A long road ahead

Hi ladies its me Irisaflower back with some news.  Kevinskay and I are renewing our vows.  I am so glad it has come to this.  Last year I wouldn't have thought it would happen to me.  We are still dealing with a lot, some things we will probably be dealing with the rest of our lives but we decided to do it together.  Nothing is perfect but I can say there was a time that even an anniversary was hard to celebrate because I looked at him and thought within myself; what do I have to celebrate about? I was upset and disappointed I was not sure if we would ever heal from the pain this addiction brought to our lives. For a time I thought he was a liar and took no pride in his word.  I feel that my husband is changing so much and I can see him becoming a man of his word.  Little by little I am believing in him more and more.  I do not exercise full trust in certain areas but I am more free not having to watch his every move.  I don't feel I have to mother him.  Only if he deviates from the daily plan.  He has this list of things he does to help him remain sober.  I agree it works so when he stops I get nervous.  Right now he has been faithful somewhat to this plan.  Good enough that I am not worried.  I would still appreciate prayers for the vow renewal that God provides since we are in a small budget. Also that Kevin doesn't deviate from his plan.  Since it brings him closer to God.  Please pray for me too, I am still healing from the surgeries.  Thanks.