Post by Deleted on Aug 2, 2005 4:28:08 GMT -7
Hello everyone,
I just found this site today and after reading through several of the articles I felt compelled to register and share. I am a 36 year old male and I've had SA problems since my late teens even though I did not even know it was SA. I've always been in a Church/Christian environment, but I did not understand the gift of grace or actually accept Christ until a few months ago. Instantly, overnight, I was able to resist the temptation of sexual sin with God's help!
So, I've been 'clean' for several months up until a week ago. I've managed to stay clear of all the old trappings (TV, movies, books, and internet) that used to provide the opportunity, but when helping out a guy with a computer problem I stumbled on a folder he had that contained some pornography and gave in to temptation. I honestly was shocked at how strong the pull was! I realize now that I can't sit back and expect God to give me total immunity to this problem. I have to work at it and find resources to help me. Guess I was destined to find this site!
Like I said, I feel I've had problems with SA since my late teens. I had a couple sexual experiences when I was 17 then I ended up in the military and was in a situation where prositution was very accessible. I guess with my mindset of "all my friends are doing it and the girls were willing" I thought it was OK and no one was getting hurt. I've had several relationships after leaving the service, all of which were really physically motivated. I know now I was always looking for the wrong things in a relationship.
Over the last few years, I've only had a couple very short term relationships, but my "use" of internet porn and masturbation increased drastically. I always knew it was wrong and was hurting me, but somehow I always rationalized it with 'it's better than sleeping around' or 'it helps me release stress' or some other such nonsense.
Now having accepted Jesus, I can truly feel a change in my heart. Except for my slip a week ago, I have stayed clear of such doings, which He has given me the strength to do. I honestly have no desire to go looking for it, but I know that if I stumble across it I could be in danger of slipping again. That slip though has made me realize I could benefit from encouragement and advice from others. Or like one of the articles mentions, I need to break the isolation I am in that can lead to situations where I give in to the temptation.
And now I am here! I will pray that God will use this site to further purify me to follow his will and keep his commandents. If any of you have time to remember me in prayer, I would be grateful.
God bless you all and thank you!!
Dave
I just found this site today and after reading through several of the articles I felt compelled to register and share. I am a 36 year old male and I've had SA problems since my late teens even though I did not even know it was SA. I've always been in a Church/Christian environment, but I did not understand the gift of grace or actually accept Christ until a few months ago. Instantly, overnight, I was able to resist the temptation of sexual sin with God's help!
So, I've been 'clean' for several months up until a week ago. I've managed to stay clear of all the old trappings (TV, movies, books, and internet) that used to provide the opportunity, but when helping out a guy with a computer problem I stumbled on a folder he had that contained some pornography and gave in to temptation. I honestly was shocked at how strong the pull was! I realize now that I can't sit back and expect God to give me total immunity to this problem. I have to work at it and find resources to help me. Guess I was destined to find this site!
Like I said, I feel I've had problems with SA since my late teens. I had a couple sexual experiences when I was 17 then I ended up in the military and was in a situation where prositution was very accessible. I guess with my mindset of "all my friends are doing it and the girls were willing" I thought it was OK and no one was getting hurt. I've had several relationships after leaving the service, all of which were really physically motivated. I know now I was always looking for the wrong things in a relationship.
Over the last few years, I've only had a couple very short term relationships, but my "use" of internet porn and masturbation increased drastically. I always knew it was wrong and was hurting me, but somehow I always rationalized it with 'it's better than sleeping around' or 'it helps me release stress' or some other such nonsense.
Now having accepted Jesus, I can truly feel a change in my heart. Except for my slip a week ago, I have stayed clear of such doings, which He has given me the strength to do. I honestly have no desire to go looking for it, but I know that if I stumble across it I could be in danger of slipping again. That slip though has made me realize I could benefit from encouragement and advice from others. Or like one of the articles mentions, I need to break the isolation I am in that can lead to situations where I give in to the temptation.
And now I am here! I will pray that God will use this site to further purify me to follow his will and keep his commandents. If any of you have time to remember me in prayer, I would be grateful.
God bless you all and thank you!!
Dave