Post by Deleted on Jul 5, 2011 3:39:04 GMT -7
Dear All,
I found this posting on another forum, and I share it here with you because I find this to be incredibly insightful. I've tried to explain this very concept to our TRAINED THERAPIST. She doesn't even understand this. This was posted in response to a wife lamenting the fact that she felt like a horrid wife.....This was written by "An Honest Wife," bold is mine:
"Yeaaa!!!!! Yeaaaa for him!!!!!! He said you were a horrid wife!!! I love that guy!!! Who in the hyeal wants to be a perfect mate for a daggone pervert?!?
You can wear your unsuitability as his mate as a badge of honor! You did not know how to successfully mate with a SA. Isn’t that a good thing? Wouldn’t you be upset if someone walked up to you and said, “Honey, you are the PERFECT type of woman to be married to a pervert� How sick would you have to be to be married to a SA and be in marital bliss?
Like you, I wasted time asking myself and counselors and him “how could he do this to me†Let me help you with the answer. How could he do it, E-A-S-I-L-Y!!! It really wasn’t that hard. You see, we delude ourselves. We formerly believed that these guys were capable of feeling love, respect, concern. We formerly believed that they were not only interested in, but also committed to something or someone other than themselves. In all honesty, they were incapable of feeling. I’m not blaming them, but the fact is they simply did not/do not feel. Remember the capacity for empathy, sympathy, love was beaten out of them. Remember they had to give up the humanness of feeling to survive in their family. It simply is not there, not anymore.
You can continue beating yourself up, or you can admit the hard truth. Whatever they once had, they had to surrender as a cost of survival. What you want to believe would have hurt them tremendously, had little impact on them because they are like the kids who are born without physical sensation. They have no sense of feeling. If he were blind and hit you with a car, you wouldn’t ask yourself, “how could he hit me with the car?†This is the same thing. He has lost the emotional capacity to feel, so yes he can hurt you. And, it won’t bother him one bit, until he chooses to do the work to regain his emotional capacity to feel. And, he does not HAVE to do that work. It is scary work. It is hard work and the easier thing to do is just not do it.
I don’t know what it feels like to feel nothing. Maybe its the better choice, if you believe the only alternative is walking around feeling hurt and inadequate all of the time. If I had to feel bad about myself 24 hours a day or feel nothing at all, I might choose to feel nothing at all. I don’t know. Your dude seems to be saying, he can’t do 24 hours of feeling."
I found this posting on another forum, and I share it here with you because I find this to be incredibly insightful. I've tried to explain this very concept to our TRAINED THERAPIST. She doesn't even understand this. This was posted in response to a wife lamenting the fact that she felt like a horrid wife.....This was written by "An Honest Wife," bold is mine:
"Yeaaa!!!!! Yeaaaa for him!!!!!! He said you were a horrid wife!!! I love that guy!!! Who in the hyeal wants to be a perfect mate for a daggone pervert?!?
You can wear your unsuitability as his mate as a badge of honor! You did not know how to successfully mate with a SA. Isn’t that a good thing? Wouldn’t you be upset if someone walked up to you and said, “Honey, you are the PERFECT type of woman to be married to a pervert� How sick would you have to be to be married to a SA and be in marital bliss?
Like you, I wasted time asking myself and counselors and him “how could he do this to me†Let me help you with the answer. How could he do it, E-A-S-I-L-Y!!! It really wasn’t that hard. You see, we delude ourselves. We formerly believed that these guys were capable of feeling love, respect, concern. We formerly believed that they were not only interested in, but also committed to something or someone other than themselves. In all honesty, they were incapable of feeling. I’m not blaming them, but the fact is they simply did not/do not feel. Remember the capacity for empathy, sympathy, love was beaten out of them. Remember they had to give up the humanness of feeling to survive in their family. It simply is not there, not anymore.
You can continue beating yourself up, or you can admit the hard truth. Whatever they once had, they had to surrender as a cost of survival. What you want to believe would have hurt them tremendously, had little impact on them because they are like the kids who are born without physical sensation. They have no sense of feeling. If he were blind and hit you with a car, you wouldn’t ask yourself, “how could he hit me with the car?†This is the same thing. He has lost the emotional capacity to feel, so yes he can hurt you. And, it won’t bother him one bit, until he chooses to do the work to regain his emotional capacity to feel. And, he does not HAVE to do that work. It is scary work. It is hard work and the easier thing to do is just not do it.
I don’t know what it feels like to feel nothing. Maybe its the better choice, if you believe the only alternative is walking around feeling hurt and inadequate all of the time. If I had to feel bad about myself 24 hours a day or feel nothing at all, I might choose to feel nothing at all. I don’t know. Your dude seems to be saying, he can’t do 24 hours of feeling."