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Post by Deleted on Jan 20, 2009 3:36:34 GMT -7
I am a teenAger and I am deeply in love with God. He has shown me so much about life and about his love and grace, especially recently. But when I was a very young child I was taught about sex. And it wasn't in a pure fassion at all. I was four or five, and for the rest of my life I've had problems with masturbation, pornography, fondeling and many sexual sins. I also had a very twisted and corrupt mind. But then a couple of years ago God changed my life, He drew me closer to his heart. I stayed free from masturbation and porn for somewhere around a year, which was a huge accomplishment, seeing as I had been addicted all my life. But then I stumbled in masturbation. And I repented from it and turned away, but soon found myself only falling again, and since then the longest I've been free was about two months I think, and recently the four day mark has been the place where I've given in. I need prayer and encouragement. I love God and know that He's the only one that will truly satisfy and my friends say that I have a lot of knowledge in God, which I guess I do, but I still struggle. I so badly want to break free from all this crap and live my life to the fullest of what God has for me. Masturbation has taken away my joy and peace and love for life and I want it back. I need help!!!
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Post by Deleted on Jan 20, 2009 5:17:36 GMT -7
Lovesick4God, welcome to the BG forum. The earlier you and God thrash this out and get it beaten, the better. You can't do it without Him and you also can't do it without a solid measure of local support and as you are Christian, from what can be understood by your post, you'll find it best to locate that support in your local Christian community. In my community, I have one single accountability male who also struggles with this m subject and we are accountable to each other but especially to God.
God may enable you to be set free from this sooner than later but pray for courage, endurance, patience and honesty before God so that if you do succumb to this, you will have the courage to go to Him and confess it, receive His forgiveness and move on. This is not to encourage you to persist in the behaviour you desire to be free from but to encourage you not to give up because of defeats along the way. You'll get stronger as you go on, allowing God to help you at every step.
Another thing to watch out for are the complacent moments - after so many days, weeks, months of victory over it. It's when we talk too much about our victories that it can suddenly get very tough. That's my experience.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 20, 2009 5:43:10 GMT -7
Hi LoveSick4God, Welcome to BG. I hope that you find encouragement here, as wel as in your local area. Do you have a youth pastor in whom you may feel comfortable confiding? Do you have any family support? Have you had any professional Christian counselling in regard to your early sexual exposure/abuse? Have you read the book Every Young Man's Battle? You don't need to answer these questions here--they are just for you to contemplate. You might also find helpful resources at Setting Captives Free.Praying for you... TruthSeeker |
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Post by Deleted on Jan 20, 2009 14:58:23 GMT -7
Yeah, there's been one individual (a guy) who I've been planning to tell and share things very soon. So that's something you can pray about as well. Grace, strength and courage and boldness. I have such a deep desire to live with this stuff completely out of my life. Things loose their joy and hanging out with my closest friends isn't as fun when sexual addictions are a part of my life. I want my life back and I believe that I'm ready to keep on going completely free. I'm at the three day mark right now, and I haven't gotten past the four day mark in I don't know how long, so pray pray pray please. Well thanks for everything, nd I will continue to pray for all of you.
-LoveSick4God
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