Post by Deleted on Oct 8, 2007 16:03:09 GMT -7
Hi, I just want to share some bible verses that made a deep impression on me.
Have you ever felt being "unclean"? well, this woman felt it for 12 years, now, let me give you a glimpse of what she felt for those 12 years...
Can you imagine the shame this woman had? she is unclean! she can't "just" sit, she can't "touch", and anyone who touches her and things that she have touched, they also are considered unclean!
Imagine the impact of this to her social life! FOR 12 YEARS!
Now, she must have isolated herself, she have no self esteem left in her, because she is unclean, UNCLEAN. No man can touch her, if she has a husband... his husband can't touch her, or even get close to her... She can't go to the market, She can't go the her friends', She is isolated... Gone is the intimacy, gone is the love, she is left all alone, in the dark, with no one.
She have done everything in her power, to be clean, she went to get "fixes", spent all that she have, done everything they told her.... yet, nothing get better, it even get worse.
I've felt that also, when I was enslaved to porn and lust, I felt unclean, I felt depressed, my brain seemed only to react by lust, and I became hollow, with fake emotions, empty... I become isolated, so I can feed my lust, I was addicted! every minute all I think about is porn and porn and porn.
And I tried to fix myself... I use will power... I use self training... I read books about purity... I tried "hard core" so I can get satisfied, I plunged deeper to find satisfaction, I wasted my life, I broke my relationship, but I can't... It even get WORSE.
Until...
She touched the garment of Christ, notice that her shame has prevented her to talk to Him, she "sneakily" touch him... she don't want to be known, she is unclean! remember? she can't touch anyone! but she want to get healed! she is desperate, she is willing to do anything... so she went THROUGH those crowd... what if those people know she is unclean??? she took chances.... she focus on Christ, and she touched him. And FINALLY, she is healed, Christ healed her... ONLY by touching his garment.
I was desperate, I scream for help, I can't do it anymore! I felt helpless, I'm sick and tired of "recovery", and failed everytime," LORD, I CAN'T FIX MYSELF!!! HELP ME! KILL ME IF YOU WISH... " and He did... He killed my pride, my lust, my old self... He taught me to open up, "confess one another", look for help... BRUTALLY HONEST.. He make me open up to my brother, my pastor, my friends, just like that woman, If I want to touch Christ, I have to went THROUGH people, I have to took chances, take risks, so I can touch Him. And so I did... and I was healed.
But that's not only it...
Christ wants to know her.... "Who touched my garments?" Now, think for a while, why would Christ alias Son of God Almighty asks such question? He knows all things, He can number all the stars, why would He ask this question? He looks to find her... He searched her... imagine what that woman felt, SHE TOUCHED HIM WHILE SHE IS UNCLEAN! SHE DESERVED TO BE PUNISHED! THE UNCLEAN TOUCHED TO HOLY ONE!
But, He wants to know her, He seek to see her face, NOT to curse her, but to bless her. When she fell down before Christ, He bless her... He wants to love her, to proclaim that she is clean now, that He loves her, no longer is she unloved, she is now "whole", God is the one who guarantees that.
Christ also wants to have a communion with us, He wants to know us also, He doesn't only "heals", He wants to love us and bless also, He wants to make us WHOLE, be like Him, live in Him, enjoy His presence.
And I am truly happy to say, that He loves me... and He loves you also.
And a woman, who had an issue of blood twelve years, and had suffered many things of many physicians, and had spent all that she had, and was nothing bettered, but rather grew worse, having heard the things concerning Jesus, came in the crowd behind, and touched his garment. For she said, If I touch but his garments, I shall be made whole. And straightway the fountain of her blood was dried up; and she felt in her body that she was healed of her plague. And straightway Jesus, perceiving in himself that the power proceeding from him had gone forth, turned him about in the crowd, and said, Who touched my garments? And his disciples said unto him, Thou seest the multitude thronging thee, and sayest thou, Who touched me? And he looked round about to see her that had done this thing. But the woman fearing and trembling, knowing what had been done to her, came and fell down before him, and told him all the truth. And he said unto her, Daughter, thy faith hath made thee whole; go in peace, and be whole of thy plague. (Mar 5:25-34)
Have you ever felt being "unclean"? well, this woman felt it for 12 years, now, let me give you a glimpse of what she felt for those 12 years...
And if a woman have an issue, and her issue in her flesh be blood, she shall be in her impurity seven days: and whosoever toucheth her shall be unclean until the even. And everything that she lieth upon in her impurity shall be unclean: everything also that she sitteth upon shall be unclean. And whosoever toucheth her bed shall wash his clothes, and bathe himself in water, and be unclean until the even. And whosoever toucheth anything that she sitteth upon shall wash his clothes, and bathe himself in water, and be unclean until the even. And if it be on the bed, or on anything whereon she sitteth, when he toucheth it, he shall be unclean until the even. And if any man lie with her, and her impurity be upon him, he shall be unclean seven days; and every bed whereon he lieth shall be unclean. And if a woman have an issue of her blood many days not in the time of her impurity, or if she have an issue beyond the time of her impurity; all the days of the issue of her uncleanness she shall be as in the days of her impurity: she is unclean. Every bed whereon she lieth all the days of her issue shall be unto her as the bed of her impurity: and everything whereon she sitteth shall be unclean, as the uncleanness of her impurity. And whosoever toucheth those things shall be unclean, and shall wash his clothes, and bathe himself in water, and be unclean until the even. But if she be cleansed of her issue, then she shall number to herself seven days, and after that she shall be clean. (Lev 15:19-28)
Can you imagine the shame this woman had? she is unclean! she can't "just" sit, she can't "touch", and anyone who touches her and things that she have touched, they also are considered unclean!
Imagine the impact of this to her social life! FOR 12 YEARS!
Now, she must have isolated herself, she have no self esteem left in her, because she is unclean, UNCLEAN. No man can touch her, if she has a husband... his husband can't touch her, or even get close to her... She can't go to the market, She can't go the her friends', She is isolated... Gone is the intimacy, gone is the love, she is left all alone, in the dark, with no one.
She have done everything in her power, to be clean, she went to get "fixes", spent all that she have, done everything they told her.... yet, nothing get better, it even get worse.
I've felt that also, when I was enslaved to porn and lust, I felt unclean, I felt depressed, my brain seemed only to react by lust, and I became hollow, with fake emotions, empty... I become isolated, so I can feed my lust, I was addicted! every minute all I think about is porn and porn and porn.
And I tried to fix myself... I use will power... I use self training... I read books about purity... I tried "hard core" so I can get satisfied, I plunged deeper to find satisfaction, I wasted my life, I broke my relationship, but I can't... It even get WORSE.
Until...
She touched the garment of Christ, notice that her shame has prevented her to talk to Him, she "sneakily" touch him... she don't want to be known, she is unclean! remember? she can't touch anyone! but she want to get healed! she is desperate, she is willing to do anything... so she went THROUGH those crowd... what if those people know she is unclean??? she took chances.... she focus on Christ, and she touched him. And FINALLY, she is healed, Christ healed her... ONLY by touching his garment.
I was desperate, I scream for help, I can't do it anymore! I felt helpless, I'm sick and tired of "recovery", and failed everytime," LORD, I CAN'T FIX MYSELF!!! HELP ME! KILL ME IF YOU WISH... " and He did... He killed my pride, my lust, my old self... He taught me to open up, "confess one another", look for help... BRUTALLY HONEST.. He make me open up to my brother, my pastor, my friends, just like that woman, If I want to touch Christ, I have to went THROUGH people, I have to took chances, take risks, so I can touch Him. And so I did... and I was healed.
But that's not only it...
Christ wants to know her.... "Who touched my garments?" Now, think for a while, why would Christ alias Son of God Almighty asks such question? He knows all things, He can number all the stars, why would He ask this question? He looks to find her... He searched her... imagine what that woman felt, SHE TOUCHED HIM WHILE SHE IS UNCLEAN! SHE DESERVED TO BE PUNISHED! THE UNCLEAN TOUCHED TO HOLY ONE!
But, He wants to know her, He seek to see her face, NOT to curse her, but to bless her. When she fell down before Christ, He bless her... He wants to love her, to proclaim that she is clean now, that He loves her, no longer is she unloved, she is now "whole", God is the one who guarantees that.
Christ also wants to have a communion with us, He wants to know us also, He doesn't only "heals", He wants to love us and bless also, He wants to make us WHOLE, be like Him, live in Him, enjoy His presence.
And I am truly happy to say, that He loves me... and He loves you also.