Post by Deleted on Dec 10, 2010 9:22:26 GMT -7
So, it's been almost 6 months since I started my purity journey. I have broken my addiction to porn and masturbation. I have stumbled just once about a month ago but using porn and masturbation as a coping technique is pretty much over in my life. I'm doing really well at the purity thing. I'm still in the process of renewing my mind with the fantasy aspect, but I feel that changing too over time.
BUT, as we all know, as we stop acting out - we start getting in touch with all the pain and crap that we avoided. This whole process has made me see that I am a really needy person. And now that I'm not covering up my 'need' with the false intimacy of porn and masturbation, it is really glaring! It's like I am coming out of denial about the huge neediness and brokenness in my life. I also have come to see my inability to cope with life's stresses and frustrations.
At the same time, I am really good at functioning on a practical, work, career and even ministry level. But I have this big gaping needy hole that I'm no longer filling with false comforts. I have had to pull back from friendship with a girl because I was drawing from her to fill my emotional need.
I know that it's going to be hard (I am definitely not in denial about that!) but I would like some help and encouragement!
What suggestions do you have to help me to meet my needs in a healthy way?
Also, what suggestions do you have to help me with the battle of the mind?
And I think I just need some encouragement too
Bless you all!
Beloved Son.
BUT, as we all know, as we stop acting out - we start getting in touch with all the pain and crap that we avoided. This whole process has made me see that I am a really needy person. And now that I'm not covering up my 'need' with the false intimacy of porn and masturbation, it is really glaring! It's like I am coming out of denial about the huge neediness and brokenness in my life. I also have come to see my inability to cope with life's stresses and frustrations.
At the same time, I am really good at functioning on a practical, work, career and even ministry level. But I have this big gaping needy hole that I'm no longer filling with false comforts. I have had to pull back from friendship with a girl because I was drawing from her to fill my emotional need.
I know that it's going to be hard (I am definitely not in denial about that!) but I would like some help and encouragement!
What suggestions do you have to help me to meet my needs in a healthy way?
Also, what suggestions do you have to help me with the battle of the mind?
And I think I just need some encouragement too
Bless you all!
Beloved Son.