Post by Deleted on Apr 19, 2010 5:10:42 GMT -7
Ok, I need to admit it so here goes. I have had a problem with masturbation. For 2 years now to be exact. I have tried multiple times to quit and just can't seem to maintain it! It has turned into more of a habit than a desire. Ever since I started it I KNEW it had to be bad. But never found anything biblical that said not to. Before I knew it, I was looking at girls in a way I knew was wrong. I was raised in a strong Christian family and thought God would never forgive me for what I was doing. Soon I began to hate church and dread it.
It all started as curiousity, really! Then it grew worse. For 2 years I have Been battling this and can't find relief! It wasn't until 3 days ago I finally found a reason to quit.
When I was 8 years old I had my first crush (and only one till this day) for a girl in a very strong Christian family. I am still in contact with her till this day. In a way I still have feelings about her, but I am worried that this problem would "disqualify" me for any possiblities between us. That is my motivation to stop...
I am also worried that the few times I have looked at porn and porn videos would destroy any chance. I wouldn't say that I'm addicted to it, I actually find most porn rather disgusting. Going to a public school after growing up homeschooling with a Godly family, my curiousity got the best of me. I just never knew! Now I do and wish I had never looked...
Does this put me out of the running for a Godly woman? I am really trying to quit but just need some help...
It all started as curiousity, really! Then it grew worse. For 2 years I have Been battling this and can't find relief! It wasn't until 3 days ago I finally found a reason to quit.
When I was 8 years old I had my first crush (and only one till this day) for a girl in a very strong Christian family. I am still in contact with her till this day. In a way I still have feelings about her, but I am worried that this problem would "disqualify" me for any possiblities between us. That is my motivation to stop...
I am also worried that the few times I have looked at porn and porn videos would destroy any chance. I wouldn't say that I'm addicted to it, I actually find most porn rather disgusting. Going to a public school after growing up homeschooling with a Godly family, my curiousity got the best of me. I just never knew! Now I do and wish I had never looked...
Does this put me out of the running for a Godly woman? I am really trying to quit but just need some help...