Lee's accountability thread

' The Lord will give strength to His people; the Lord will bless His people with peace.'

Psalms 29:11
my.bible.com/bible/1171/PSA.29.11

So far so good. Went to a SA meeting Sunday. Felt right at home.

I have read the SAWB many time and the audio book. My main issue was that they do not talk about Jesus Christ and mention God but according to step 3 of the SA program, you can make a god of anything, which was my main issues. Thanks for the recommendations.

yes, I agree. When I read securlar stuff, I know Jesus already has the truth, so when I find "truth" found in these kinds of books, I say "Thank you Jesus" The scriptures tells us that there is nothing new under the sun, but the world, who can't always see or mention about Jesus, finds, some truth, tells us and the world says "good advice" but God gives us the good advice and even secular humanists finds good advice, but the glory, for them, they say "I have found it" and when I see their notes and research, I say "God, thank you for showing us, even through these people". I know God can use a secular doctor, but they have a limit, and ultimately, I choose to find my hope and words of hope in the Bible, no disrespect to the brothers who are helped in the SAWB or SA in general.

I have a lot of personal attacks also coming from SA, I wanted to let you know. Some people in SA (even the ones whose HP is the Lord and Savior Jesus Christ), will get upset at you or me, or "preaching Jesus". Example, if I say "Hello, my name is Dominic, and I'm a grateful recovering sexaholic. I have been helped by my HP" < until this point, people will listen, but if I said "Hello, my name is Dominic, I'm a GRSA (grateful recovering sexaholic), and my God Jesus Christ, has shown me that "I am the way, the truth, and the life" and I have found that I am not only supposed to stop porn and mastrubation but according to Matthew 5:27-30, to cut out any lust from my heart, because lust begins in the heart as Jesus said, < when I talk like that.....People are SUPER offended. Why? I am telling of God right? They are offended because they are Buddhhists, Agnostics, Athiets, or christians are are disillusioned at the other "Christians" because why? according to the SAWB, they (SA Christians) have tried God and the church it didn't work, THAT is my point on my I am not for the SAWB or the SA Program. I remember many in those circles telling ms, "You can't preach religion here" and I replied "You said your program was a spiritual program and I am telling about about being spiritual born again" < see? When I talk as this way, they are heated and it's like they are self-righteous Pharisess (and prior converted Saul of Tarsus) trying to kill you like a Stephen (Acts 7 reference) just because you didn't agree or follow their programs. This is why I left them. Some wanted to find a way that was Christ-Centered. After all, Jesus was battling Satan in Matthew 4 and said "Man shall not live by bread alone but by every Word that proceeds out of God's mouth" < so I take that as my bread and butter. another thing that really got me was this....I had little to no interested (at that time) to read my Bible, but was so much loving and drinnking up the SAWB every day, I drove to work and home, listening to Roy speak in the SAWB. I went to SA meetings. My whole life or even "religion" was becoming SA and that is a contradiction to me, because my whole foundation and faith should be in Jesus Christ.

Now, I get what some SA Christians say...some say "I have not found any help in the church" and for the most part, I guess they have a point. Personally, I have asked a Pastor if he was interested in starting a men's group or purity group. I was not met with enthusiam and I asked other brothers the same. Some were ok, some were not. The ones that were OK, shared their persoanl struggles and knew exactly what I was talking about. The others who were not ok, said "I didn't want to be judged and always have the Bible thrown in my face and just getting beat up, because I have already tried that but I would be open to a prayer group". There is a mindset that is this "I don't want to share about me, because if I didn't, I would get beat up" and there is a mindset that say "I don't care how much I get beat up, I want free and I don't care who knows"

The Bible says "Your sins will find you out". My wife already has found out. She doesn't want to know the full extent because she will go insane she says. I am not acting out now (see how I phrased that?), but I struggle with lust daily. Just this morning my brain got a lust hit, and I prayed to God and felt sad, I asked God for forgiveness. I remembered how this sexual fantasy would hurt my wife.

I am not capable with SA because I tried and have a long history with them, also, there are female SA members, and it was too triggering. Some are there for real, and some are there for play. I met one there for play and I fell down years ago. I do not want to play that game anymore.

If that helps you, I was told this, and i want to remind you too, as a brother, please let your HP be only the Lord Jesus Christ, not any HP you make. I was even told this, shocking truth, even from so-called "Christians" there, they told me "You need fire that Son of a B*tch that you call god and get yourself a new one", to me? that was blasphemy. I was not there to fire my Lord and Jesus Christ, but you have hard-core old guys there who speak like this, and they relish it. Not me, I hate it.

That is where I am coming from brother. I'm sorry if anything I said bothered or disturbed you. I am only for Christ-centered recovery, which is why Blazing Grace appeals to me and I'm glad God showed me this ministry.

Got my 2 month medallion today. Good week overall. Not without temptation though.

Amen my brother.

good stuff. I'm with you brother.