Dear hurt wives...

I'm recovering in Jesus now, I see the wrong that I did to God, by hurting my wife, and I am understanding how bad I am, when I listen to your stories on here, in books, and elsewhere. The pain you have from your husband's addiction...wow. Please know this, it was never ever your fault for anything your husband did, even if you yelled at him, it was always his fault, the sin and love of sin. It was my fault that I caused my wife so much pain, that she is hurting and trying to recovery now.

I will say this about me....

I am a dog...apart from Jesus, if I am not trusting and obeying and following Jesus Christ, the dog/flesh/evil sick will will reactivate like a dormant virus and make me crazy.......crazy to get any and all drugs my sick heart wants......I'm not trying to boast of my evil, but trying to explain how sick my state is and say this...

Only a real relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ can and will ever save, clean, teach and training your husband / fiancee / boyfriend. I know because I know Jesus Christ and I know what He is doing in my own heart. I am able to love my wife again, "not" because I did anything. It's because Jesus Christ has opened my eyes to see that my wife was a gift from God given to me, precious and dear, even in all her issue, my suitable partner, my graceful dove, like the Bible says, and I know she is that now. Before, I was deceived into thinking she is just some 'piece of meat' for 'sex' like some sex slave. how pitiful and miserable that mindset is.

If your husband begs for sex, and you do that, sure, it's a gift in marriage, but he needs to know that "you" are not just for "sex" and much more. Pray that the Lord opens his eyes to see that. It doesn't matter your looks, your weight, your wrinkles, your smell, anything you might be worrying about......Your husband will love you for you, no matter what. Till Death do you part, and that is not a fantasy but a reality in the marriages of husband who have loved Jesus Christ and are now born-again and enabled by God to produce the fruit of the Spirit which is love and that will love you. The Bible definition of love is 1 Corinthians 13, and that is who Jesus is and that is what God can turn your husband into "IF" your husband will admit his pride, sins, sexually immorality to God and cry out, repent to God, be 1st sorry to God for sinning against God, be sorry to God that he sinned and deserves hell for his sins, trusts that Jesus Christ is able and willing to forgive him of all of his sins....

Once he does that, God will work in his life and by the "fear of the Lord" we will depart from evil. That is our holy hope as broken, and recovery husbands in this sex addiction.

Dear Jesus, please bless the marriages and fiancee's and boyfriend and girlfriend relationships that are hurting with problem. Please draw us men to You Jesus so we can be saved and together with You Dear God, and please bless their marriages so the man will again love his wife, and she of her special again and only imagine marital happiness only with his wife. Please heal the brokenhearted wife's, please let them know that it was not there fault or look or anything, but sin in the man, and the sins were all paid for by You Dear Jesus, please help us men to see what you actually did for us on that cross and let it smash down our proud, stubborn, hearts, and cry out to You for mercy. There is no other hope Lord until you work and draw us and change us, because we are desperately lost until you find us. please see and find the lost men and women, who like me, have sex addictive behaviors and please forgive us Lord. Please bless our marriages again not because we did something but because You are the God of mercy and love and judgment. Please help us Lord, in Jesus' name. Amen.

May God be with you.