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Post by Deleted on Jul 19, 2016 5:34:32 GMT -7
I used to struggle with sex addiction in my younger days. Sex meant love right? So that is what I thought. I also used sex as a way to control others and get what I wanted. I always left feeling sexy and good initially until that feeling wore off and guilt, shame, and worthlessness came rushing back. I had a horrible first marriage and my ex would force me to have sex with him and others. I desensitized my self during sex as a way to cope. I divorced him and remarried, started a family and felt normal for once in my life. I found my prince charming.Married for 6 years when the demons started to show themselves again. It all started when my husband revealed his own porn and sex addiction and I was devastated. I felt like my life was a lie. To deal with the pain I thought if I could be in control and be part of his sexual deviance then it would make everything ok but in fact it just woke up the monster that was sleeping within me. Now I find myself addicted to sex with strangers and multiple people at once and I can't stop. Please pray for this to be removed and any advice one may have, thank you.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 20, 2016 4:23:29 GMT -7
I answered your post in another section so I won't repeat myself. Feel free to start a journal here or in the Accountability section. If you do start one in the Accountability section, please be sure to put "Tigger warning" in your post to warn the men. At least until they get to know that you are female.
Welcome to BG. I have been on both sides of this sin/addiction. My story is here feel free to read it. I will be praying for you.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 20, 2016 9:45:32 GMT -7
Sorry, I posted in the women section first but seemed like I was not getting a response. I don't want to be a trigger for anyone I just really needed to confess. Thank you for responding.
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Post by Deleted on Jul 20, 2016 13:35:34 GMT -7
Mk, I am glad you posted. No reason to apologize hon. Sometimes it takes a bit for people to respond. We are a small community but we a close. The women's section doesn't see much in posts. I know that sex addiction is a problem for women almost as prevalent as it is for men. But I think it is more taboo for women to admit to it and to seek help. You are strong and courageous for stepping forward.
I know when I admit to my former sex addiction, most people look shock. The only ones not shocked were my psych doc and my therapist. I refuse to sweep it under the rug because God got me out and I want to sing His praises.
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