Daniela
Member
Posts: 74
Occupation: Lifestyle Counselor
|
Post by Daniela on Apr 13, 2019 9:09:08 GMT -7
Hi everyone,
I know it's been a long time (about 1 1/2 years) that I have been on here. I'm still struggling with masturbation on and off. Last year at this time, after 6 months of sobriety, I fell back into the habit, and ever since my longest streak was maybe 2 months or so. After acting out the last time 2 1/2 weeks ago, I thought I had it under control now. But today, I didn't stay at church for the afternoon programme and thus I had a little too much time at hand. In addition, it's that time of the month when my cravings are usually stronger. So I allowed it to happen again; and I even used soft porn with it. I feel so ashamed that I keep falling - especially with using porn, which is nothing but fornication. I have asked the Lord to help me to abhor these videos on YouTube, but unfortunately it hasn't happened yet. Only afterwards I feel bad. The thing is that there is still no husband for me in sight. I believe it would quell my battle if I was married. However, I do realize that I need to overcome this before.
Anyway, I appreciate if you could pray for me to stay sober now. It's really my desire!
|
|
Deleted
Deleted Member
Posts: 0
|
Post by Deleted on Apr 13, 2019 15:02:38 GMT -7
Hi Dani! It is nice to hear from you again. I will keep you in my prayers.
|
|
|
Post by Will on Jun 22, 2019 3:38:44 GMT -7
Hi Daniela! Don't know if you're reading the forum at the moment. Wanted to say hi as I so sympathise with your plight. I have been exactly the same for many, many years. Funny that you say that about a husband and I thought for many years the same about a wife. The Truth I believe is that as long as I was thinking 'oh wow a wife would be great, then I wouldn't have this problem', the problem was still there. Only thinking and understanding that the Lord God Almighty's beautiful Kingdom will fill the hole in my heart, and nothing else, including a spouse, can ever do it, because it's a spiritual problem of loneliness in our hearts that is much bigger than just a worldly one of finding a partner, did I start getting victory. Youtube sucks and is evil. You will notice that when you look at something un-Godly, the suggestions on the right of the screen will attempt to lure you into yet worse un-Godliness. I believe it is programmed to do that. It's like a 'slippery slope algorithm. God bless you and hope you are doing better. Please check in and update us with your progress. Your struggle sounds so much like mine! www.youtube.com/watch?v=RkBByVfMWBI (sorry this is a youtube link but its a good one!)
|
|