Post by Deleted on May 25, 2016 18:47:27 GMT -7
Hi,I am a christian married man but due to some wrong moves I made in life I became hooked to chatting with women on line.This happens even on christian chat sites.Sometimes I chat all night & it ends up with porn + masturbation or just masturbation.My sex life with my wife hasn't been very good due to Premature ejaculation & such.Added to it she works night.Although we have a good marriage I have not been truthful to her.I have repented over this many times but find myself slipping into this.I have other health issues too that keeps me at home most of the time.I need prayers & counseling.I am hoping this is a christian site as I really need God into this for complete deliverance.The internet itself has become a sort of addiction to me & I need to spend less time on the internet.I was trying to put up a different password for my wifi on the computer I use the most & hide the password in a tough place like my garage so I don't have easy access to it when I want to go online.But it happens that all other phones,tv etc is all linked to one wifi password.If there is a way to have a separate wifi password to my main computer (mac) do let me know.This chat thing has grown over 10 years & I need to come out of this for the glory of God & for my peace & good health.
(I've posted the above that I typed a couple of days back.I'm so glad to be here to know that there are others like me who at least have a mind to come out of their evil 'pleasures' like me.(We are so programmed to love ourselves that self -denial becomes a struggle.We don't realize that if we truly loved ourselves then denying ourselves from sinful pleasures would be the right approach! Talk about deception! ). Well anyways to start with what takes me into this sin is that my heart tries to justify that chatting is not a sin.After all there are many who chat & don't fall into sin.Added to that I begin to reason that chatting on a christian site can never be a sin but a blessing to uphold each other spiritually.However 99% of the time I end up sinning in chat rooms although I may not have actually intended to.Before I got on this computer I almost decided to check out christian chat rooms once again.(This month has been a time when I fell more frequently in this particular sin ).A while back I almost decided to check into a Christian chat room for a 'harmless' time.I had fallen into this sin more frequently this month so it seems so easy to fall back in,conscience being seared & numb.Anyway by the grace of God I did not check in,Surprisingly! And then I remember this site & checked here instead ! I not only need deliverance from the chat room,but from the computer itself,i feel,as at times it becomes an addiction where I go & do a lot of unwanted shopping for stuff.I think the issue is basically greed for self satisfaction or gratification.Please keep me in prayers.My heart wants to be 100% delivered but my mind & flesh is still not there yet.Stolen waters seem to be sweeter to start with but in the end it is miserable.Thank you all & God bless you.)
(I've posted the above that I typed a couple of days back.I'm so glad to be here to know that there are others like me who at least have a mind to come out of their evil 'pleasures' like me.(We are so programmed to love ourselves that self -denial becomes a struggle.We don't realize that if we truly loved ourselves then denying ourselves from sinful pleasures would be the right approach! Talk about deception! ). Well anyways to start with what takes me into this sin is that my heart tries to justify that chatting is not a sin.After all there are many who chat & don't fall into sin.Added to that I begin to reason that chatting on a christian site can never be a sin but a blessing to uphold each other spiritually.However 99% of the time I end up sinning in chat rooms although I may not have actually intended to.Before I got on this computer I almost decided to check out christian chat rooms once again.(This month has been a time when I fell more frequently in this particular sin ).A while back I almost decided to check into a Christian chat room for a 'harmless' time.I had fallen into this sin more frequently this month so it seems so easy to fall back in,conscience being seared & numb.Anyway by the grace of God I did not check in,Surprisingly! And then I remember this site & checked here instead ! I not only need deliverance from the chat room,but from the computer itself,i feel,as at times it becomes an addiction where I go & do a lot of unwanted shopping for stuff.I think the issue is basically greed for self satisfaction or gratification.Please keep me in prayers.My heart wants to be 100% delivered but my mind & flesh is still not there yet.Stolen waters seem to be sweeter to start with but in the end it is miserable.Thank you all & God bless you.)