Post by Deleted on Jul 27, 2010 3:58:16 GMT -7
I have decided, under the Lord's guidance, to start this accountability forum. All prayer, suggestions and support, will be gratefully recieved. I too will be praying for you.
I am addicted to sexual fantasies and masturbation. I am a single woman who spends nights alone. At first I thought masturbation was my problem but have come to realise that it is the sexual fantasies. While I have never been sexually active, thanks to the Lords protection, the fantasies I have are really vivid and involve a huge range of sexual acts. How do I know this, I have been researching ideas on the web to help make them realistic. From the fantasies come the masturbation. It has got to the stage where it is taking over my resting thoughts.
I first started in 2001 while studying at university. I thought I had kicked the addiction but alas no it came back in 2005. Yet again I thought I had kicked the addiction but it's back again. The devil has a real stronghold over me and I am determined with Gods help that it be broken. I am trying to pluck up the courage to tell a friend but fear that it will change the precious friendship.
It is now 6.00am Wednesday morning. I have had little sleep as I have been battling Satan trying to keep my thoughts pure. On a whole it went ok. I only strayed a few times mainly when I was imagining what I would say to a counsellor about my latest sexual fantasies. One thing I did do this morning was email two of my closest friends to ask for their love and prayer support while I wage this war with the Devil. It's one thing admitting sexual addictions to people on the internet and completely different thing admittig it to friends. My next mission is to find a counsellor that will help me through this war. I know God is totally in this and will help me through. I know I am not the Christian or person that God wants me to be or that I want to be. Let the battle begin!
I am addicted to sexual fantasies and masturbation. I am a single woman who spends nights alone. At first I thought masturbation was my problem but have come to realise that it is the sexual fantasies. While I have never been sexually active, thanks to the Lords protection, the fantasies I have are really vivid and involve a huge range of sexual acts. How do I know this, I have been researching ideas on the web to help make them realistic. From the fantasies come the masturbation. It has got to the stage where it is taking over my resting thoughts.
I first started in 2001 while studying at university. I thought I had kicked the addiction but alas no it came back in 2005. Yet again I thought I had kicked the addiction but it's back again. The devil has a real stronghold over me and I am determined with Gods help that it be broken. I am trying to pluck up the courage to tell a friend but fear that it will change the precious friendship.
It is now 6.00am Wednesday morning. I have had little sleep as I have been battling Satan trying to keep my thoughts pure. On a whole it went ok. I only strayed a few times mainly when I was imagining what I would say to a counsellor about my latest sexual fantasies. One thing I did do this morning was email two of my closest friends to ask for their love and prayer support while I wage this war with the Devil. It's one thing admitting sexual addictions to people on the internet and completely different thing admittig it to friends. My next mission is to find a counsellor that will help me through this war. I know God is totally in this and will help me through. I know I am not the Christian or person that God wants me to be or that I want to be. Let the battle begin!