Poem on current struggle

Week after Week

Week after week

NO matter what is says

I can't know what goes on in your head

I can only imagine

What's really going on

When I see firsthand

Searching for the wrong

Every place that we go

I follow your gaze

Temptations ablaze

Yoga pants and butts galore

I try not to judge everyone as a whore

Every look I know

The battle's not done

What happens when I'm not present

The more I think the more to resent

Every peek my heart will sink

I'm afraid to even blink

What will I miss

How can you even mean that kiss

It's overwhelming and exhausting to try to control

Moreover it's an annoying chore

How can I stop with my concern

Being hit with a sledgehammer at every turn

I'd really like to run and hide

Can't even trust when I'm right by your side

Feels like I'm forever doomed

Every thought consumed