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Post by Deleted on Aug 6, 2014 22:41:11 GMT -7
hi my name is mike
i confess i am a sex addiict out right. i am looking for someone i can be accountable to.can anyone help
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Post by mike on Aug 14, 2014 3:31:07 GMT -7
Hi Mike -
Welcome to the forums... and thanks for being honest.
Please feel free to share how you're doing on a regular basis here.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 14, 2014 4:08:55 GMT -7
Hi mike
I have been suffering a lot of temptation recently. Every time I see a women I get an urge to do something.I have been free of masturbation for three years now. I suffer a lot of thoughts and the more I try and turn and connect to god the harder they get.I then condemn myself
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Post by Deleted on Aug 14, 2014 15:31:02 GMT -7
I feel like I am conemning myself all the time and being to hard on myself.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 15, 2014 1:58:22 GMT -7
I realise today that I am an emotional mess because of my father wounds.I feel hurt, angry,betrayed, used,worthless,hatred,frustration and all especially because of the one man who was supposed to be the greatest mentor to me as a kid ending up being, absent, fearfful,untrustworthy,father. He was supposed to be the ultimate mentor to guide me as a kid on the right paths. He ended emotionally abusing me so bad by calling names like I am stupid,useless,worthless and I will never be anything without him including retard. He did this to me my whole life. So when I turned to porn and prostitution it was my escape route to hide the hurt. I am now 33 years old and for thirty years my father ruled me.he also ruined my marriage to my wife when I cheated on my wife twice in 2008 because he told it was ok to do it because its ok.why because he had been doing it himself. Today I feel incredibly angry towards him.can anyone help me with this.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 15, 2014 14:47:24 GMT -7
These are such deep hurts. I am so sorry to hear about this. I pray that with God's help you can find healing from them. I think professional counseling, especially from a Christian, could also be of help.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 15, 2014 15:59:35 GMT -7
Thanks paul.
I never realised that father wounds can cause so much damage to a person.now that I look at my life I can see it.
Regards
Mike
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Post by Deleted on Aug 17, 2014 15:13:09 GMT -7
Today I feel a lot more free. But the father wound is still there.its taking a long time to heal.I also never realized the damage that porn/masturbation has done not just to my wife but to me aswell.gosh will I never hurt my wife like that again.
I know now that jesus is the only one who can restore my marriage but he has restored my marriage.
I admit when ever I leave the house I feel the pull of temptation where ever I go and its hard.
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Post by mike on Aug 18, 2014 5:57:06 GMT -7
> I feel like I am conemning myself all the time and being to hard on myself.
I've been there. For me it was part shame, but the belief that I was of no value, and part because I hadn't come to the point of accepting all the forgiveness and grace God offers in my heart. I knew it intellectually but hadn't received it in the heart.
1 John 1:9 says that if we can confess our sins He's faithful to forgive us our sins and cleanse us. All it takes is simple confession and we're forgiven; pulling out the hammer of condemnation gets us nowhere and keeps us trapped in a cycle of despair.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 18, 2014 6:22:04 GMT -7
I often feel like I am worth nothing or I'm just hanging around in self condemnation and it feels like a pressure cooker but lately I have come to accept that I owe no body anything but jesus everything and that is starting to help.
But everytime I see a woman I freese like stone and get angry with myself. I am finding that confessing my sins to god is working
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Post by Deleted on Aug 18, 2014 6:23:48 GMT -7
I admit I slipped up twice today
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Post by Deleted on Aug 23, 2014 0:10:19 GMT -7
I've been there a million times, and even now, I will not pretend that I am free from falling.
In my own case, I've found there's a high road and a low road. On the low road, I can do well for short periods of time, then I'm right back in the mud again.
On the high road, which is NOT perfection by any means, it's kind of like being "on a roll" with Jesus. Like today, for instance. I obviously have free time to go the wrong way if I choose to, but I also have a long list of things I need to get done. These things are important, and even if I don't do them all, I'll get a good feeling of satisfaction when they're done. Some will be a blessing to my wife.
I fear falling, knowing what it does to me. But I'm not going to live in fear; I am a child of the living God! I have my list of Scriptures to which I MUST go if tempted. I have God Himself on my side.
Pray for me, that I will do what I wrote above. I pray for you as well!
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