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Post by Deleted on Nov 5, 2015 20:02:26 GMT -7
I did it. I set my boundaries with my husband tonight. I had been concerned all day about taking this step, but when the time came, God gave me the strength I needed it to say at all with grace, calmness and love. I told him the only way we could save this marriage was to attend a three day intensive, and he would have to seek 12 step and resume counseling immediately. His money, internet accounts and email will have to be accessible to me. No secrecy of any kind will be tolerated, and he can only return home when I feel safe and comfortable with him coming back.
He listened without a word, as I explained that my research into SA told me that this is the best recourse we have to overcome what he is battling. I told him that even now, I will fight with him to save our family, our marriage and his life. I told him that even though he may still be in denial, that he is a sex addict, and that unless he is willing to do the work necessary, he will never be free of this addiction unless he seeks real help.
Then I told him what will happen if he chooses not to seek help. I told him that he will lose not only his family, but that I will do everything in my power to see that he never has any influence over our daughter again. I told him that whether he believes it or not, that the very influence that holds him in a place of darkness and sin will carry over to our daughter. That it is a curse of sin that must be broken, and that it is his choice to make.
I told him that I would divorce him, subpoena every text, email, partner and social media account that he had used to betray me and our marriage vows and use them in a court of law to bring to light everything he has done. I told him that his employer would be contacted regarding his work phone and laptop which were used for these purposes, and that his job could be in jeopardy. I told him I would seek compensatory damages for the trauma he had placed on me and our child, and his wages would be garnished until the amount was paid in full.
He listened without a word, and I could see the wall of apathy, that has become so familiar to me, construct right before me. I told him this was not a threat, but a means of self defense that he had forced me to put in place. I told him that even now, if he were serious about saving everything that we had tried to build together, that it was within his power to save it.
I asked him if he had anything to say, and he said anything he has to say would cause a fight. I said, "A fight? There is nothing to fight about here, I am reaching out to you as a wife who loves you, and a mother who wants to see her family restored." I stepped close to him, and put my hands on each side of his face. I told him that once I was broken, lost, and black on the inside just like him. I told him how God spared my very life, and that I know the struggle that sin puts in our heart. I asked him if any other woman in his past life would still be here at this point, and he said no. I told him I am NOT like any other woman, and that God has placed me in his life for a reason. I told him the choice is up to you. I told him he has until January 1, 2016 to decide.
He turned to go and said I will talk to you later. I immediately went to my room, shut the door and hit my knees in prayer to God for him. I asked God to restore my marriage, and save my family from the horrible legacy of divorce. It is in Gods hands now, and I am at peace.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 5, 2015 21:33:45 GMT -7
How difficult that conversation must have been Broken, but sounds like you did it very well. Praying that God will continue to strengthen you and enable you to hold to the boundaries you have set. That's the really hard part. Also praying that your husband will be miserable in his sinful choices and become a broken man. God can get ahold of a person and turn a broken, shattered life into something beautiful that brings glory to Him. Stay strong! Ephesians 6:10.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 5, 2015 23:27:36 GMT -7
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Post by Deleted on Nov 6, 2015 6:47:39 GMT -7
Good job and I love the way you handled it with grace and calmness.
If now, just make sure you stick to that date and I'm sure you will.
When my mom divorced my passive alcoholic dad when I was 10 (he was starting to get violent) I believe she broke the hold of addiction in my home. Neither my sis nor I even touch the stuff. It also brought a calm and stability into our home. He's been sober for 30 years, but he's not a Christian. He was out in the streets b/c even his parents kicked him out. He was forced to get help.
I will pray for ya'll that God will get a hold of your hubby once and for all.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 7, 2015 7:10:56 GMT -7
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Post by Deleted on Nov 9, 2015 5:18:07 GMT -7
Just wanted to encourage you Broken1969. When you are feeling down and confused, I encourage you to read Isaiah 40. God is in control of your situation, He knows what you are going through, and He is there for you. Praying for you and your husband.
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Post by Deleted on Nov 26, 2015 13:28:15 GMT -7
How are you doing 1969?
I want to wish you a Happy Thanksgiving.
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Post by Deleted on Dec 2, 2015 14:03:36 GMT -7
How are you Broken1969? Continuing to lift you and your situation up to God in prayer.
He will cover you with his feathers, and under his wings you will find refuge; his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart. (Psalm 91:4 NIV)
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Post by Deleted on Jan 7, 2016 20:57:50 GMT -7
I did it. I set my boundaries with my husband tonight. I had been concerned all day about taking this step, but when the time came, God gave me the strength I needed it to say at all with grace, calmness and love. I told him the only way we could save this marriage was to attend a three day intensive, and he would have to seek 12 step and resume counseling immediately. His money, internet accounts and email will have to be accessible to me. No secrecy of any kind will be tolerated, and he can only return home when I feel safe and comfortable with him coming back. He listened without a word, as I explained that my research into SA told me that this is the best recourse we have to overcome what he is battling. I told him that even now, I will fight with him to save our family, our marriage and his life. I told him that even though he may still be in denial, that he is a sex addict, and that unless he is willing to do the work necessary, he will never be free of this addiction unless he seeks real help. Then I told him what will happen if he chooses not to seek help. I told him that he will lose not only his family, but that I will do everything in my power to see that he never has any influence over our daughter again. I told him that whether he believes it or not, that the very influence that holds him in a place of darkness and sin will carry over to our daughter. That it is a curse of sin that must be broken, and that it is his choice to make. I told him that I would divorce him, subpoena every text, email, partner and social media account that he had used to betray me and our marriage vows and use them in a court of law to bring to light everything he has done. I told him that his employer would be contacted regarding his work phone and laptop which were used for these purposes, and that his job could be in jeopardy. I told him I would seek compensatory damages for the trauma he had placed on me and our child, and his wages would be garnished until the amount was paid in full. He listened without a word, and I could see the wall of apathy, that has become so familiar to me, construct right before me. I told him this was not a threat, but a means of self defense that he had forced me to put in place. I told him that even now, if he were serious about saving everything that we had tried to build together, that it was within his power to save it. I asked him if he had anything to say, and he said anything he has to say would cause a fight. I said, "A fight? There is nothing to fight about here, I am reaching out to you as a wife who loves you, and a mother who wants to see her family restored." I stepped close to him, and put my hands on each side of his face. I told him that once I was broken, lost, and black on the inside just like him. I told him how God spared my very life, and that I know the struggle that sin puts in our heart. I asked him if any other woman in his past life would still be here at this point, and he said no. I told him I am NOT like any other woman, and that God has placed me in his life for a reason. I told him the choice is up to you. I told him he has until January 1, 2016 to decide. He turned to go and said I will talk to you later. I immediately went to my room, shut the door and hit my knees in prayer to God for him. I asked God to restore my marriage, and save my family from the horrible legacy of divorce. It is in Gods hands now, and I am at peace. I hope that this new year will be a fresh start for both of you. Please let us know how things are so we can be praying for you
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Post by Deleted on Feb 27, 2016 5:37:39 GMT -7
How are things going with the boundaries?
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Post by Deleted on Feb 29, 2016 16:25:26 GMT -7
Thanks for checking on me Jonathan. My husband is still away from our home. He continues to be aloof, unengaged, and unconcerned for the state of our marriage. I am being faithful to God, faithful to him and continue to pray morning and night for the restoration of our marriage. I have been a Christian for nearly 40 years, but never imagined the trial that I am now walking through. I am responsible for part of this heartache, because I married a man that I knew was not a Christian. Regardless, I have prayed and asked God to restore a marriage and to grow me as a Christian so I can be the faithful wife that my husband needs. My husband was saved and joined our church, but Satan attacked him and he fell because he didn't know how to fight off the attacks. Now I am growing weak, and want to give up. Please pray for me that I will not lose faith, and that I will let God do his work in my husband's life.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 29, 2016 18:27:05 GMT -7
Thanks for checking on me Jonathan. My husband is still away from our home. He continues to be I love, unengaged, and unconcerned for the state of our marriage. Faithful to God, faithful to him and continue to pray morning and night for the restoration of our marriage. I have been a Christian for nearly 40 years, but never imagined the trial that I am now walking through. I am responsible for part of this heartache, because I married a man that I knew was not a Christian. Regardless, I have prayed and asked God to restore a marriage and to grow me as a Christian so I can be the faithful wife that my husband needs. My husband was saved and joined our church, but Satan attacked him and he fell because he didn't know how to fight off the attacks. Now I am growing weak, and want to give up. Please pray for me that I will not lose faith, and that I will let God do his work in my husband's life. Father in heaven, My heart grieves tonight as I read over some of the postings. Lord I Do not always understand. I do not know what to say. My words seem inadequate and sound like nonsense. I come to You tonight because I have no one else to turn to. Lord please bring comfort to Broken1969. Faithfully she has been praying night and day Lord. And she is about to give up. Remember her Father and grant her justice as you did the widow who asked the unjust judge for justice. Lord don't let Satan win. Don't let him take down one of your mighty warriors. Broken1969 is just that Lord: Broken in heart and spirit over this addiction. Lord despite my best efforts I can not heal her pain nor take away the sin her husband engages in. Only you can and we join forces tonight in prayer to bring about a favorable response from you oh Lord. We know you will hear our prayers and respond because you love us. Help us to be patient and always trust. Never ever giving up hope. I pray this in the name of our Lord Jesus. Amen.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 29, 2016 18:31:53 GMT -7
I will always be praying for your situation, but because of personal reasons I have decided from now on to stay out of the wife's section and focus mainly on the male addicts of the group. Please understand that I love each and every one of you and gently place you in the hands of Amymine712 and Hope22.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 1, 2016 4:36:56 GMT -7
Bless you Jonathan, prayer is our only hope in this life. I covet your prayers, and ask that you would continue in Jesus name. Thank you for going to the throne on my behalf.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 1, 2016 8:57:52 GMT -7
Praying for you just now, I am so sorry for all that you are going through. You made some hard but wise decisions with your husband and the results are not easy to bear. God's word reminds us that even a little faith in our lives makes room for God to do what is impossible for us to do on our own. I'm praying for God to give you comfort and that when you feel weak He would cover you with His strength. You are not alone.
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