Post by Deleted on Apr 24, 2016 14:06:24 GMT -7
Hey guys, I just recently signed up and I really want to give this a shot but most importantly I want to make things right between me and God. For the longest time I've been addicted to porn, and its been fluctuating between getting worse and getting better for too long. I've been through times were the 'normal' stuff got boring and I even started to look into more esoteric porn just out of curiosity ei: gay, lesbian, ex-cetra. Its not like I have any desire to become gay or bi-sexual but at the time it was just whatever 'gets me off' and excited me, I would look at any kind of porn at the time, then almost straight afterwards I would think to myself 'what am I doing? Why am I even aroused by this?'. In my mind I bought the lie that it was just an 'option' to actually fornicating, for some reason sex before marriage was just been the line I wasn't going to cross although there were times where I did come close to it.
I couldn't go any longer than two days without masturbating since I was twelve, and honestly whenever I could go beyond that it as because I was busy or distracted and not leaning on God like I should've been doing. The hardest part about all this is that its not that I don't feel like I can get a wife, I feel like I SHOULDN'T have one until I can get this all sorted out. I'm thinking about how I'm going to be able to keep a relationship, or most of all raise kids if this perversion's only going to get worse from here. They all seem like things I don't deserve and honestly its killing me on the inside. The devil keeps whispering to me that I'm running out of time to do all this, like if I can't find a wife or start a family before the age of thirty I'm just some sorry porn addicted sap.
The whole point of me being here is just to pour out my heart on this issue, the Lord's always conveyed to me that the first step to overcome this sin is to "confess your sins to one another" as it says in the bible. I can't tell any of you how much of a relief its been just to finally get this off my chest and even though this is a serious sin, I know I serve an even more serious God who's already provided the solution. Thank you for keeping this website up and allowing this as a medium for my delivery and the delivery of others, I look forward to further speaking to all of you.
I couldn't go any longer than two days without masturbating since I was twelve, and honestly whenever I could go beyond that it as because I was busy or distracted and not leaning on God like I should've been doing. The hardest part about all this is that its not that I don't feel like I can get a wife, I feel like I SHOULDN'T have one until I can get this all sorted out. I'm thinking about how I'm going to be able to keep a relationship, or most of all raise kids if this perversion's only going to get worse from here. They all seem like things I don't deserve and honestly its killing me on the inside. The devil keeps whispering to me that I'm running out of time to do all this, like if I can't find a wife or start a family before the age of thirty I'm just some sorry porn addicted sap.
The whole point of me being here is just to pour out my heart on this issue, the Lord's always conveyed to me that the first step to overcome this sin is to "confess your sins to one another" as it says in the bible. I can't tell any of you how much of a relief its been just to finally get this off my chest and even though this is a serious sin, I know I serve an even more serious God who's already provided the solution. Thank you for keeping this website up and allowing this as a medium for my delivery and the delivery of others, I look forward to further speaking to all of you.