your strength. I know He showed up for me numerous times when I cried out to Him. I put together a list of ways that He confirmed His presence in my life and I try to go back to that list when I feel down. I will pray that He would reveal Himself to you in some way to confirm that He hears what you are saying. I would also encourage you to check out some YouTube videos by a counselor named Patrick Doyle. Although he has not gone through SSA, he had a really rough life and because of his experiences, he is able to counsel others since he can identify with their pain. On top of that, he almost always brings in the gospel to give people hope and to know that their lives can be redeemed and restored through the Holy Spirit's conviction and comfort. I have always found his videos encouraging and straightforward. I will also pray that God would place someone in your life who you feel comfortable enough to talk with, who would speak truth to you when you are going down the wrong path, and who would encourage you to keep moving forward. You are loved by the One who made you, don't ever forget that!
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Post by Deleted on May 25, 2017 7:08:02 GMT -7
Hi treepainter, there are so many that deal with SSA. You are not alone. I have read and seen many testimonies of how God has helped those dealing with this. How He will help you I do not know but don't give up. There are some good resources in this forums. I urge you to check them out and please continue to post here.
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Post by Will on May 26, 2017 20:54:42 GMT -7
Hi Treepainter. Jesus is the answer! : ) Please keep Him in your thoughts and He CAN deliver you from this, although it might take a while. I struggle with porn addiction and have the same issues with my Church, they don't really want to deal with the substance of the problem. Here's a great talk from David Kyle Foster: www.youtube.com/watch?v=zqLuJq5tdmIOne of the things he says is that homosexuality and heterosexual sex addiction aren't all that different and have very similar causes. This makes a lot of sense to me because although I don't have SSA, I have begun noticing that Ministries and testimonies from people who do or have had them, often touch my heart and affect me and bless me more than Ministries just for sex addiction. (For example these documentaries: blazinggrace.forums.net/thread/3016/great-documentaries-on-ssa)Wondering why this was I realised the same thing you mentioned that 'My Church and my Ministry just come up with easy fixes and think it shouldn't be a big problem'. Their attitude to sexual sin addiction of any kind is often the same. Made me realise that for people who DON'T have this problem, it seems somewhat incomprehensible. For them it was just never an issue so it is fine. So they just have no idea the massive extent of the problem, nor the deep-seated causes of it, nor any clue about how someone who is 'sexually broken' could go about getting healed. It is a really huge problem, BUT there is hope in Jesus and He was sent to Earth to set YOU free. And He CAN do that and wants to do that. According to most testimonies I have heard, your relationship with your Dad is likely to be a key contributing factor. For me one of the best helps is simply realising that this is a real problem, and it needs to be dealt with correctly and that until the underlying causes are dealt with it won't just go away. So the quick fix 'just stop doing it' stuff is completely useless. The underlying cause varies but what I have seen in common with most people who have the problem of sexual sin including myself is that there is a gap of love in our life. In your case possibly from your Dad. And we are trying to fill that gap by grasping at intimacy, but in ways that won't fill it. But that gap of love can be filled by the love of God Your Heavenly Father, who loves you more than anyone else can ever love you, and eternally. God loves you, and always will.
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