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Post by Deleted on May 14, 2015 15:50:11 GMT -7
Today is the 7th day since the reconciliation with God, over P and MB, been on the site everyday and am getting ready to take it to the next level.I get more support here then anywhere else I have been. So to clarify,I have been lust, P and MB free for 1 week. Thanks guys...
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Post by Deleted on May 14, 2015 23:11:12 GMT -7
A very good start Brother.
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Post by KevinesKay on May 15, 2015 0:47:04 GMT -7
Way to go, Paul. I like the thread. Here's a 24-hour chip. I don't have a "weeK" chip on me. Great job, though!
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Post by Deleted on May 16, 2015 5:32:58 GMT -7
One day at a time, that's what I have learned. This seems so odd to discuss something so shameful on an open forum. It makes me queasy when I think about it as I read the threads. They say we are only as sick as our secrets, I believe this to be true. I know that it is working well, I have not had issues since I started paying attention to the site daily. I won't let the devil ruin this by shaming me away from you guys, it's gonna take some time to get used to talking about my "secret" life though.
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Post by wiltingiris on May 16, 2015 13:36:50 GMT -7
:dude: Congrats! One day at a time, Amen!
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Post by KevinesKay on May 16, 2015 14:15:21 GMT -7
One day at a time, that's what I have learned. This seems so odd to discuss something so shameful on an open forum. It makes me queasy when I think about it as I read the threads. They say we are only as sick as our secrets, I believe this to be true. I know that it is working well, I have not had issues since I started paying attention to the site daily. I won't let the devil ruin this by shaming me away from you guys, it's gonna take some time to get used to talking about my "secret" life though. Wow, Paul. You said so much in so few sentences. I've honestly forgot about how much secrecy and shame really plays in our inability to get better. But you said it so well. Secrets make us sick, very sick. And it's really encouraging to see that you're starting to bring this out into the light. It sure helps me a lot to know that there at least a dozen people viewing our posts each day. I do truly believe that people whom we don't know are feeling encouraged and praying for themselves to gather strength and courage (like you've demonstrated) to step out and finally stop doing this on their own. Good post, brother. Keep it up. Your friend and brother in Christ, KK
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Post by Deleted on May 19, 2015 7:48:06 GMT -7
Thanks for the encouraging words, Steve. I appreciate it. Today I am struggling with my thoughts, and they keep drifting to the urge to go back to familiar behavior. I am going to a meeting tonight, so that is something to look forward to. I am going to share with the guys about Blazing Grace, and what this organization has done for me. They will be excited to hear about my progress. I have been going to this meeting for 11 years, and they know my struggles with P and MB. I primarily share about my alcoholism, but they know about my other areas as well. More will be revealed...
Paul
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Post by Deleted on May 19, 2015 10:00:47 GMT -7
Hang in there Paul, we are here for you. I may not be on as much as I used to be, but you can always PM me if you need a kick in the arse. PMs are emailed to me to alert me.
You CAN do this. You are off to a GREAT start and it will get easier.
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Post by Deleted on May 20, 2015 23:27:54 GMT -7
Hi Paul, being about 10 or so days sober, I too have been struggling with my thought life these past few days. Despite the thoughts, I've personally managed to not act out by cranking some worship music and imagining how I always felt immediately after I M, and the answer is never very good! I'm new here but you are definitely not alone in your struggles. I hope your meeting went well btw.
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Post by KevinesKay on May 25, 2015 0:54:44 GMT -7
How's it going, Paul?
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Post by Deleted on May 26, 2015 15:37:10 GMT -7
Hey Kevin!
I.m doing good, I have good quality days behind me. 19 to be exact. No lust, no p no mb. Been busy, life does that to me once in a while. I am having some serious healt issues that I will soon reveal, I'll have more info on Friday.went on a weekend beach trip to the sand dunes at pismo beach CA. Back home, so back to life.
Paul
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Post by Deleted on May 26, 2015 15:37:16 GMT -7
Hey Kevin!
I.m doing good, I have good quality days behind me. 19 to be exact. No lust, no p no mb. Been busy, life does that to me once in a while. I am having some serious healt issues that I will soon reveal, I'll have more info on Friday.went on a weekend beach trip to the sand dunes at pismo beach CA. Back home, so back to life.
Paul
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Post by Deleted on May 26, 2015 15:37:17 GMT -7
Hey Kevin!
I.m doing good, I have good quality days behind me. 19 to be exact. No lust, no p no mb. Been busy, life does that to me once in a while. I am having some serious healt issues that I will soon reveal, I'll have more info on Friday.went on a weekend beach trip to the sand dunes at pismo beach CA. Back home, so back to life.
Paul
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