Lots of things are happening with me, um I'll put them in bullet points so as not to write an essay!
- Have some deep-seated, terrible spiritual possession or fear or suppressed experience that I don't know how to combat. Need to be released fron this before I can serve God uninhibitedly with my life and fruitfully, that is what I want to do - Went to Israel about a year ago in the hopes of getting struck supernaturally by the Holy Spirit and set free from this thing. - It's associated with also 'baptizsm in the Holy Spirit' and also 'blessed assurance of Salvation', neither of these am convinced I really have yet. - Didn't happen in Israel (thank you for your prayers then everyone by the way though, it meant a lot!) - Disillusioned I came back to Australia and fell back into porn quite badly - But in November the first of three big spiritual breakthroughs happened for me: 1) God blessed me to realise that I didn't need anymore to subscribe to my family's values, values of warlike, macho, money, social status, etc. Nor did I need to feel myself 'under' those values, but was free to follow Jesus with my whole life. This verse spoke to me: "they will beat their swords into ploughshares, and they will study war no more". That the values of Christ were now my values, and I was free to let go of those other values and that whole value system. 2) In December, that I could no longer be happy with careerism and considering money, etc as a primary or significant consideration, but that 'living for the Spirit and not for the flesh' would be my future. That my peace was dependent on living truly a life of ministry in some capacity, whether Missionary work, or something else. 3) In January, the verse "Seek FIRST the Kingdom of God and His Righteousness, and all these things will be added unto you" really blew my mind in wonderful ways. It's that "first" that really hit me, because it was an answer to a lot of my issues with direction, i.e. what to do with my life, etc. I don't need to know what to do with it, nor to plan, I only need to SEEK, FIRST (before doing anything else) the Kingdom of God.
These breakthroughs came from talking with blessed brothers and sisters, and listening to Ministers and preachers. So I had received: 1) to let go of my old life's enslavement to values of the world 2) the insight to make the decision that I must follow the Spirit with my life wherever it took me for any kind of peace of mind as this is my 'purpose' and we can't be truly at peace unless we are 'on purpose', living life in the direction of our purpose 3) the immediate instructions on how to do that: that in whatever situation you are in, look UP, and seek first the Kingdom. That's all you need to know
So from there, I put out a bunch of emails appyling for various Ministry and volunteering posts. My enthusiasm was greeted warmly and I hooked up to: - become kind of a deacon at my Church, looking after a complex phone bill issue for them (we were basically being persecuted by thousands of dollars of unwarranted phone charges, took months to untangle it all and get it sorted out) - make a video for the other fellowship I attend, that has been a real blessing - volunteer for a (very junior!) Ministry role at a Christian camp sharing the gospel with Jewish backpackers. - Took on the responsibility of doing a three-sermon series at Church, based partly on my trip to Jerusalem, that has so far been well-received.
I also praise God finally moved out of my super-expensive rent apartment and was able to save a few thousand dollars to finance the volunteering trip.
Quit my job of 4 years in the wicked industry of TV in preparation for being a 'full-time Christian'
Am now living in temp accomodation and ready to ship out to the camp. Super excited and stoked!
Of course its not all fun and games, it has been an exhausting few months with a huge amount of trials and tribulations. Have cried out and moaned and whined to God a lot in frustration and tiredness, and He has supported me and answered my prayers.
At the camp I am planning to:
- Get closer to God, reading the Word of God more and Christian books, share the Gospel, away from some of the influences of the world, in the hopes that I can be set free from whatever this unclean influence or thing is in me that I need to get rid of - Meditate on what kind of economic, 'career' move I should do next, where to go and what to do. I have a chronic medical issue that also I need wisdom on how to deal with - have a vacation among fellow believers in a nice, country environment!
So that's what's going on with me. Sorry probably too much information!!
Seeking first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness
Amymine712: I will be praying for your situation Tee
Sept 18, 2018 17:49:12 GMT -7
teetop: It seems that I have offended many here on Blazing Grace and to that end I am sorry.
Sept 22, 2018 8:39:07 GMT -7
teetop: Both requests have been acted on and I am sorry I've offended anyone here on Blazing Grace. Virgil
Sept 23, 2018 15:13:27 GMT -7
Amymine712: Tee, how are you doing?
Sept 23, 2018 15:15:52 GMT -7
teetop: To answer your question Amy, not so good today. Too many things rearing their ugly head all at once.
Oct 19, 2018 18:54:40 GMT -7
teetop: Pro 3:5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart And do not lean on your own understanding. Pro 3:6 In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight. ]
Oct 19, 2018 19:17:44 GMT -7
ridat: Teach me Your way, ADONAI, that I may walk in Your truth. Give me an undivided heart to fear Your Name.
Nov 18, 2018 2:09:15 GMT -7
freerein: Wife of an addict here trying to gain wisdom.
Dec 2, 2018 21:58:15 GMT -7
Amymine712: Welcome freerein. I moved your thread to the wife's section so that the wives would be more likely to see it. You are welcome to post everywhere on the forums.
Dec 3, 2018 9:43:46 GMT -7
Will: HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jan 3, 2019 4:57:58 GMT -7
Dominic M.: Thank you for bring the forums back.
Jan 9, 2019 21:07:52 GMT -7
Amymine712: I was surprised that they were down. Mike got them back up! So grateful!
Jan 10, 2019 4:35:27 GMT -7
Will: Yep thanks for bringing the forums back!
Jan 12, 2019 1:27:13 GMT -7
Dominic M.: Praying for us.
Jan 24, 2019 2:37:11 GMT -7
zat: Thank you guys for the approval. I hope to find the sharing platform here.
Jan 30, 2019 10:33:56 GMT -7
Amymine712: You are welcome! Feel free to start a thread and tells us about yourself.
Jan 31, 2019 3:43:48 GMT -7
Dominic M.: how is everyone out there?
Apr 30, 2019 17:14:37 GMT -7
teetop: Doing great Dominic. Thanks for asking. A slight bout of pneumonia that the VA Doctor said I had, ha, ha! (Horse pills now.)
Jul 23, 2019 5:37:37 GMT -7
Dominic M.: VA. Cool. I'm also a vet. Thanks for serving brother.
Jul 25, 2019 7:27:22 GMT -7
Dominic M.: For if we sin wilfully after that we have received the knowledge of the truth, there remaineth no more sacrifice for sins, But a certain fearful looking for of judgment and fiery indignation, which shall devour the adversaries. Hebrews 10:26-27 KJV
Aug 8, 2019 3:58:43 GMT -7