Post by Deleted on Sept 17, 2010 19:37:05 GMT -7
Been wanting to talk to someone, but noone to speak to yet. So I am posting. I know there is the Lord, but somehow bringing it out, even if it is writing seems to help.
I asked my husband to be my accountability partner and he said ok. I began sharing with him when I fell. I Because of the honesty and no guilt, I felt closer to him than I have in I long time. We shared a very intimate evening together the other night. It was beautiful. So I responded afterwards with fantasy and masturbating for two days. I just can't bear telling him. How shameful I feel. I think, he couldn't trust me. He already said the other day, he doesn't always trust me now.So I don't think he should be my accountabilty. Then all the other addictions kicked in, because of guilt: eating, smoking and pills.
Why do we sabatoge?
I began Setting Captives Free last night. I started the Lord's Supper. All of the online course I could use, but obviously you can't, so I just chose one.
I hope someone will reply. Just write whatis going on with you. I began SLAA, which is nice. But them not confessing Christ as Saviour, I find some of the post difficult to read. But I know it works. It just would be nice to hear the experience, strength and hope of fellow Christians. Who believe in Gods glory and call sin sin. Just rambling, but grateful there is a place to do that.
I asked my husband to be my accountability partner and he said ok. I began sharing with him when I fell. I Because of the honesty and no guilt, I felt closer to him than I have in I long time. We shared a very intimate evening together the other night. It was beautiful. So I responded afterwards with fantasy and masturbating for two days. I just can't bear telling him. How shameful I feel. I think, he couldn't trust me. He already said the other day, he doesn't always trust me now.So I don't think he should be my accountabilty. Then all the other addictions kicked in, because of guilt: eating, smoking and pills.
Why do we sabatoge?
I began Setting Captives Free last night. I started the Lord's Supper. All of the online course I could use, but obviously you can't, so I just chose one.
I hope someone will reply. Just write whatis going on with you. I began SLAA, which is nice. But them not confessing Christ as Saviour, I find some of the post difficult to read. But I know it works. It just would be nice to hear the experience, strength and hope of fellow Christians. Who believe in Gods glory and call sin sin. Just rambling, but grateful there is a place to do that.