Post by teetop on Oct 16, 2016 22:37:52 GMT -7
I'm opinionated and very much in love with self!
I'm also a husband who has a wheelbarrow full of sin's.
The first sin I can recognize was lying.
Then I noticed that funny thing I tend to do, which is to hide from those around me, who I really am.
After-all, I love doing things for others, with hidden motives.
Then along came sex at the age of six.
My focus had a goal now.
(Even though through most of my life, I didn't put two and two together.)
Even when I became a crew leader to teenagers I made a concerted effort to keep my true feelings under control so I would not bring harm to them by my lust's.
Up until I got sober (from alcohol) this last time around did I start to realize just how much my lust and desires dictated my actions. The more I reflected on my actions, governed by my desire's, the more I realized just I was operating within my own will. (many things played a part in my supposed addictions)
The more I examined my thoughts and actions the more I came to realize that there was only one addiction manifesting itself in many forms: Alcoholism, porn, masturbation, lust, just to name a few. In other words, the only true addiction was 'ME, MYSELF AND I'.
One of the strangest reactions I've noticed when it comes to recovery groups is the extant of denial to the truth of the addiction. Meaning that we tend to claim a disease rather than excepting the fact we are in rebellion with God and society. (Going to AA the first time around, it was easy to stay sober with the support from the group. Though towards the end of ten years of sobriety I found myself at odds with the teachings of AA over God's word. The same went through the next three times into recovery from my drunkenness. Till I noticed something I'd never noticed before in the B.B. on page 64. Quote: "Resentment is the "number one" offender. It destroys more alcoholics than anything else. From it stem all forms of spiritual disease, for we have been not only mentally and physically ill, we have been spiritually sick. When the spiritual malady is overcome, we straighten out mentally and physically." Bill W. labeled the type of disease AA is talking about. And it had nothing to do with the concept of a physical disease as so many like to claim. Once I saw that, things began to fall into place and God's word and sin fell into place.)
Once I could reconcile with my drunkenness with sin the quicker I realized my fleshly desires at work and scripture started to fall into place as never before.
Now what does this have to do with porn or masturbation? Every thing including, marriage and divorce.
As I reflect on the rebellion of the flesh against God and His word, I am struck with the willingness to try and out think God and keep myself on the throne of self. The war has just begone with my heart and flesh.
Rom 3:10 as it is written, "THERE IS NONE RIGHTEOUS, NOT EVEN ONE;
Rom 3:11 THERE IS NONE WHO UNDERSTANDS, THERE IS NONE WHO SEEKS FOR GOD;
Rom 3:12 ALL HAVE TURNED ASIDE, TOGETHER THEY HAVE BECOME USELESS; THERE IS NONE WHO DOES GOOD, THERE IS NOT EVEN ONE."
Rom 3:13 "THEIR THROAT IS AN OPEN GRAVE, WITH THEIR TONGUES THEY KEEP DECEIVING," "THE POISON OF ASPS IS UNDER THEIR LIPS";
Rom 3:14 "WHOSE MOUTH IS FULL OF CURSING AND BITTERNESS";
Rom 3:15 "THEIR FEET ARE SWIFT TO SHED BLOOD,
Rom 3:16 DESTRUCTION AND MISERY ARE IN THEIR PATHS,
Rom 3:17 AND THE PATH OF PEACE THEY HAVE NOT KNOWN."
Rom 3:18 "THERE IS NO FEAR OF GOD BEFORE THEIR EYES." NASV
I'm also a husband who has a wheelbarrow full of sin's.
The first sin I can recognize was lying.
Then I noticed that funny thing I tend to do, which is to hide from those around me, who I really am.
After-all, I love doing things for others, with hidden motives.
Then along came sex at the age of six.
My focus had a goal now.
(Even though through most of my life, I didn't put two and two together.)
Even when I became a crew leader to teenagers I made a concerted effort to keep my true feelings under control so I would not bring harm to them by my lust's.
Up until I got sober (from alcohol) this last time around did I start to realize just how much my lust and desires dictated my actions. The more I reflected on my actions, governed by my desire's, the more I realized just I was operating within my own will. (many things played a part in my supposed addictions)
The more I examined my thoughts and actions the more I came to realize that there was only one addiction manifesting itself in many forms: Alcoholism, porn, masturbation, lust, just to name a few. In other words, the only true addiction was 'ME, MYSELF AND I'.
One of the strangest reactions I've noticed when it comes to recovery groups is the extant of denial to the truth of the addiction. Meaning that we tend to claim a disease rather than excepting the fact we are in rebellion with God and society. (Going to AA the first time around, it was easy to stay sober with the support from the group. Though towards the end of ten years of sobriety I found myself at odds with the teachings of AA over God's word. The same went through the next three times into recovery from my drunkenness. Till I noticed something I'd never noticed before in the B.B. on page 64. Quote: "Resentment is the "number one" offender. It destroys more alcoholics than anything else. From it stem all forms of spiritual disease, for we have been not only mentally and physically ill, we have been spiritually sick. When the spiritual malady is overcome, we straighten out mentally and physically." Bill W. labeled the type of disease AA is talking about. And it had nothing to do with the concept of a physical disease as so many like to claim. Once I saw that, things began to fall into place and God's word and sin fell into place.)
Once I could reconcile with my drunkenness with sin the quicker I realized my fleshly desires at work and scripture started to fall into place as never before.
Now what does this have to do with porn or masturbation? Every thing including, marriage and divorce.
As I reflect on the rebellion of the flesh against God and His word, I am struck with the willingness to try and out think God and keep myself on the throne of self. The war has just begone with my heart and flesh.
Rom 3:10 as it is written, "THERE IS NONE RIGHTEOUS, NOT EVEN ONE;
Rom 3:11 THERE IS NONE WHO UNDERSTANDS, THERE IS NONE WHO SEEKS FOR GOD;
Rom 3:12 ALL HAVE TURNED ASIDE, TOGETHER THEY HAVE BECOME USELESS; THERE IS NONE WHO DOES GOOD, THERE IS NOT EVEN ONE."
Rom 3:13 "THEIR THROAT IS AN OPEN GRAVE, WITH THEIR TONGUES THEY KEEP DECEIVING," "THE POISON OF ASPS IS UNDER THEIR LIPS";
Rom 3:14 "WHOSE MOUTH IS FULL OF CURSING AND BITTERNESS";
Rom 3:15 "THEIR FEET ARE SWIFT TO SHED BLOOD,
Rom 3:16 DESTRUCTION AND MISERY ARE IN THEIR PATHS,
Rom 3:17 AND THE PATH OF PEACE THEY HAVE NOT KNOWN."
Rom 3:18 "THERE IS NO FEAR OF GOD BEFORE THEIR EYES." NASV