Post by Deleted on Jan 10, 2011 1:51:42 GMT -7
Hi all...I have failed recently but I know I must move on asap and I'm glad I can use this resource to get back on track and focus quicker. I just wanted to ask anyone or specifically people with experience about the build up to the failure and the immediate reaction etc....
For me in the last few days I think the thing that seemed to start all the thoughts and ideas was a film we all watched.....whilst very good and being realistic this was taken a bit too far with some graphic scenes (not love but abuse/aggressive/unwanted sex) (btw this is the key right? the expression of abuse/aggressive sex rather than a marital love scene although I don't like those either)
Anyway I knew I was struggling to put back the ideas in my mind until the next night I just started again and here is where I want to ask;
1. DO you all have the same feeling as your gonna sin and as your doing it! as a Christian,that you know your so wrong and you know the judgement this will cause etc but it's sort a must do anyway?
2. THE feeling can be so strong that you almost want nothing else and plan the next few days on building a collection and enjoying yourself and imagine that you will be really happy?
3. THE feeling afterwards,once I've got past a point the feeling KICKS in the HATE and AGGRESSION of what you have done and how you want to make it right. You feel really focused,for me I can BLOWUP and pump up the music (technobase.fm musiikclub rautemusik.fm etc) just strong beats really. And start doing weights press ups etc to it.
I suppose as well as sharing and wanting to here if others have similar experience or anything to add,I also want to see if anyone has any experience or comment on the immediate after behaviour and whether that can help or hinder,although I do find it focuses me,I know we can't have too much hate.
Also on the pre-failure I am already careful on what we watch but perhaps maybe it needs to go further?
For me in the last few days I think the thing that seemed to start all the thoughts and ideas was a film we all watched.....whilst very good and being realistic this was taken a bit too far with some graphic scenes (not love but abuse/aggressive/unwanted sex) (btw this is the key right? the expression of abuse/aggressive sex rather than a marital love scene although I don't like those either)
Anyway I knew I was struggling to put back the ideas in my mind until the next night I just started again and here is where I want to ask;
1. DO you all have the same feeling as your gonna sin and as your doing it! as a Christian,that you know your so wrong and you know the judgement this will cause etc but it's sort a must do anyway?
2. THE feeling can be so strong that you almost want nothing else and plan the next few days on building a collection and enjoying yourself and imagine that you will be really happy?
3. THE feeling afterwards,once I've got past a point the feeling KICKS in the HATE and AGGRESSION of what you have done and how you want to make it right. You feel really focused,for me I can BLOWUP and pump up the music (technobase.fm musiikclub rautemusik.fm etc) just strong beats really. And start doing weights press ups etc to it.
I suppose as well as sharing and wanting to here if others have similar experience or anything to add,I also want to see if anyone has any experience or comment on the immediate after behaviour and whether that can help or hinder,although I do find it focuses me,I know we can't have too much hate.
Also on the pre-failure I am already careful on what we watch but perhaps maybe it needs to go further?